never gonna give you up...
I know... i know... livejournal I ignore you so much. I treat you horribly. and I am sorry. I have no excuses except that I get attracted to new and shiny things and run away for awhile. yet I still can't fully let you go. an oasis hidden in the vast desert.
life. a fickle bitch. continues. my journey is strange yet typical. I'm 35 and stagnant. gravity has taken its toll but I am still upright. but things about my arrested development that were once charming have lost their luster. Its not funny or cute anymore, only sad and pathetic. More than any other time (which can be said every time, but no this time i mean it!) I need to grow up. grow out. and take charge. shit or get off the pot. no excuses. right? right. I have to be melodramatic or it doesnt motivate. I have to be life or death or I feel like procrastination is always an option. it can't be. not this time. because it will hurt more than me. and because I should have more respect for myself. and because there is so much more out there and its never too late to start.
its never too late.
its never too late.
its never too late.
life. a fickle bitch. continues. my journey is strange yet typical. I'm 35 and stagnant. gravity has taken its toll but I am still upright. but things about my arrested development that were once charming have lost their luster. Its not funny or cute anymore, only sad and pathetic. More than any other time (which can be said every time, but no this time i mean it!) I need to grow up. grow out. and take charge. shit or get off the pot. no excuses. right? right. I have to be melodramatic or it doesnt motivate. I have to be life or death or I feel like procrastination is always an option. it can't be. not this time. because it will hurt more than me. and because I should have more respect for myself. and because there is so much more out there and its never too late to start.
its never too late.
its never too late.
its never too late.