Promises [8/11]
Title: Promises
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong, hints of Yoochun/Changmin
Rating: R (NC-17 for this chapter)
Genre: Romance, Action, Drama
Summary: As secrets came to light, Jaejoong saw his life falling apart to the point where he realizes he knows nothing and suspects everyone - even, Jung Yunho.
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Jaejoong woke up in the morning because of Yunho rustling. His eyes immediately snapped open, and just as Yunho was about to leave the bed, his hand shot out and quickly grabbed hold of the other man’s wrist.
“Where are you going?” he asked, slowly sitting up so that he could look at Yunho properly. He glanced at the clock on the wall before he turned his eyes back to the other man, “It’s still early.”
“I was just about to…”
“Leave?” Jaejoong asked, his face hurt and his disappointment obvious. He glanced down at the blankets of the bed before he raised his eyes and looked at Yunho accusingly. “I thought you -“
Yunho leaned down and pressed a kiss against Jaejoong’s forehead. “I was just going to leave and go to the kitchen.”
“You can’t cook.” Jaejoong replied with a pout, “In case you’ve forgotten, you and I were partners in Home Economics back in high school, and I know about all of your culinary mishaps.” A smile flittered across his face as he recalled the memories, “You almost burned down the building several times.”
“I was just going to make you coffee.” Yunho argued as Jaejoong clambered out of bed so that he could join him in the kitchen. “I don’t think there’s anything wrong with me wanting to do that.”
Jaejoong shook his head and pulled Yunho out the door, “No, there’s nothing wrong with that, but I still can’t leave you alone in the kitchen.”
As soon as they were out in the corridor, Yunho pinned Jaejoong against the wall and kissed him deeply. Jaejoong let out a squeak of surprise but regardless of Yunho’s surprising gesture, he could still feel himself melting underneath the other’s touch.
After a few minutes, Yunho pulled away.
“I’ll be fine in the kitchen. Go back to sleep.”
Jaejoong shook his head childishly, “I’m not leaving your side, remember?” he kissed the corner of Yunho’s lips and pulled him in the direction of the bedroom, “Can’t the coffee wait until later?”
“It can’t, because -“
The doorbell rang and Yunho gave Jaejoong a pointed look, “Because we have visitors,” he continued before he pressed kiss to Jaejoong’s forehead and made his way to the door.
Jaejoong followed after him slowly, content to be a few steps behind. He stopped at the end of the corridor and leaned against the doorframe, keeping himself within perfect view to see who was at the door.
Changmin came into view, and Jaejoong waved.
“I see you both are awake.” Changmin said as he came in through the door, Yoochun following behind him. He took off his coat and placed it on the rack, “Did anything eventful happen last night?”
“Nothing that you have to be concerned about,” Yunho replied as he shut the door behind Yoochun. He crossed his arms, “What do you want?”
“This is my apartment.” Yoochun said with a smile as he walked over to where Jaejoong was. He turned around and looked at Yunho and crossed his arms, “I should be the one deciding about who goes and who leaves.”
“I paid for the apartment.” Yunho muttered, “You could at least show me some gratitude for that.”
Jaejoong glanced between the two of them, “Why did you pay for his apartment?” he asked, trying to keep his slight feelings of jealousy out of his tone of voice. His eyes settled on Yunho, and he waited for an answer.
“Yoochun took a bullet out of Yunho when a task went awry.” Changmin said with a wave of his hand, “Yunho, being the overly grateful ass that he is, decided to buy Yoochun an apartment since Yoochun wasn’t living in that great of a place before.”
“Oh, I see.”
Yoochun fixed the books on his bookshelves, “I told Yunho that I wanted a car, but Yunho refused and told me that it would be better and more logical for me to live in a better apartment.”
Jaejoong laughed, and Yoochun smiled at him. He moved closer to Jaejoong while Yunho went over to Changmin, “So, I assume things went well for you?” he asked, a knowing smile on his lips.
Jaejoong nodded, “Yeah, they did…things went much better than I thought they would.”
