just some thoughts for my sad puzzlebox

[little_zombie23]

i wish i could just wrap my arms around the city of long beach. i saw what appeared to be a homeless man sitting on the sidewalk, and said hello to him as i walked by. he started to laugh at me. it was a familiar laugh. i just wish things weren't so fucked up in the world. sometimes, especially tonight, i am just tired of seeing pain and feeling pain and being human. i think it's really insane that we allow ourselves to get so vulnerable around people who we know are just as fucked up as we are, and then we act all surprised about it. i wonder what God is trying to show me here. i'm not angry. i just want to learn. i want to take these feelings and make something beautiful out of them.

Lord, teach me to pray and to cry out to you when i'm feeling so discouraged. show me what it means to be fully human. show me how to respond to my pain in a way that pleases you.