why
Why does it have to be like this? why cant everything just be easy for once so i can go with the flow? I know i want him but hes leavin soon? will those feeling still be there when he gets back? does he still have feelings for her? will he when he gets back? what about this guy? how do i tell him its not gonna work out? i dunno what to do!!!!! its like the more i hang out with this one guy the less scared i get but then i think bout him leaving again or i leave him and its like ugh!!!!! i cant stand it! y couldnt this have happened like 2 months ago? when it owuldve al been easier? then i got my friend with problems! and im hurting for her im outta things to say she keeps coming to me for advice but theres only so many things i can say! i really do think u made the right choice! u need to experience life on ur own a lil while! if its meant to be it will! let god work!! ok so my problem! its so magical with him and comforting i feel so safe! but then what if it turns into like last time? what will i do then? ill lose something i thought was so great and think how stupid could i have been for a 2nd time and ill lose a best friend! GOSH but im tired of playing the safe side of the fence! im ready to just go for it see where it goes! i cant let him rule my life forever! ok so this post is just rambiing on bout nuthing! im so confused! i wish he wasnt leaving then id know exactly what to do, unless he still has feelings for her? why am i falling for him so fast? each day i like him more and more! i dunno im gonna go work on a paper! luv ya!