W.T.F.Am.I.Doing!?
So. Im not sure what Im doing exactly, and Im not sure if its just crazy -which is quite possible given the surprised and almost laughable expressions I have seen when Ive told people!
The roadtrip is all I can think of to get myself moving again and -hopefully-in a direction of some good flying experience, not just lots of driving. I just feel Im going to find ...whatever Im supposed to be looking for here.
If I stay, its like a death sentence. A crappy 9-5 job Im not going to enjoy, or even find challenging.
Which is kind of a stupid thought given that the probability of finding my dream job in the outside world is so low, that Im likely going to have to hold a 9-5 job in the meantime anyway.
But if I dont do this trip now Ill be kicking myself from here to eternity for not even trying.
I have NO idea what to expect, not even a real plan as to what to do or where Im staying- for my scarily immediate future.
Im afraid Im not organised enough, or even confident enough to convince someone to hire me and I dont enjoy thinking about likely rejection I will receive which seems to be plaguing my dreams lately too. grrr to you unconsciousness!!
I also realise how much meaningless and useless crap I have accumulated. So Im pretty sure I can whittle it all down to a pile that will fit into a single car. -and maybe burn the rest in a happy little 'good vibes' bonfire in the backyard!
here goes nothing!
The roadtrip is all I can think of to get myself moving again and -hopefully-in a direction of some good flying experience, not just lots of driving. I just feel Im going to find ...whatever Im supposed to be looking for here.
If I stay, its like a death sentence. A crappy 9-5 job Im not going to enjoy, or even find challenging.
Which is kind of a stupid thought given that the probability of finding my dream job in the outside world is so low, that Im likely going to have to hold a 9-5 job in the meantime anyway.
But if I dont do this trip now Ill be kicking myself from here to eternity for not even trying.
I have NO idea what to expect, not even a real plan as to what to do or where Im staying- for my scarily immediate future.
Im afraid Im not organised enough, or even confident enough to convince someone to hire me and I dont enjoy thinking about likely rejection I will receive which seems to be plaguing my dreams lately too. grrr to you unconsciousness!!
I also realise how much meaningless and useless crap I have accumulated. So Im pretty sure I can whittle it all down to a pile that will fit into a single car. -and maybe burn the rest in a happy little 'good vibes' bonfire in the backyard!
here goes nothing!