[personal] do you ever think about your future?
do you ever think about your future?
like.. if you can’t have the dream you’ve always wished for to happen, and if you just can’t deal with your job anymore.. that what would you do?
that you’re trying to get some happiness for yourself, but what if you don’t get it. what if you can’t get it and you have to stay where you are. try to fight every day with your job and everyday life.
but you know that you probably wont be able to stand it anymore.
do you think about it? what would you do?
how would you try to fight? or will you just give up?
cause i’ve been thinking about it a lot lately... and i seriously don’t know what to do..
i’m trying, i really am, but it’s less than 20% sure that i will get that dream come true.. and that means that when i don’t get it, i will continue my old job, that’s slowly killing me from inside.
i’m so tired of this.
and all i’ve been thinking of is that when that happens... what will i do?
what will i do to get out of it.
how to get free from this hell.
and there isn’t much of opinions...
and the last one is something that would make me “free” of everything.
something that you can’t undo.
it would free me from this pain and sadness. would help me to give up and just let everything be. stops my thoughts to run around in my mind.
it would set me free.
but am i ready to give up everything?
.. maybe i will see this when that time comes up.
i know no one will read this... but i had to get these thoughts out
like.. if you can’t have the dream you’ve always wished for to happen, and if you just can’t deal with your job anymore.. that what would you do?
that you’re trying to get some happiness for yourself, but what if you don’t get it. what if you can’t get it and you have to stay where you are. try to fight every day with your job and everyday life.
but you know that you probably wont be able to stand it anymore.
do you think about it? what would you do?
how would you try to fight? or will you just give up?
cause i’ve been thinking about it a lot lately... and i seriously don’t know what to do..
i’m trying, i really am, but it’s less than 20% sure that i will get that dream come true.. and that means that when i don’t get it, i will continue my old job, that’s slowly killing me from inside.
i’m so tired of this.
and all i’ve been thinking of is that when that happens... what will i do?
what will i do to get out of it.
how to get free from this hell.
and there isn’t much of opinions...
and the last one is something that would make me “free” of everything.
something that you can’t undo.
it would free me from this pain and sadness. would help me to give up and just let everything be. stops my thoughts to run around in my mind.
it would set me free.
but am i ready to give up everything?
.. maybe i will see this when that time comes up.
i know no one will read this... but i had to get these thoughts out