and i ramble on...

[littlebitlindsy]

so all around the week has been off... i feel like i am missing something and the tension i am feeling like at all times is making me feel unsteady... THE BOOK IS FINISHED! THE HORROR IS OVER! well thats good but i mean all around the week has gone a little something like this: Monday, massivly bad hairday but i did get my letter from hospice by the bay which is a social services office and i have to send in this stupid essay by wednesday and i didnt think it could be that hard to write about something like that... well whatever on tuesday i cant really remeber alot so it musnt have been that bad... wednesday, uhm i got yelled at by my parents for my bad grade because progress reports came out when they were out of town so i had to give it to them anyways... uhm thrusday i got to see my mom at lunch then i had to go to this stupid after school thing... then today well i punched a guy in the face and almost got suspended for it because he was making fun of gay people and well that is just not fair, because gay people didnt do anything to him so i had to do something and well i did... he said what are you going to do about it and i showed him.... well besides that i had to run home bcuz the lady at krogers wanted to take forever on my brothers corsage thing for his date wanted to take forever at krogers and then i had to ride in the car with donna for like 40 million hours well really only one but it felt like 40 million... well she was mad because of everything that was going on and she was taking it out on me and i mean hard core like yelling at me like it was my fault my sister kept calling and chris's thing wasnt done right and that she was running late and well of course it was my fault bcuz i am the evil child and the black sheep of this stupid family and no chris its not the opposite, ive come to the conclusion that me and my very stupid uncle daniel are the bad sheep of the family, i mean my uncle in a minister how can he be a black sheep? so it just has to be me and uncle daniel... oh thats just sad! so im at my moms bcuz i dont want to go home and deal with the fighting and right now i dont even really know where i live anymore, i live in 3 diff places! and my sisters are having like a full on war with each other of the stupidist things and emily got back with her stupid lawn mowing cant keep a job boyfriend and it is driving me NUTZ! i want to kill him! SORRY THIS IS RUDE BUT my sister is so better then that, 31 and he still lives with his mom! oh now come on.. and he is eleven years older then her and i think he is going to mow lawns till he dies, or lay carpet whatever right... mannn... anyway i got like one lame joy out of all of this, the look on my moms face when i gave her her mothers day card, this is stupid but it felt good... so today i laid the bomb on my sister, the i-dont-think-i-want-to-go-to-college bomb... she was so mad about it, like it effects her at ALL! okay well anyways i have nothing else to talk about except that !!!!!!!YOU GUYS HAVE TO CROSS YOUR FINGERS FOR MY INTERNSHIP!!!!!!!!!

p.s. this can only get better and from now on i am only gonna see the good!!!MAN I LOVE EVERYONE!!!