ive got a problem
FFFFFUUUUCCCCKKKING SHIT! THINGS SUCK RIGHT NOW I LOOK IN THE MIRRIOR AND I SEE SOMEONE ELSE IM CHANGING AND I DONT LIKE IT I DONT KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE IM GOING CRAZY AND THE WORLDS GONNA END AS I KNOW IT I HAVENT BEEN ON THE COMP FOR TOO LING AND IM GLAD TO BE BACK ON THE LAST TIME I WAS ON MY GRANDMOTHER WAS DYING NOW SHES DEAD YUP GONE FOREVER THE COOL THING WAS THAT SHE WASENT AFRAID TO DIE THATSHOW IM GOING OUT BUT THATS NOT WHATS CHANGING ME ITS MY NEW LIFESTYLE I TRY TO BE HAPPY W/ A NEW HOUSE AND A BADASS ROOM HUDGE AND IM JUST NOT HAPPY I HAVENT BEEN HAPPY. EXCITED AND LAUGHTER THATS STILL THERE FOR ME HAPPIENESS IS LONG FORGOTTEN I JUST DONT REMEMBER IT AND I DONT KNOW WHY THIS DARK CLOUD JUST DECIDED TO RAIN ON ME BUT IT DID AND STILL IS NOW I JUST I CANT SLEEP ANYMORE ILL STAY AWAKE FOR DAYS AND WHEN I DO SLEEP I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AND THE MOST PATHETIC THING IS I DONT KNOW WHY........ I MEAN THE LAST THING I THINK IS I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS UNHAPPY. FORTUNETLY THE FEELING GOES BACK AND FORWARD LIKE A SKISTOFRANIC<------------HOPE THATS HOW YA SPELL IT AT LEAST THATS WHAT IT SEEMS LIKE BUT IVE LEARN THAT I COULD HIDE IT PUT IT OFF JUST LONG ENOUGH TO GET BY and i feel better when i want to happy here happy gone etc. ........ya know? luckly i felt a little bit better when my mom got a hold of me we talked for hours it was cool, mua b-day is comin up hopefully that will be one of my good days. maybe i shouldnt be worried maybe its just another phase of comfusion that ill get through i think personally that its all the anger and depression that i kept inside for so long and i broke and i can finally express it i mean crying and being sad is a whole lot better then faking it and holding it in right well psychological speaking ill get over it wish me luck!<-----not mandatory if you dont care