In Search of my lost sexuality...
I think that part of my problem is the lack of flirting... Another part is fear of who I was...
I would flirt with anything and everything that walked (just about.. ok, not really... but I did flirt a whole lot).
I don't flirt anymore because of love and respect... and jealousy. You see, i love and respect my husband, so I don't flirt as much as I did... that and i'm a very possessive and jealous person... He isn't, but knowing that I'd be pissed if he was flirting with someone else makes me not want to do it to him..
At the same time, part of my flirting went too far.. and that brings us to my fear...
When I say fear of who I was... that's something vaguely on the lines of my flirting... You see, I liked to cheat... I would not really stay with one person for a long period of time.. (normally not over 3 months)... I don't want to cheat on my Husband, I am really happy with him.. but at the same time, I was a person who liked to change things up a bit..
flirt and play around... that's what I did... I want my sexuality back, but not at the cost of my marriage.
Interesting dilemma...
I would flirt with anything and everything that walked (just about.. ok, not really... but I did flirt a whole lot).
I don't flirt anymore because of love and respect... and jealousy. You see, i love and respect my husband, so I don't flirt as much as I did... that and i'm a very possessive and jealous person... He isn't, but knowing that I'd be pissed if he was flirting with someone else makes me not want to do it to him..
At the same time, part of my flirting went too far.. and that brings us to my fear...
When I say fear of who I was... that's something vaguely on the lines of my flirting... You see, I liked to cheat... I would not really stay with one person for a long period of time.. (normally not over 3 months)... I don't want to cheat on my Husband, I am really happy with him.. but at the same time, I was a person who liked to change things up a bit..
flirt and play around... that's what I did... I want my sexuality back, but not at the cost of my marriage.
Interesting dilemma...