fustrastion
fustrastin...............were to me it can be several things a regret that you simply want to change and its pissing you off or that your pissed because your dissapointed but you never had expectations to begin with and so on and so forth me im all of the above with a once and a lifetime expeirence because im only going to be in the eighth grade 1 time if im lucky.yup thats right the fucken 8th grade dance the only one that people that actually matter to me in many more ways then one show up and a years memories go into one party and to me i screwed my experience up and i want it back . i mean i felt i had no true friends with an exeption of very few,i mean dont get me wrong i know a lot of people butthey consider me as just some guy they talk to. and i felt as if i wasnt wanted around like i was some fucken tag along . even when i went with my friends it seems asit didnt seem like i went its seemed more like i followed trust me theres a difference i know these things. it was amolst exactly like a third wheel but w/ way more then three wheels scratch that, that was a dumbass comparison. majority(,<<<<<<<<<<<,big word)of it was the fact that i felt like a fucken idiot dancing by myself i mean girls dance with girls, guys dance with girls,and i dance by my(fucken)self. dont get me wrong i danced w/ a good number of girls but even then self-consciously i think my dancing sucked,which makes me mad because when i dance with somebody i want them to actually enjoy dancing w/ me as much as i enjoy dancing with them.so every-which -way i went wrong rejection,suckie-ass (new word)dancing
and somehow i think with some of my friends never thought of me as there friend in the 1rst place rejection sucks i should just go kill myself