Forgive me, I'm in one of those moods.
It's been a while since I've updated, I know.
Prom-izzle was amazing. I had a blast. :)
Unfortunately, I am now fairly sick. I woke up feeling like my face had been hit by a truck, and I think I've got yet another sinus infection. So I went to seminary and then came home and died for a few hours. My left sinuses are killing me, it feels like they're trying to rip through my face. And my eyes are swollen. Guh.
I don't like being lectured for staying home when I need to, regardless of how many days I have left til I no longer attend high school.
I also don't like it when the spotlight should be on me, because it's my special turn, and it's stolen by someone who I care about but am so jealous of it's disgusting. I really hate that a lot.
I also hate fake people, they really upset me. Never mind that I can be just as fake - but I'm playing along, so there's a little less outward drama.
Oh, and stupid females who don't understand why people think what they do, even though it's blatantly obvious to those around them. And girls who don't care how someone feels about them and refuse to change their habits so as not to make a bad situation worse.
And when you get left out, intentionally or not, by someone who you considered to be your nearest and dearest. Treated differently in front of everyone. And when alone. I don't like that at all. And I'm quite tired of it, to be honest.
I'm tired of feeling unnoticed. And underappreciated. I'm just tired. So very tired.
I have so many mixed emotions...and I'm confused about a lot of things. I really need time to breathe. And to manage to fix the things in my life that I can.
Prom-izzle was amazing. I had a blast. :)
Unfortunately, I am now fairly sick. I woke up feeling like my face had been hit by a truck, and I think I've got yet another sinus infection. So I went to seminary and then came home and died for a few hours. My left sinuses are killing me, it feels like they're trying to rip through my face. And my eyes are swollen. Guh.
I don't like being lectured for staying home when I need to, regardless of how many days I have left til I no longer attend high school.
I also don't like it when the spotlight should be on me, because it's my special turn, and it's stolen by someone who I care about but am so jealous of it's disgusting. I really hate that a lot.
I also hate fake people, they really upset me. Never mind that I can be just as fake - but I'm playing along, so there's a little less outward drama.
Oh, and stupid females who don't understand why people think what they do, even though it's blatantly obvious to those around them. And girls who don't care how someone feels about them and refuse to change their habits so as not to make a bad situation worse.
And when you get left out, intentionally or not, by someone who you considered to be your nearest and dearest. Treated differently in front of everyone. And when alone. I don't like that at all. And I'm quite tired of it, to be honest.
I'm tired of feeling unnoticed. And underappreciated. I'm just tired. So very tired.
I have so many mixed emotions...and I'm confused about a lot of things. I really need time to breathe. And to manage to fix the things in my life that I can.