Worries
Title: Worries
Fandom: Primeval
Pairing: Becker/Jess
Rating: T
Disclaimer: Neither the show nor the characters belong to me, they belong to ITV1. Nonetheless, I love to borrow them from time to time. The idea of the story as well as the story itself - including all possible pre- or sequels published afterwards - are mine.
Summary: This was a dream, it had to be. This wasn’t supposed to happen, not here, not to her, not like this. Yet, here she was, trapped in the Early Jurassic, surrounded by dinosaurs considering her as nothing but food.
Warnings: once again not beta-read
AN: Hey there! Believe it or not, I did it! I managed to finish another chapter before the end of the year 2013! Yay, go me!
Okay, all joking aside. I’m wishing everyone a happy, successful, healthy and joyful New Year 2014! And I really hope you’ll enjoy this chapter.
Hugs,
Caro
When Becker woke up that night, he was surprised to find the bed next to him empty. It was only past midnight, and since they’d used their first night alone in Jess’ apartment pretty well, she surely wasn’t up yet.
Maybe that morning, the doctors had told her something she hadn’t wanted to hear. She didn’t seem upset, but she seemed a little quiet for her usual nature.
Becker stood up and went to the bathroom, finding it empty. He tried the living room, but it was empty as well. When he searched for his cell to try hers, he saw a figure standing on the balcony.
Carefully, he opened the door and stepped outside. “Hey,” he whispered.
Jess quickly wiped her face. “Hey,” she replied, without looking at him.
Was she crying? Why? Were there such bad news?
“What’s wrong, Jess?” Becker wanted to know, walking over and catching her in his arms.
“It’s nothing,” she sniffled. “It’s…certainly stupid.”
“What is it?” he pressed her. “Did the doctors say something you didn’t want to hear?”
“They said I was cleared to go back to work next week,” she replied quietly.
“Well, that’s great,” he said, trying to look at her. “Isn’t it?”
“It is,” she affirmed, sniffling once more.
Becker sighed. He was pretty much at his wit’s end. “But?”
Jess just shrugged.
Running a hand over his head, Becker tried to figure out what that meant. Jess was going back to work. They both were. They were going back to their normal lives, the lives they’d had before Jess had disappeared - and before…
He sighed once more. “You think things between us will change when we go back to work.”
“I don’t know,” she whispered. “Will they?”
“Hey,” he said, putting a hand under her chin to make her look up at him. “Why would anything change? I mean, you’re not afraid I want to keep our relationship a secret, are you?”
She didn’t say anything in return, just shrugged.
Becker chuckled. “Connor and Abby know, and so do Matt and Emily. So, by now, the whole ARC knows about us anyway.”
“Yeah, you’re probably right about that,” Jess replied quietly.
“If I’d really wanted to keep our relationship a secret, I hadn’t kissed you right in front of them,” Becker added with a smirk, leaning down to capture her lips with his again.
Sighing, Jess melted into his touch, letting her fingernails run over his neck.
Moaning, Becker mumbled against her lips, “Now come back to bed, before we scandalize your neighbourhood.”
She giggled, before grabbing his hand and pulling him back inside her apartment. Maybe some things would change once they went back to work. They probably wouldn’t have that much time for each other anymore. Maybe they wouldn’t even manage to be home every evening. Maybe Becker wouldn’t spend that much time at her place anymore.
But one thing was for sure: Nothing would change between them. Becker made every effort to assure her of that.
“I’m sorry,” Jess mumbled much later that night. “I should have known better than to think you wouldn’t…you know?”
“I can’t blame you,” Becker whispered, letting his hand run over her bare back. “I didn’t exactly shout it from the rooftops that I’m in love with you. It took me long enough to admit my feelings for you, and I’m not planning on backing off now.”
“Good to know,” Jess replied, smiling against his chest. “Because I absolutely want to wake up next to you for the rest of my life.”
When Becker didn’t say anything in return, Jess lifted her head to look up at him. “Can you really imagine that? Spending the rest of your life with me, I mean.”
“Absolutely,” he assured her, smiling.
“And…” Jess looked down, biting her lip for a moment before she continued. “Can you think of…moving in here with me? Some day, I mean…”
“I don’t know,” he mumbled, pecking her cheek. “I’d rather…look for something new, you know? Something that won’t be your place or mine, but ours.”
Her head shot up and she stared at him for a second. “Really?”
“You…don’t like the idea?” Becker guessed.
“I do,” Jess hurried to assure him. “It’s just…I…I love the idea.”
