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I really don't have a lot to say. I'm still kind of blah, I suppose. Actually, drained is a better word. I'm just so tired. Last night's grueling shift was pretty awful, but what really bums me out is that I wasn't able to sleep in today. My internal alarm clock or something. *lol* i couldn't help but get up at 8am. That is sleeping in for me. Oh well. Today was productive. I didn't have to come into work until 4 this evening, and I work until midnight. I did all of my laundry, finally. I'm usually on the ball as far as that goes (I like laundry) but time hasn't seemed to be on my side lately. I did work out for about 2 hours today, some Pilates and some cardio. I wanted to go out and run, but it was raining like hell. It still is; there are flash flood warnings for today. I hope the weather doesn't interfere with my plans. I am taking a 3 day weekend this week, starting tomorrow. I just need some time where I'm not feeling pushed or pressured. The extra day I'll spend with "S" and hopefully everyone will back off and not jeopardize the time I do have with him. We actually got into a really nasty fight last night, I'm not going to go into the details, but it was one of the ugliest ones we've had so far. That's saying a lot. So today he calls me and acts like nothing happened. No apology, no acknowledgement, which of course pissed me off worse than I was last night. He came around though. His M.O. is to gloss things over as soon as possible and pretend they didn't happen. I prefer to get things out in the open, resolve the issue, chalk it up to experience and move on. So that was that. He did apologize and is now being extremely loving. Wanker. He should have been that way to begin with.
Last night I was feeling low; weird for me, since I usually don't get that way, but it was probably a side effect of sleep deprivation or something like that. I feel like hell today too, but that's all physical and I'm happy. My hips are killing me. It's the weather. I'm a 21 year old trapped in a 60 year old arthritic body or something. Lovely visual, I know. *lol* Sorry guys. I was getting dressed after my shower today and happened to look in the mirror. My ribs are starting to become visible. I don't like that at all. I don't want to look sickly. It's that new medication I'm on, it makes me not hungry at all. I know a lot of people wouldn't mind, but I do. It bothers me. I have an appointment with Doctor Louie on the 21st of this month, and it's a MAJOR one for me, so we'll see how that goes. Cross your fingers for me.
Well hell. There's a lot more that I want to say, none of it relevant, but still...I just don't have it in me at the moment. I think I'll update this later. Toodles guys!
Last night I was feeling low; weird for me, since I usually don't get that way, but it was probably a side effect of sleep deprivation or something like that. I feel like hell today too, but that's all physical and I'm happy. My hips are killing me. It's the weather. I'm a 21 year old trapped in a 60 year old arthritic body or something. Lovely visual, I know. *lol* Sorry guys. I was getting dressed after my shower today and happened to look in the mirror. My ribs are starting to become visible. I don't like that at all. I don't want to look sickly. It's that new medication I'm on, it makes me not hungry at all. I know a lot of people wouldn't mind, but I do. It bothers me. I have an appointment with Doctor Louie on the 21st of this month, and it's a MAJOR one for me, so we'll see how that goes. Cross your fingers for me.
Well hell. There's a lot more that I want to say, none of it relevant, but still...I just don't have it in me at the moment. I think I'll update this later. Toodles guys!