affairs at renfair
so i had my stones read this weekend. she said several interesting things. first, i have had a rough year in many respects. that i had a huge thing with dance and i am really confused about everything. i need to gain my leadership back and it is time i do that. this place is too small for me and i need to go west. also a scholarship is available for me if i look. it was a very informative reading.
although she did point out something that i have been struggling with. my split about everything. i am not sure i am in the correct place in the world. with the job, the relationships, the dance, the life. this is so true. i'm not even sure what i want. i am happy about moving. for those who don't know, i moved into my own apartment on thursday.
the apartment is really tiny and smells like smoke. it's kinda funny. i got some matches from my mom, so i am going to burn incense like crazy until it smells halfway decent. everyday, i am worried about someone breaking in. i've never lived on the ground floor. other than at my parents, but that doesn't count cause they were always here as well as the dogs. i fear going home and finding everything gone. i lock the door everynight and secure everything. i want to close the windows cause i am so nervous, but then i know it will be hotter than hell in the apartment. there's not much of a breeze. i think my mom is really worried about me living there. when i moved, my mom was questioning the area and gorilla was trying to reassure her. her questioning started me thinking about the area and she kinda made me nervous. alright she made me nervous.
i feel so disconnected from people. i am having a hard time making contact. this is a really weird moment for me.. so indecisive.
although she did point out something that i have been struggling with. my split about everything. i am not sure i am in the correct place in the world. with the job, the relationships, the dance, the life. this is so true. i'm not even sure what i want. i am happy about moving. for those who don't know, i moved into my own apartment on thursday.
the apartment is really tiny and smells like smoke. it's kinda funny. i got some matches from my mom, so i am going to burn incense like crazy until it smells halfway decent. everyday, i am worried about someone breaking in. i've never lived on the ground floor. other than at my parents, but that doesn't count cause they were always here as well as the dogs. i fear going home and finding everything gone. i lock the door everynight and secure everything. i want to close the windows cause i am so nervous, but then i know it will be hotter than hell in the apartment. there's not much of a breeze. i think my mom is really worried about me living there. when i moved, my mom was questioning the area and gorilla was trying to reassure her. her questioning started me thinking about the area and she kinda made me nervous. alright she made me nervous.
i feel so disconnected from people. i am having a hard time making contact. this is a really weird moment for me.. so indecisive.