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I got so excited today. About nothing in particular. I've been so anxious, depressed, neurotic. I've been so excited, happy, hopeful. I feel psychically and morally free, and that's what's scary and depressing and amazingly awesome. I will create, engage. I will do all sorts of weird shit. I don't understand why anyone's interested in anything, I can't understand anyone or anything. I feel totally incompetent at school, and I can't understand how anyone can take it seriously. I can't remember how I got here. The things in my house freak me out. School bores me literally to tears. I hate money. I want to change everything. I can do anything.