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hmm been a while since i posted an update huh?
well lately i just feel so out of it.... feels almost as if the last of the people i actually care about don't care about me any longer...
My real life friends i've pretty much narrowed down who i hang out with..
how could i be so blind and hide behind my computer for so long that i actually became so attached to it that i've pushed away the majority of people i used to be close with?
is it that easy for me to become addicted to a game and a voice application program for my computer so that i can talk to people else where in the world yet can't even pick up my cell phone to call someone i know and have met in rl?
*sighs* i miss all the people i used to hang out with, i mean all the good times.
where people who knew me could tell if i was depressed and would actually show some effort to try to cheer me up.
I think it's nearly time for me to just walk away from everything online...
I've gotten way too addicted to a game called secondlife..
my best friend gave away her account on there cause of drama and bs that's been caused to her, yet i feel as close to my account as i would a best friend she's become a mask of sorts to show some of who i am but can not be in rl...
I'm becoming tired in rl of all the games played with this game, i'm about ready to weed down my friends list in game again and only build when i'm in there, turn it into a form of income and take the rest of it away... oh well w/e
I know i seem to only post in here when i'm down for the most part but i'm pretty sure by now most my readers don't even log into here any more...
well on the good side i'm trying to get a job..
trying to get my passport since i think i need a change and maybe a little bit of travel or a vacation might help gawd only know's...
got my G2 back in May... hey anyone know if you can drive over the boarder with just ur g2?
tempted to just buy a car once i have enough and just go on a frigging long ass road trip..
i mean i only really eat once a day, if i save enough i'm sure i could afford to go for at least a month right? well this is hypothetically if i get a job and car of my own heh...
anyways if anyone reads this and want's to hang out, my numbers have never changed... give me a call if you still have the number if not well then send me a email...
Over and out for this rant...
oh and
September 7th- Christina K's Baby shower (she had a little boy... so happy for her least she's finally found someone to give her the unconditional love she's always looked for...)
september 14th- ceremonial snip's concert with friend Steve (total cutie)
and hopefully going to grape and bitch... well if i can find someone to go with me...
well lately i just feel so out of it.... feels almost as if the last of the people i actually care about don't care about me any longer...
My real life friends i've pretty much narrowed down who i hang out with..
how could i be so blind and hide behind my computer for so long that i actually became so attached to it that i've pushed away the majority of people i used to be close with?
is it that easy for me to become addicted to a game and a voice application program for my computer so that i can talk to people else where in the world yet can't even pick up my cell phone to call someone i know and have met in rl?
*sighs* i miss all the people i used to hang out with, i mean all the good times.
where people who knew me could tell if i was depressed and would actually show some effort to try to cheer me up.
I think it's nearly time for me to just walk away from everything online...
I've gotten way too addicted to a game called secondlife..
my best friend gave away her account on there cause of drama and bs that's been caused to her, yet i feel as close to my account as i would a best friend she's become a mask of sorts to show some of who i am but can not be in rl...
I'm becoming tired in rl of all the games played with this game, i'm about ready to weed down my friends list in game again and only build when i'm in there, turn it into a form of income and take the rest of it away... oh well w/e
I know i seem to only post in here when i'm down for the most part but i'm pretty sure by now most my readers don't even log into here any more...
well on the good side i'm trying to get a job..
trying to get my passport since i think i need a change and maybe a little bit of travel or a vacation might help gawd only know's...
got my G2 back in May... hey anyone know if you can drive over the boarder with just ur g2?
tempted to just buy a car once i have enough and just go on a frigging long ass road trip..
i mean i only really eat once a day, if i save enough i'm sure i could afford to go for at least a month right? well this is hypothetically if i get a job and car of my own heh...
anyways if anyone reads this and want's to hang out, my numbers have never changed... give me a call if you still have the number if not well then send me a email...
Over and out for this rant...
oh and
September 7th- Christina K's Baby shower (she had a little boy... so happy for her least she's finally found someone to give her the unconditional love she's always looked for...)
september 14th- ceremonial snip's concert with friend Steve (total cutie)
and hopefully going to grape and bitch... well if i can find someone to go with me...