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"i believe that lovers should be tied together, thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather, left there to drown...(left there to drown)"
i hate how distant your seeming to become to me. im worried. and i feel so helpless. and im so scared this school year is going to be like last school year. im trying so hard to be happy. so incredibly hard. and i keep wondering if it will all be for nothing. i am trying to get involved. like really involved in things to keep my mind off certain thoughts. god. its like i have a smile glued to my face, but inside, im screaming. and it seems like theres only a few people who can truely make me happy, but it feels like, they dont even want to hang out with me anymore. blahhh. and winter. oh how i hate winter. i hate bulky clothing and how huge they make me look. although i hate skimpy summer clothing and how chunky they make me look. so really, its a lose-lose kinda situation. this is too much for me. being home gives me entirely too much to think about.