You were meant for me, and I was meant for you...
[Private]
I hate myself more and more every day. Every time I look in Atemu's eyes, I feel horribly guilty for what I have done, and yet...at the same time, I am glad I did it. I cannot deny the fact that I love Otogi, but I love Atemu as well, and I have already made my choice. I just...wish it hadn't happened this way, and I wish I didn't feel so...
Keeping this from Atemu...is killing me. I love him more than life itself, and I've always been open and honest with him, but I cannot tell him this. If I do, he will leave me, and I don't know what I'll do. But it's growing harder and harder to look him in the eye and know that I've betrayed him.
It makes it even harder because I miss Otogi.
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[Private to Otogi]
...I'm so sorry. I miss you...
[/Private to Otogi]
Atemu and I are going to Hokkaido for the weekend, if anyone is looking for us.