yeah, i know i'm fucked up but i cant help it...
hmmm, things have weird lately... I have lost all motivation to be mean to jasmine: my number one form of procrastination and cheap laughs. and those of you that know me would truly realise that rachel not paying out jasmine = SOMETHING IS SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP IN RACHEL'S HEAD. yeah.
Well the whole thing has blown over and the only one who's not over it is me. Typical. I always manage to blow things up way outta proportion. But hey, thats me.
Today is my 15 month anniversary. I know its not a big deal or a landmark anniversary or anything, but if he forgets, i'll kill him. Well, maybe not kill him but he'll suffer *grins evilly*
Crying CAN be fun. in a weird twisted way. i guess. maybe not. i dont know. i dont know a lot of things anymore.
Mid years shall be disastrous. because i am likely to fail. well, fail chem and spec maths at least.. i should be able to get B's in the rest. RAAAAH
I have a lot of hate inside of me. A lot. And its just dwelling and growing and burning inside of me. I only have a chance to release it the one time a week i see geoff. but everyday at school... it pulls the trigger and i just wanna explode. Maybe one day i will. then you can wipe the blood of the windows. boy i wish i didnt feel this way. it makes rachel sad.
Enough rambling for now. I have a webcam to install. Ah the joys of presents :)
Well the whole thing has blown over and the only one who's not over it is me. Typical. I always manage to blow things up way outta proportion. But hey, thats me.
Today is my 15 month anniversary. I know its not a big deal or a landmark anniversary or anything, but if he forgets, i'll kill him. Well, maybe not kill him but he'll suffer *grins evilly*
Crying CAN be fun. in a weird twisted way. i guess. maybe not. i dont know. i dont know a lot of things anymore.
Mid years shall be disastrous. because i am likely to fail. well, fail chem and spec maths at least.. i should be able to get B's in the rest. RAAAAH
I have a lot of hate inside of me. A lot. And its just dwelling and growing and burning inside of me. I only have a chance to release it the one time a week i see geoff. but everyday at school... it pulls the trigger and i just wanna explode. Maybe one day i will. then you can wipe the blood of the windows. boy i wish i didnt feel this way. it makes rachel sad.
Enough rambling for now. I have a webcam to install. Ah the joys of presents :)