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Wow, I think I kinda forgot I had this but I guess I'm left to be all emo here since too many adults I know on facebook keep emailing me about things I post there.
The future is terrifying me lately. I got an email today about internships with the CIA and strangely enough it left me with all kinds of questions- Will working for the government mean I'll never be allowed to have a real opinion ever again? How much (if any) of my conscience am I willing to sacrifice for a decent paying job that'll let me repay my student loans? With that, was going to school here and taking out an enormous amount of student loans really worth it? Am I only staying because I hate change and don't feel like starting over some where else? If I can't hack it in Uganda for 3 months, how much will that change what I thought I wanted to do with the rest of my life? If I go into the Peace Corps, will I ever really want to go to grad school? Would it be worth to go to SAIS if I had to live in Baltimore? ..............bah.
In all fairness, life is pretty good right now. It snowed here a few days ago which was fantastic, the mall was beautiful in the snow. I'm volunteering (maybe interning at some point) at the White House Office of Presidential Correspondence which is cool. Actually it's just sorting mail, but the building is all official and I had to get a background check so it's pretty cool. Also, there's this cute, funny, dorky boy who volunteers with me so we'll see.
Also, I got my brother in trouble from over 400 miles away (thank you for the tip Julie) which was kinda awesome.
The future is terrifying me lately. I got an email today about internships with the CIA and strangely enough it left me with all kinds of questions- Will working for the government mean I'll never be allowed to have a real opinion ever again? How much (if any) of my conscience am I willing to sacrifice for a decent paying job that'll let me repay my student loans? With that, was going to school here and taking out an enormous amount of student loans really worth it? Am I only staying because I hate change and don't feel like starting over some where else? If I can't hack it in Uganda for 3 months, how much will that change what I thought I wanted to do with the rest of my life? If I go into the Peace Corps, will I ever really want to go to grad school? Would it be worth to go to SAIS if I had to live in Baltimore? ..............bah.
In all fairness, life is pretty good right now. It snowed here a few days ago which was fantastic, the mall was beautiful in the snow. I'm volunteering (maybe interning at some point) at the White House Office of Presidential Correspondence which is cool. Actually it's just sorting mail, but the building is all official and I had to get a background check so it's pretty cool. Also, there's this cute, funny, dorky boy who volunteers with me so we'll see.
Also, I got my brother in trouble from over 400 miles away (thank you for the tip Julie) which was kinda awesome.