ryan+john=milkshakes
so this weekend was amazing...i was very nervous that i would be miserable and hate every moment......i also thought being around john would make me feel like crap because he would be there but out of reach...but he wasn't i held him in my little arms and slaped his ass....haha....yo i hit that shit....prom was nice.....my date was the hottest one there....he was great.....and made me feal like a princess:)him and ryan i think should date....i was starting to get jelous of ryan cuz him and john hit it off so well....they didn't play milkshake for them though...and john was sad....and i danced like a white boy.....and i stood on johns feet when we slow danced...it was funny.....everyone looked amazing......i looked ok....but i didn't really care because john was blinding be with his excellence and i didn't really care about anything else.....i met his mom and dad and little brother this weekend...they are great...i felt really confortable and relaxed.....good vibes...good vibes...i want his life so bad.....it seems perfect but human.....i have his NKOTB shirt...yeah new kids!!!it smells like him and it makes me want to touch myself....haha....pervert....john goes to NC tomorrow morning...but i won't miss him because i am heartless and don't care for him one bit.....and i so didn't cry leaving him this time...i am way to tough....hahhahaha JK....i told him i wish i could hate him becuase it would make everything so much easier....but i can't.....because I LOVE HIM.....he makes me feel alive....and ahhhhh...great....
so i told my rents i was bi-sexual today....and i think my mom was a little freaked but my dad was cool.....then we stared talking about gay people and gay marriage....it was good....
i got pulled overtoday brining jonh home.....yeah so its a lot $235..shit son...money i don't have...i am a fuck up....
trainign on tuesday....work all week fucking long...
a few more weeks of school....and then the summer....good time good memories...lots of work...little play...but hopefully jonh will send me down to NC for a few days...even if its for like 5 mins as long as i get to see him smile and hear him laugh......i think i really do love him.....
enough with being emo...i am going to go rip a cats lung out....
so i told my rents i was bi-sexual today....and i think my mom was a little freaked but my dad was cool.....then we stared talking about gay people and gay marriage....it was good....
i got pulled overtoday brining jonh home.....yeah so its a lot $235..shit son...money i don't have...i am a fuck up....
trainign on tuesday....work all week fucking long...
a few more weeks of school....and then the summer....good time good memories...lots of work...little play...but hopefully jonh will send me down to NC for a few days...even if its for like 5 mins as long as i get to see him smile and hear him laugh......i think i really do love him.....
enough with being emo...i am going to go rip a cats lung out....