the week in brief

[littlegeeko]

this week has been crazy.
i'm such a good girl now...doing all this homework and studying.
wow i need a real journal so during the week i will get my feelings out somehow.
most of all this week has been long.
a lot of things are changing right now
but no one can see them but me.
aka: people get mad at me for lots of things
that's why i apologized at least
seventy....times....seven times.
when i really didn't feel like it.
but i'll just have to do it all over again
next week.
this week i've been thinking about a boy
much more than i should be.
but i'm just a little girl to him =)
i always have been.
the two people i feel closest to
and share all my thoughts and feeling with
have abandoned me.
and i can't even look them in the eye
without crying.
music has been my best friend this week
its the only thing that calms me down
same with sleeping.
but with music
it makes me extremely happy.
i want need to be in music.
so i will be entirely happy forever.
girls are controlling their boyfriends this week
or at least my one friends is
and he's sad.
i think i'm becoming one of those kids
who sleeps and does homework.
and occasionally runs her behind off for lacrosse.
stephanie i'm sorry about kyle
this is going to hurt for awhile.
my brothers you have given me hope this week
and give me someone to be comfortable around.
thank you for letting me be sarah.
i need social interaction!
and more friends who just
know
exactly what i mean
and exactly how i'm feeling.
but this week
has been excellent
nonetheless.
so no more apologizing
for being myself.
and i'm not gonna change
for anyone.