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i set myself up for disappointment, and that sucks. i knew i set my hopes too high, just like i always do. i don't really know what to do anymore. this is the first time in my life that i don't know how to change myself to make things better, or what to do at all. and i hate that. i hate not knowing something more than anything else. i'm so vulnerable right now and it sucks.

on another note, at the end of last night, i was happy with it. some shopping, spending time with lren & ric & james, and lots & lots of talking on the way home especially.