“You didn’t think I would consider moving in together,” he smiled, playing with a strand of her hair. “To be honest, I didn’t. But practically living with you for the last couple of weeks made me realize that this is what I want.”
“And there I really thought I would scare you off,” Jess teased. Or at least she’d thought her father would…
“I had to spend two weeks without you,” Becker whispered, gently stroking her cheek with his index finger. “Those were the longest two weeks of my whole life, and they made me realize I didn’t want to spend a single day without you anymore. So don’t think you’re going to get rid of me anytime soon.”
“Good,” Jess whispered, smiling at him and leaning down to kiss him again. “Because I’m not planning on letting you go, ever.”
Grinning, Becker turned them around so that he was lying on top of her again.
“You’re oversexed, you know that?” Jess panted, her eyes fluttering shut.
“Do you mind?” he asked with a smirk.
She couldn’t reply other than slightly shaking her head. She was already too wrapped up in the things Becker made her feel. Only a few months ago Jess would never have thought this would happen between her and Becker at all - and now he didn’t seem to get enough of her. Somehow, this made her feel proud.
“You definitely know how to conjure a smile on my face,” Jess told him with a sigh as she snuggled up close against him again.
“Ditto,” he mumbled. “And you know how to wear me out.”
She couldn’t help but giggle. “And there I thought soldiers had a good endurance.”
“Funny,” Becker replied, nudging her side. “Remind me to show you that I can wear you out easily as well.”
“Can’t wait,” she whispered, already half asleep.
Bucker chuckled as he wrapped his arms closer around her. He had to admit, he hadn’t felt that good in a very long time. As a matter of fact, he couldn’t remember when he’d last felt that good. He was…happy.
For the first time since he could remember, he fell asleep with a contented smile on his face - only to be rudely awoken by the ringing of Jess’ doorbell.
“You know, when we start looking for something,” he said with a grumble, “make it something far away and secluded.”
Jess giggled, glancing at the alarm clock next to her bed. It was already past ten. “Wow,” she mumbled. “You know, I never knew what a sleepless night could really be like.”
Becker chuckled when he put on his trousers. “Prepare for many sleepless nights in the not too distant future,” he told her, leaning down to peck her lips. “Go back to sleep.”
“This might be something important,” she argued, even though she had no intention of leaving the bed.
“If it is, I can still wake you up,” Becker whispered before closing the door behind him.
He wasn’t surprised to find Abby and Connor standing in front of Jess’ door.
“Hey,” Abby greeted. “I hope I’m not interrupting anything again.”
“You’re not,” Becker assured her. “Jess is still asleep.”
“Long night, huh?” Connor asked.
Becker just glared at him.
Connor cleared his throat. “And none of my business.”
“We’re just here to pick up some stuff,” Abby said to change the topic.
“You’re already moving out?” Becker asked with surprise. Jess had started looking for an apartment for Connor and Abby just yesterday. He wasn’t even sure she had found anything yet.
“The apartment Jess found for us is just perfect,” Abby told him. “I still can’t believe she found it at all - let alone so quickly. She truly is amazing.”
Becker just smiled at that. They so had no idea…
“Do you need a hand?” he offered instead of saying out loud what he’d just thought.
“Sure, thanks,” Connor agreed. “We don’t have much yet, but we still needed to rent a removal van.”
“Yeah, it’s amazing how much you can put in the guestroom, isn’t it,” Jess said as she walked into the living room. “Let me give you a hand as well.”
Abby glanced at Becker before saying, “You know, you can go back to bed. We’ll be fine.”
“I’m not that tired,” Jess put her off. “Besides I’m probably going to need your help when I’m moving out, too.”
Connor raised an eyebrow at her. “Did we miss anything?”
“We’re planning on moving in together,” Becker told them. “Some place else.”
Connor’s jaw hit the floor, while Abby just grinned. “It’s about time,” she commented.
Becker frowned. It wasn’t like they’d been dating for years…
Looking at Abby, he realized she wasn’t talking about him and Jess moving in together. She was talking about him standing by his feelings.
Jess expected Becker to get into Abby’s face for the comment, and was surprised when he just smirked. She couldn’t believe how much he seemed to have changed over the past few weeks - and it made her heart beat faster to think that he’d mostly changed for her.
“Does that mean we already hear the wedding bells ring?” Connor teased.
“None of your business, remember?” Becker replied with a grumble.
Jess grinned. Maybe he hadn’t changed that much after all.