What is any life without the pursuit of a dream?
so it has been sometime scene i have written anything of importance......nothing though has been to great or to bad.....steady.....which is good but it would be nice if something amazing happened.....i duno what....maybe like hanging out with people i used to or just watching a VHS tape with a certain someone that i used to watch VHS tapes with at the begging of the summer...why is that a waste now? what happened to us??? where are you going??i always go and fuck things up...or maybe it was never there to get fucked up....or maybe one last night out with a bunch of us....like the arcade or maybe the playground.......
its weird that i didn't have to go back to high school....i am pretty pumped about that...and i only have 2 more days of work....no more park side after friday...ever.....there will be things i will miss...like perhaps the free food and all the endless ice cream i could eat.....and i will miss the water fights and the sex conversations......and heather screaming.....and some of the younger kids that are so innocent and fragile.....i will also miss seeing fred drunk and listening to him freak out about everything "not" being done....
I got my ears gagged to a 10 i want to go to a 4....i will take my time....i really want a tat. but i know what i want so i guess that will have to wait on that as well...because i really want the one on my leg covered up and i want it to be something nice but i have no idea i want someone to draw it for me.....any ideas????
i go on vacation the 7th till the 19th...i def.. need this just to spend some time relaxing and hanging out with my dad before i step out into the "real world"....and then i move on oct 1st.....(less then 5 weeks)and ya'll know how much i hate this shit of a place....i can't wait to start living...for real......i am not living i am just following a routine....i am only what you want me to be......
i duno....with all the shit i have learned....and i guess i am thankful for that...but i do know something’s never change....and something’s never stay the same...........
call me and maybe if you are lucky we can hangout before i leave forever......cell 413-205-6800
House 267-9739