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I am dreading today.
I don't know if I can do it for a few days. If I'm bawling, i might just go straight to Quemado, or call barbara at socorro or datil or something.
I don't want to drag someone else into it, but I really don't know how he'll react.
I don't think he'll hurt me, but I also don't want to be stuck there listening to a tirade.
I don't know where he's going to go, or what he's going to do, but I can't do this anymore.
I don't want to be so cold hearted, but I just can't do it.
That was supposed to be this morning, but I couldn't choose my privacy settings
I still can't seem to. but i'm home. and slightly miserable. less anxiety. I didn't even take a stress thing today. Jonathan made an effort to tidy up the house. It is so freakin cold. I've been cold even in the 72 degree house of my parents. I didn't buy a new doorknob, because I figured I'd have to replace it again. now I wish I had.
I don't know what to do.
I'll just be a mopey mess. I'm going to try to get a storage unit in quemado tomorrow.
I bought a lock for that.
I really can't do this until he has some money to stand on.
Unless he goes on a racist tirade, then I'll probably just leave.
Even through all of my moping while driving, it really felt good to cross the state line into New Mexico.
I'm exhausted. Maybe i'll sleep worth a damn tonight.
I don't know if I can do it for a few days. If I'm bawling, i might just go straight to Quemado, or call barbara at socorro or datil or something.
I don't want to drag someone else into it, but I really don't know how he'll react.
I don't think he'll hurt me, but I also don't want to be stuck there listening to a tirade.
I don't know where he's going to go, or what he's going to do, but I can't do this anymore.
I don't want to be so cold hearted, but I just can't do it.
That was supposed to be this morning, but I couldn't choose my privacy settings
I still can't seem to. but i'm home. and slightly miserable. less anxiety. I didn't even take a stress thing today. Jonathan made an effort to tidy up the house. It is so freakin cold. I've been cold even in the 72 degree house of my parents. I didn't buy a new doorknob, because I figured I'd have to replace it again. now I wish I had.
I don't know what to do.
I'll just be a mopey mess. I'm going to try to get a storage unit in quemado tomorrow.
I bought a lock for that.
I really can't do this until he has some money to stand on.
Unless he goes on a racist tirade, then I'll probably just leave.
Even through all of my moping while driving, it really felt good to cross the state line into New Mexico.
I'm exhausted. Maybe i'll sleep worth a damn tonight.