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"i know we are eternal, we always come back for more. switch on and off, is it my turn to be the abuser? i'll lay down and take this like a woman, if she'll just stand up for herself. so tired of cold hands and empty eyes. i need two thirds through november, we were satisfied bunnies, with nothing and somehow everything. time stood still. we felt smiles on our faces, wind in our hair, feet on broken brick. see this beautiful town? it was ours again. november 24th... you just stick out. a monday, enchanting. nothing to burden us, we strolled these streets, flipped through those records, rain fell in enormous, freezing drops. huddled under the awning of a coffee shop we rarely entered, watched the rain, ignored the faces of schoolmates, sucking on ugly cigarettes to match their ugly faces. one of those nights, like the old days... cocky, morbidly beautiful?, inseperable. looking into your smiling eyes, i couldn't imagine ever hurting her, talking behind her back, plotting her demise. our demise. we are the same. so different, but leading back to the same lost little girl. forver my partner in crime, the one who i can rip apart, just so i can spend the next year rebuilding. but now it's this hideous month, february.... her true demise has nothing and everything to do with me. a boy across the ocean who she can't seem to get enough of. this situation is terrible, enchanting, shocking. i know i will lose her to this. there aren't enough hand-holding-sessions and loving kisses to keep her lungs functioning. i'm serving as a witness to my best friend's expiration."
--i wrote that on the 23rd of february, and am feeling the same way. same way . it has been going on for far too long.
--i wrote that on the 23rd of february, and am feeling the same way. same way . it has been going on for far too long.