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I am an empath. It's not exactly something I'm proud of or happy with, but it's part of who I am. I pick up the emotions of those around me and suck them up like a sponge. Positive emotions energize me. Negative emotions tear me down. Today is definitely a down day for me.
Harry is a moody beast like me, so living with him has been all sort of fun for me and my emotional state. Today, something seems to really be bothering him. I'm picking up on depression which is causing him to be a bit impatient and perhaps a bit angry. Anger is something I really don't deal well with. The anger isn't even directed at me, though he did accuse me of being contradictory earlier. For the sake of not being argumentative, I just went with it. In any case, soon after he got snippy with someone on the phone, the energy in the house got to the point where I had to leave. So I decided to go to the grocery store, a five minute walk away, and buy a few things, household things and fattening things.
Fattening things are always on the shopping list whenever we (or I) wander over there. With that, I'm watching my weight balloon up over the past week, which is really unhealthy considering all of the weight I had lost the week prior from, well, not eating at all. Oreos? Probably not a healthy food. Oreo brownies? More so. It occurred to me last night that I haven't eaten anything green (besides pickles) since I moved in with Harry. That can't be good. Despite all of this, I enjoy living with Harry. And I am infinitely appreciative of him allowing me to live with him (though I am paying rent, of course). But I'm not sure how long this living arrangement is going to work out.
I have nowhere else to go at this point, at least not until I get back to work, but I also have no roots here. Hell, Harry and I have been discussing picking up and moving to Texas (or Key West?), so I'm definitely in a "go with the wind" position in my life. If the opportunity arose to move across the country, well, why not?! But for now, here I stay, an unemployed, emotional changeling, living in the middle of Nowhere, New Jersey with a moody friend, off my crazy meds and hoping SOMETHING good happens soon.
Harry is a moody beast like me, so living with him has been all sort of fun for me and my emotional state. Today, something seems to really be bothering him. I'm picking up on depression which is causing him to be a bit impatient and perhaps a bit angry. Anger is something I really don't deal well with. The anger isn't even directed at me, though he did accuse me of being contradictory earlier. For the sake of not being argumentative, I just went with it. In any case, soon after he got snippy with someone on the phone, the energy in the house got to the point where I had to leave. So I decided to go to the grocery store, a five minute walk away, and buy a few things, household things and fattening things.
Fattening things are always on the shopping list whenever we (or I) wander over there. With that, I'm watching my weight balloon up over the past week, which is really unhealthy considering all of the weight I had lost the week prior from, well, not eating at all. Oreos? Probably not a healthy food. Oreo brownies? More so. It occurred to me last night that I haven't eaten anything green (besides pickles) since I moved in with Harry. That can't be good. Despite all of this, I enjoy living with Harry. And I am infinitely appreciative of him allowing me to live with him (though I am paying rent, of course). But I'm not sure how long this living arrangement is going to work out.
I have nowhere else to go at this point, at least not until I get back to work, but I also have no roots here. Hell, Harry and I have been discussing picking up and moving to Texas (or Key West?), so I'm definitely in a "go with the wind" position in my life. If the opportunity arose to move across the country, well, why not?! But for now, here I stay, an unemployed, emotional changeling, living in the middle of Nowhere, New Jersey with a moody friend, off my crazy meds and hoping SOMETHING good happens soon.