halloween, another week of midterms and other shit that went down
i hate neglecting to write and update this bad girl but lately ive just been so busy with school and personal shit....
so i thought last week was hell...but once again i went through it again this week but it wasnt acutally that bad...so heres how it began:
halloween weeekend was better this year...friday i went downtown with vanessa and some other people..had quiznos for the first time since it opened..so daym good...walked around then decided not to go partying that night..yup skipped two parties to do my laundry..saturday was supposed to be set for studying but once again i got distracted and just didnt do shit...i really have a problem with not doing my shit when im supposed to and then i procrastinate and it just stresses me out even more its like i want to suffer...i am so stupid...later that night i go to a dance..my housemates go and a bunch of other people..took half a shot of smirnoff...cause i just dont like the idea of drinking before dances..but i took half just to please stupid people...the dance was whack...i paid for that shit too...went home and went to bed...sunday...tried to do studying but again got distracted...started working on my costume..i was a NEWSIE...a paper girl from the 1930-40s depression era and all...yeah had the get up and everything...went with kimmie (shes was this scary looking person with a mask) marian (she was a yellow M&M) janica(a disneyland tourist) amanda (brothel type sex kitten and her boyfriend(a vampire)...we saw the grudge...and ive leanred never to sit next to janica during a scary movie...she spilled popcorn and soda everywhere...and amanda screams..not like any scream..more like im about to get raped scream....so the movie was kinda scary half the time i was just laughing at the girls...after we walked around downtown..a lot of people...a lot of cool costumes...their was a parade of people lookin like jellyfish...after we head back ...but were all pretty much tired to do anything after...
so this weekend i find out my drawing class will be having critque every week...which means i have to have shit prepared and cannot let distractions keep me from doing anything...i also dont like the fact that since next weekend is veterans day i thought i could go to SF and just chill but no..i have a stupid field trip to go to next saturday for my dumbass oceans class...fucking stupidest class ever..fuuck...oh well..thankjsgiving is just around the corner....i really cant wait to go home...this quarter is just bad...i want it to end....
happy news came in the other day...my good friend taylor is deciding to stay the whole year instead of leaving next qrtr...i was so relieved....she and i are both going through a lot of shit and wondering whether sc is the place for us..but unfortuantely i do know that she most definitely will not be coming back next year...which sucks ass...cause it makes me think should i transfer to an art college so i can focus on photography ...because sc doesnt have any major dealing with the media and advertising...i want to be a professional photographer and i just dont think sc will help mein becoming one at all..pretty much its only the friends ive made that have allowed to me survive and get thorugh shit here....its wierd..last year was really good...but this qrtr everything is really just a lot of ups and downs...i cry at least once a week....and im thinking what the heck for...hopefully next qrtr when i take photo ill be happier...
i vowed not to have any drama with anyone this year..but of course thats always going to be inevitable...ive learned through experience and just reflecting on how i am with people that i can be very selfish and that i can be a fucking baby sometimes...its like when i have shit with someone and i know its my fault i turn things around so that person will feel like its thier fault and that makes them think they should be sorry..its like im too fucking proud and shit..i need to stop that cause im gonna end up losing friends that way...i mean its not happening to all my friends but lets just say its happening to one in particular..and i really dont want us having shit cause were close and we never have drama...
oh and the whole election...its so sad....a lot of people cried...hpoefully God can provide a miracle and the next 4 years will be better depsite the fact that our president is....ridculous...
so i thought last week was hell...but once again i went through it again this week but it wasnt acutally that bad...so heres how it began:
halloween weeekend was better this year...friday i went downtown with vanessa and some other people..had quiznos for the first time since it opened..so daym good...walked around then decided not to go partying that night..yup skipped two parties to do my laundry..saturday was supposed to be set for studying but once again i got distracted and just didnt do shit...i really have a problem with not doing my shit when im supposed to and then i procrastinate and it just stresses me out even more its like i want to suffer...i am so stupid...later that night i go to a dance..my housemates go and a bunch of other people..took half a shot of smirnoff...cause i just dont like the idea of drinking before dances..but i took half just to please stupid people...the dance was whack...i paid for that shit too...went home and went to bed...sunday...tried to do studying but again got distracted...started working on my costume..i was a NEWSIE...a paper girl from the 1930-40s depression era and all...yeah had the get up and everything...went with kimmie (shes was this scary looking person with a mask) marian (she was a yellow M&M) janica(a disneyland tourist) amanda (brothel type sex kitten and her boyfriend(a vampire)...we saw the grudge...and ive leanred never to sit next to janica during a scary movie...she spilled popcorn and soda everywhere...and amanda screams..not like any scream..more like im about to get raped scream....so the movie was kinda scary half the time i was just laughing at the girls...after we walked around downtown..a lot of people...a lot of cool costumes...their was a parade of people lookin like jellyfish...after we head back ...but were all pretty much tired to do anything after...
so this weekend i find out my drawing class will be having critque every week...which means i have to have shit prepared and cannot let distractions keep me from doing anything...i also dont like the fact that since next weekend is veterans day i thought i could go to SF and just chill but no..i have a stupid field trip to go to next saturday for my dumbass oceans class...fucking stupidest class ever..fuuck...oh well..thankjsgiving is just around the corner....i really cant wait to go home...this quarter is just bad...i want it to end....
happy news came in the other day...my good friend taylor is deciding to stay the whole year instead of leaving next qrtr...i was so relieved....she and i are both going through a lot of shit and wondering whether sc is the place for us..but unfortuantely i do know that she most definitely will not be coming back next year...which sucks ass...cause it makes me think should i transfer to an art college so i can focus on photography ...because sc doesnt have any major dealing with the media and advertising...i want to be a professional photographer and i just dont think sc will help mein becoming one at all..pretty much its only the friends ive made that have allowed to me survive and get thorugh shit here....its wierd..last year was really good...but this qrtr everything is really just a lot of ups and downs...i cry at least once a week....and im thinking what the heck for...hopefully next qrtr when i take photo ill be happier...
i vowed not to have any drama with anyone this year..but of course thats always going to be inevitable...ive learned through experience and just reflecting on how i am with people that i can be very selfish and that i can be a fucking baby sometimes...its like when i have shit with someone and i know its my fault i turn things around so that person will feel like its thier fault and that makes them think they should be sorry..its like im too fucking proud and shit..i need to stop that cause im gonna end up losing friends that way...i mean its not happening to all my friends but lets just say its happening to one in particular..and i really dont want us having shit cause were close and we never have drama...
oh and the whole election...its so sad....a lot of people cried...hpoefully God can provide a miracle and the next 4 years will be better depsite the fact that our president is....ridculous...