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at 15, i don't like to feel obligated. i make last minute plans, because i don’t like to be held down by something. it just means i have to commit to a plan and commitment is really tough. i think its especially tough at this age. being tied down just makes you feel like you HAVE to do something, like there is no other option. thats why a lot of guys i know cheat on their girlfriends. they don't like having just one person to like. and i can see where they're coming from now. commitment is hard. i guess i've learned just not to commit to something until you're really sure. maybe thats why i'm still waiting to commit myself to someone. i hope i learn to commit, and become obligated to what i say. but until then its hard. and it might take me awhile.