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Oh my GOD. I am so angry right now. This whole month has been a total and complete aggravation.
I'll run through the days for you. The last week was my brother’s birthday. That was fun and all but I didn’t really do anything else that entire week but work. Also the crap with my mom was still going on that week too. Luckily she’s gone for good now. So I can relax about that.
This week has been a total nightmare also. My other brother’s birthday was this week and I missed his birthday party because of work. On Thursday I was at work sweeping and Norman(the big black guy that has a crush on me but he’s twice my age and is married with kids) started yelling at me to "come here" and he pointed to the ground like I was his dog or something. I was so mad. I can’t believe he would do that to me. Then he came over to me and pushed me into the corner and started asking me why I don’t come when he calls me. I told him that I was sweeping and to leave me alone. Then he hugged me and was laughing. The guy in deli asked me if I wanted a knife or something to keep Norman away. lol. Later Norman started yelling that I was racist and that I hate black people. I don’t. I’m not racist against anyone. Ever. I get pissed and told him that I love black people I just hate him. That shut him up for a little while. Thank god there was no one in the store at the time and that all to other people I work with were trying to get Norman to stop or else I would have hit the guy in the face. They think I should tell the manager but I don’t want to get the guy fired cuz the costumers love the guy... why I don’t know. Well it’s over and done with and now I don’t even look at the guy. If he bothers me again then that’s it I’m getting him fired. I don’t care. I have to look out for myself. Oh man. I feel better now that I got that outa my system.
There’s just one more thing that’s got me mad. Last Saturday during my break I was walking behind publix to get something to eat when these guys in some car pull up and roll down there window. They started saying stuff like come over here baby and crap like that I just laughed and kept walking. Thank god they didn’t follow me. Well today I was walking down the same road when some guy in a truck pulls up and starts whistling at me. Then he starts circling around me in his car and saying stuff in Spanish. I just kept walking. I really hope they never realize I work at ben and bobs or follow me. I wanted to cry. It did scare me alot.
There’s so much stress around me right now, I hate it with a passion. I don’t know maybe I should quit, i’m just not happy anymore. I think I’ll get over this whole thing tho. My friend Rene will make me happy. I see him at work tomorrow. He’s very comforting. That’s why I love him so much.
well. I officially have no life, it’s been consumed by school and work. Damn the Man!! I really hate him sometimes. I miss going outside after school and all of my neighbors would be out there and I could talk to everyone and get in alota trouble. But now everyone stays inside and plays on the computer or just sits around. I think it’s because my river moved away. I miss him.... alot.
Well I’m done boring you to death. This really did help me. Please comment and make me feel better.
<3 arlena.
I'll run through the days for you. The last week was my brother’s birthday. That was fun and all but I didn’t really do anything else that entire week but work. Also the crap with my mom was still going on that week too. Luckily she’s gone for good now. So I can relax about that.
This week has been a total nightmare also. My other brother’s birthday was this week and I missed his birthday party because of work. On Thursday I was at work sweeping and Norman(the big black guy that has a crush on me but he’s twice my age and is married with kids) started yelling at me to "come here" and he pointed to the ground like I was his dog or something. I was so mad. I can’t believe he would do that to me. Then he came over to me and pushed me into the corner and started asking me why I don’t come when he calls me. I told him that I was sweeping and to leave me alone. Then he hugged me and was laughing. The guy in deli asked me if I wanted a knife or something to keep Norman away. lol. Later Norman started yelling that I was racist and that I hate black people. I don’t. I’m not racist against anyone. Ever. I get pissed and told him that I love black people I just hate him. That shut him up for a little while. Thank god there was no one in the store at the time and that all to other people I work with were trying to get Norman to stop or else I would have hit the guy in the face. They think I should tell the manager but I don’t want to get the guy fired cuz the costumers love the guy... why I don’t know. Well it’s over and done with and now I don’t even look at the guy. If he bothers me again then that’s it I’m getting him fired. I don’t care. I have to look out for myself. Oh man. I feel better now that I got that outa my system.
There’s just one more thing that’s got me mad. Last Saturday during my break I was walking behind publix to get something to eat when these guys in some car pull up and roll down there window. They started saying stuff like come over here baby and crap like that I just laughed and kept walking. Thank god they didn’t follow me. Well today I was walking down the same road when some guy in a truck pulls up and starts whistling at me. Then he starts circling around me in his car and saying stuff in Spanish. I just kept walking. I really hope they never realize I work at ben and bobs or follow me. I wanted to cry. It did scare me alot.
There’s so much stress around me right now, I hate it with a passion. I don’t know maybe I should quit, i’m just not happy anymore. I think I’ll get over this whole thing tho. My friend Rene will make me happy. I see him at work tomorrow. He’s very comforting. That’s why I love him so much.
well. I officially have no life, it’s been consumed by school and work. Damn the Man!! I really hate him sometimes. I miss going outside after school and all of my neighbors would be out there and I could talk to everyone and get in alota trouble. But now everyone stays inside and plays on the computer or just sits around. I think it’s because my river moved away. I miss him.... alot.
Well I’m done boring you to death. This really did help me. Please comment and make me feel better.
<3 arlena.