Long Time No Update!!!
Heya Everyone!!
Hope your all well
Still madly in love with my Paul, things are going great!!!
Hes started his new job and is doing good there. Ive been absent from college for about 2 weeks now. About 2 weeks ago we found out we were pregnant!!! A week later I lost the baby. We are devastated, but as my mum says, my nan pinched him/her cos she was feeling lonely up there. Who knows what will have in the next few months we are taking each day as it comes, see what happens. Its upsetting seeing pregnant women and newly born babies but I know i just gotta get on with it. Other than that My health has been great, not much pain before pregnancy.
Matthew is great, hes still loving nursery, bit clingy to me lately and to be honest Im a little worried about tongiht. Hes staying overnight at his dads tonight for the first time in about a year. Im worried mainly because the other week my mum babysat for me and he was fine till bedtime then she said he fretted lots about me and wouldnt settle... He knows my mum alot better than he does his own dad (which is sad i know, his fault though) Keeps bringing tears to my eyes when he sayd "Im staying at daddy ryans all ngiht later but I will miss mummy lots". It was the second (and hopefully the last) court date Tuesday just gone (13th) It went smoothly and was sorted out pretty quick but the judge sorta lectured us at the end while we were waiting for the court order to be printed. I think because Ryan had made the application to the court he assumed I had stopped Ryan from seeing Matthew, which in a sense is true but the way things were back then, it wasnt good for me or Matthew and I did warn him that if Jody kept threatening me the contact would stop, hes obviously didnt get that through to her as she didnt stop so contact did. Anyway its all hopefully sorted now I just didnt like the way the blame was pointed at me thats all!
College is going ok, although Ive missed alot of work Im working on catching up and will hopefully be back in on Monday to collect the work I missed then thats me done till after christmas, just feel I cant face it yet. I spoke to my tutor though and she understands totally.
Driving is going good to, although the other night driving home from my mums i seen Paul decretely clinging on to his passenger seat for life LOL.. I really am not that bad haha. Got my test next week so hopefully Ill pass, got my eye on two cars so hopefully one will be good enough, will ring dad after and ask him the questions we need to ask.
Spent the last week or so getting the house ready for christmas, cleaning and finishing off the christmas shopping. Just spent the morning with my mum which was nice. We dont get much mummy-daughter time. All the family will be up over Christmas, should be fun, inc my dad, nan, two brothers and families. Boxing day my mum is having a party for the whole family too. We will be over at hers for christmas dinner. Matthew has been spoilt rotten, think All together hes had about £400 spent on him over the last few months!!!!
Anyway I have washing to do and I need to go pack my babys bag for tonight. I have the house to myself tomorrow which I am looking forward too.
Bye for now
Julie x x
ps some piccies to share!!
Hope your all well
Still madly in love with my Paul, things are going great!!!
Hes started his new job and is doing good there. Ive been absent from college for about 2 weeks now. About 2 weeks ago we found out we were pregnant!!! A week later I lost the baby. We are devastated, but as my mum says, my nan pinched him/her cos she was feeling lonely up there. Who knows what will have in the next few months we are taking each day as it comes, see what happens. Its upsetting seeing pregnant women and newly born babies but I know i just gotta get on with it. Other than that My health has been great, not much pain before pregnancy.
Matthew is great, hes still loving nursery, bit clingy to me lately and to be honest Im a little worried about tongiht. Hes staying overnight at his dads tonight for the first time in about a year. Im worried mainly because the other week my mum babysat for me and he was fine till bedtime then she said he fretted lots about me and wouldnt settle... He knows my mum alot better than he does his own dad (which is sad i know, his fault though) Keeps bringing tears to my eyes when he sayd "Im staying at daddy ryans all ngiht later but I will miss mummy lots". It was the second (and hopefully the last) court date Tuesday just gone (13th) It went smoothly and was sorted out pretty quick but the judge sorta lectured us at the end while we were waiting for the court order to be printed. I think because Ryan had made the application to the court he assumed I had stopped Ryan from seeing Matthew, which in a sense is true but the way things were back then, it wasnt good for me or Matthew and I did warn him that if Jody kept threatening me the contact would stop, hes obviously didnt get that through to her as she didnt stop so contact did. Anyway its all hopefully sorted now I just didnt like the way the blame was pointed at me thats all!
College is going ok, although Ive missed alot of work Im working on catching up and will hopefully be back in on Monday to collect the work I missed then thats me done till after christmas, just feel I cant face it yet. I spoke to my tutor though and she understands totally.
Driving is going good to, although the other night driving home from my mums i seen Paul decretely clinging on to his passenger seat for life LOL.. I really am not that bad haha. Got my test next week so hopefully Ill pass, got my eye on two cars so hopefully one will be good enough, will ring dad after and ask him the questions we need to ask.
Spent the last week or so getting the house ready for christmas, cleaning and finishing off the christmas shopping. Just spent the morning with my mum which was nice. We dont get much mummy-daughter time. All the family will be up over Christmas, should be fun, inc my dad, nan, two brothers and families. Boxing day my mum is having a party for the whole family too. We will be over at hers for christmas dinner. Matthew has been spoilt rotten, think All together hes had about £400 spent on him over the last few months!!!!
Anyway I have washing to do and I need to go pack my babys bag for tonight. I have the house to myself tomorrow which I am looking forward too.
Bye for now
Julie x x
ps some piccies to share!!