And Only Time Will Tell If We Are Gonna Make It.

[littlebear0o4]

yesterday wasn't as hard.
until i found out you cried.
then my whole world fell apart for most of the night.
i dont know what to do.
i'm sick of being the reason you are upset or crying.
i hate that.
and i dont know what to do about it.
because there isn't anything
well there is....
but i dont want to have to go there.
because that would kill me.
and probably make you feel even worse.

i saw chelsea at the f-ball game friday.
that was awesome.
i miss chelsea more than anything.
she is like my little sister.
and i'm kinda in desparate need of a little sister hug.

i also miss james.
i never talked to him enough when i was at home.
i still have his sweatshirt.
i hope he knows that it makes me smile and relax every time i wear it.
which is almost every night.
becasue i miss him.
i kind of want a hug from him too.

i think i need an hardcore work out session.
where i get too tired i cant even think.
god knows i need a good night sleep.

i need to stop thinking so much.
maybe i'll actually do my homework.
and go to my worthless classes.
that will get my mind off stuff for a least a little bit.