Apr 27, 2004 17:41
so boog tied for 3rd on floor and 4th on vault at nationals. in the nation i am sooooo impressed. mom doesn't have much faith in her getting a scholarship from a good college like one of the big tens cause her coaches aren't great. oh well
weekend was good.. for the most part. wolf keeps yelling at me. i'm not sure what to do with him any more.
monday i had to build a deck at work. which means i had to haul all the really heavy wood about. fuckers. i am so sore today it hurts to lift my arms. isn't that pathetic?? today went to k and c's to help out. didn't do too terribly much. needed more wood. possibly more direction.
need a new job terribly.. can't take the unpredictability of my current one. i need steady employment or a sugar daddy/mommy. both are viable options. need to find rich old divorcee and pray he kicks the bucket soon. aren't i horrible??
need to get job to live on my own. need to find comfort in my own skin and the value of silence. always feel like i need to have people around. not sure what to due with my continual existence. i feel lost.. no direction. want to do things but unfortunately not ready yet..