sisters
so my family continually pisses me off. well mostly my sisters. i hate that fact that i am supposed to be there for them constantly and they are never there for me. take the l and l. i am doing my first solo. this is a big deal. neither of them seem to care. last year, middleboog decided not to celebrate my birthday because she had to work all morning while we celebrated it in the evening. later she was pissed because i did the same thing to her. whatever. what does she expect?? me to be all sunshine and forgive her every move. yesterday when i came over she was piss and vinegar to me. why do i continually have to take this??? when i say something to them i am the bad person. i get treated like shit and i am the horrible sister. i have always had to be perfect. i was never good enough for anyone. i only did drugs once. middleboog got a suspension for it in school. noone even knew about me doing drugs. i had a 3.8 gpa. erica had like a 3.0. really.. ta fuck. why am i the imperfect one that constantly gets graded on a different scale?? why do i have to be fucking perfect and take all the shit that i am given. she ran away from her family and didn't talk to us for months and when she came back everything was fine and dandy. i don't talk to them for a week and everyone throws a hissy fit. the only reason they want me to come over is to see my fucking dog.
and littleboog. good forbid she should grace me with her fucking presence. she's a lvl 10 gymnast and i should fucking worship her. no. she won't even pretend i exist when i'm over. i am sick of this shit. this is what i had to deal with when we were growing up. why do i constantly have to be the outsider. i asked her to go to the l&l and she was like well maybe.. like it would be a huge inconvenience for her to support me like i support her. everytime she fucks up in gymnastics and everyone else gives her a hard time. i tell her how postively she did to try to encourage her. what a nice fucking person i am. oh well little bastards. they don't give a shit about my feelings because obviously they don't care.
and littleboog. good forbid she should grace me with her fucking presence. she's a lvl 10 gymnast and i should fucking worship her. no. she won't even pretend i exist when i'm over. i am sick of this shit. this is what i had to deal with when we were growing up. why do i constantly have to be the outsider. i asked her to go to the l&l and she was like well maybe.. like it would be a huge inconvenience for her to support me like i support her. everytime she fucks up in gymnastics and everyone else gives her a hard time. i tell her how postively she did to try to encourage her. what a nice fucking person i am. oh well little bastards. they don't give a shit about my feelings because obviously they don't care.