Lets see.. an update might be in order.
I must say..
I have:
been dumped.
Gotten an apartment (that im not living in)
Wrecked my jeep.
Spent all my savings.
Cried myself to sleep just about everynight since fathers day.
Quit believing in myself.
Stopped giving.
contemplated suicide.
wanted to be someone im not.
worked too hard for somehting that doesnt deserve my time.
begged for him to take over my life.
defaulted on my jeep payment.
wanted his happiness more than my own.
been pushed away, and pulled back in.
been given things i didnt deserve.
felt like i wasnt trusted, by one of the most important men in my life.
hurt many of my friends.
Stopped caring.
felt sorry for myself.
enjoyed nothing.
stopped eating.
lost weight.
wanted more than anything to feel needed.
prayed.
talked my head off for nothing.
I have:
been dumped.
Gotten an apartment (that im not living in)
Wrecked my jeep.
Spent all my savings.
Cried myself to sleep just about everynight since fathers day.
Quit believing in myself.
Stopped giving.
contemplated suicide.
wanted to be someone im not.
worked too hard for somehting that doesnt deserve my time.
begged for him to take over my life.
defaulted on my jeep payment.
wanted his happiness more than my own.
been pushed away, and pulled back in.
been given things i didnt deserve.
felt like i wasnt trusted, by one of the most important men in my life.
hurt many of my friends.
Stopped caring.
felt sorry for myself.
enjoyed nothing.
stopped eating.
lost weight.
wanted more than anything to feel needed.
prayed.
talked my head off for nothing.