i need a compass, something pointing west.
my head is exploding.
- i got into an accident and totaled my car. the car that has taken me to so many shows.. so many awesome places.. gotten me into so much trouble.. is totaled. and the insurance company gave me DICK for it.. so now I have no way to get to my new job on monday.
- new job.. less pay but with benefits and paid vacations. only part time right now.. i need more hourrrss so i'm applying everywhere in the world.
- OCC won't give me my associates. i dropped out of SU even though i'm really close to being done. i can't handle it right now and honestly I don't know if I will ever be able to do it. School is really hard for me. For some reason I can't focus on anything. My head feels like it's underwater.
I don't really care to list of my further complaints in a bulleted list. I am just fucking sad. I don't know what my problem is and it's making me feel even worse when I'm around Chuck and I can't even smile for him. He deserves more than I can give him right now.
i have all of my problems in file folders on my desk. a stack of 6 or 7 folders all labeled and ready for me to cry about. too many problems right now. not enough answers. fuck my head. fuck fuck fuck.
- i got into an accident and totaled my car. the car that has taken me to so many shows.. so many awesome places.. gotten me into so much trouble.. is totaled. and the insurance company gave me DICK for it.. so now I have no way to get to my new job on monday.
- new job.. less pay but with benefits and paid vacations. only part time right now.. i need more hourrrss so i'm applying everywhere in the world.
- OCC won't give me my associates. i dropped out of SU even though i'm really close to being done. i can't handle it right now and honestly I don't know if I will ever be able to do it. School is really hard for me. For some reason I can't focus on anything. My head feels like it's underwater.
I don't really care to list of my further complaints in a bulleted list. I am just fucking sad. I don't know what my problem is and it's making me feel even worse when I'm around Chuck and I can't even smile for him. He deserves more than I can give him right now.
i have all of my problems in file folders on my desk. a stack of 6 or 7 folders all labeled and ready for me to cry about. too many problems right now. not enough answers. fuck my head. fuck fuck fuck.