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the past few days out of my house have been amazing. however..when i come home its a whole different ball game. i can't stand being here anymore it just seems like all we do is fight. and then i just ignore ppl cuz everyone knows i hate arguing. yet my mother still seems to think the few times that i do snap and just lose it and start bawling my eyes out..she thinks its for attention. *hint to mom* if i wanted attention from you every single time u make me feel like shit..u'd know it. but i don't think u know how often that happens. whatever. i'm working almost everyday for 8 hours so thats a huge chunk outa the day that i don't have to see her. sounds mean but u'd understand if u lived here. i love her to death but oh my god. ok sorry done complaining. u prolly shouldn't have read all that. and if u didn't good job. things are real fucked up between me and rob right now. kinda sad but i tried if it wasnt meant to be well i guess nothings gonna happen. things with me and mike are 'good' i guess. i don't really know its really cute but weird at the same time. we'll just go with it and see what happens considering i kno him so well prolly nothing but hey no assumptions this time. i let one person screw up my entire view on boys and such and it really sucks so i'm gonna do something about it and try not letting it get to me. havent talked to ben in awhile either.. also kinda depressing but soon enough. alright gota go finish up some stuff then dreading the conversation over dinner. eek.