*sigh*
gah made an arse of myself yesterday by balling my eyes out at ashton's again.
i had a great night out and then i had to put a downer on it! grrr. Kiad's Psytrance rave was awesome. it was just so good to dance.
but anyway, he's sorry i'm upset, but it's not changing anything. couldn't sleep in the same room. and all i wanted was to snuggle. but i got where he was coming from i guess.
i wish he wasn't hung up on her still though. he rang me a little bit ago. said taht she texted him. asking to hook up. :( i bet they'll get back together again. that will suck big time.
but i'll get over this soon. i'm getting to the point where i actually feel like i'm running out of tears to cry.
fucking KMFM and their soppy sunday love songs. not helping.
lol.
ah well he'll have his slot on the new student radio station next friday. and at least then there'll be something worse listening to. mind you it probably wont help listening to his voice. GAY!
i'm seeing him on thursday for anime. im not gonna let myself screw this night up too. he's a friend. full stop. i should realise he's a bastard. and just appreciate our friendship i guess. good friend, shit boyfriend.
moan moan moan.
rant rant rant.
i can't believe it's over before it's even begun.
i had a great night out and then i had to put a downer on it! grrr. Kiad's Psytrance rave was awesome. it was just so good to dance.
but anyway, he's sorry i'm upset, but it's not changing anything. couldn't sleep in the same room. and all i wanted was to snuggle. but i got where he was coming from i guess.
i wish he wasn't hung up on her still though. he rang me a little bit ago. said taht she texted him. asking to hook up. :( i bet they'll get back together again. that will suck big time.
but i'll get over this soon. i'm getting to the point where i actually feel like i'm running out of tears to cry.
fucking KMFM and their soppy sunday love songs. not helping.
lol.
ah well he'll have his slot on the new student radio station next friday. and at least then there'll be something worse listening to. mind you it probably wont help listening to his voice. GAY!
i'm seeing him on thursday for anime. im not gonna let myself screw this night up too. he's a friend. full stop. i should realise he's a bastard. and just appreciate our friendship i guess. good friend, shit boyfriend.
moan moan moan.
rant rant rant.
i can't believe it's over before it's even begun.