“That’s good.” Yoochun replied, his smile growing even wider. “I had a feeling they would, but still, it’s nice to know that my prediction came through. I think you’re perfect for him.”
“Thank you.” Jaejoong smiled back at him, “I’m happy to know that you think that.”
“Actually Jaejoong -“
“Yoochun, what are you talking to him about?” Yunho asked curiously as he left Changmin’s side and walked over to them, “Hopefully you aren’t talking to him about anything -“
“I was being completely innocent.” Yoochun replied.
“Somehow I doubt that.”
“Why don’t you ask Jaejoong?” Yoochun stepped away from Jaejoong and pointed at him, “I’m sure he’d only tell you the truth.”
Yunho stared at Jaejoong for a few seconds before he let out a noise of frustration and glanced at Jaejoong and Changmin. “Why did you two come back so early? I thought you guys weren’t coming back until this evening.”
“There was a change of plans.” Changmin said as he looked around Yoochun’s apartment, “So we had to come back here.”
“Also Yunho, do I have to keep reminding you that this apartment is mine?” Yoochun added, “You shouldn’t be so rude.”
“All I wanted was some time to rest, and to -“
Changmin sat down on the sofa and turned the television on, “Besides, you have something to do, don’t you?” he said as he flipped through the channels. Yunho was silent, so he turned his head back to look at him, “You have a meeting.”
Yunho glanced at the wall clock and muttered a curse, “You’re right. I forgot.” He ran a hand through his hair, “I completely forgot about it.”
“It’s a good thing you have me.” Changmin replied as he made room for Yoochun to sit on the sofa next to him, “If you didn’t you would’ve been shot dead already.” He joked plainly, which made Jaejoong’s eyes widen.
Jaejoong glanced at Yunho, and was rather surprised to see the other man chuckling instead of being annoyed. Yunho noticed the look of irritation and distaste on Jaejoong’s face and approached him. He leaned in close, resulting in Jaejoong shrinking back against the doorframe.
Yunho’s breath was warm against his face, and Jaejoong was fairly sure he was blushing as a result of how close they were to one another. He tried to hold Yunho’s gaze and looked at him questioningly. “Yes?”
“Could you go back inside the guest room with me?” Yunho asked as he gently stroked the inside of Jaejoong’s wrist. “I have something I want to tell you.”
Jaejoong bit his lip and nodded, “Okay then.”
“Alright, follow me.”
Yunho took hold of Jaejoong’s wrist and pulled him in the direction of the bedroom, both of them too fully engrossed with one another to bother responding to the joking comments coming from Yoochun and Changmin.
As soon as the door was shut, Yunho immediately turned around and pressed Jaejoong up against it. His back hit the door with a thud, but Jaejoong was too surprised by the action to notice the brief flash of pain.
He waited for some sort of explanation for the sudden action, but Yunho was silent and was staring down at the ground. Jaejoong looked at him worriedly and when Yunho made no move to say anything, he decided to be the first one to speak.
“What’s wrong?” Jaejoong asked softly as he placed his arms over Yunho’s shoulders and began to play idly with the ends of the other man’s hair, “What are you worrying about?”
Yunho leaned forward and rested his forehead against Jaejoong’s shoulder. “I don’t want to go that meeting.”
“It’s okay, I get that feeling -“
“This isn’t just any meeting.” Yunho muttered, and Jaejoong kept quiet. He let out a long sigh and pulled away from Jaejoong before he moved in closer once again and pressed their foreheads against each other, “This is how things are going to be like for us. I’m going to be going to meetings that I don’t want to go to, and you’ll be forced to wait and worry for me while I’m away.”
“Please, it’s not that bad.” Jaejoong replied, “Really Yunho, there could be much worse for us out there. Don’t think that just because what’s happening in our relationship is rather unusual that it means it’s bad.”
“Do you really…” Yunho sighed and looked away. “Are you really okay with this? You know what kind of work I am involved in, yet you’re still willing to love me? What if I’m some kind of sick person that enjoys the power that comes with being in the syndicate? What if I’m a selfish, sadistic bastard that enjoys killing and -“
“But you aren’t that kind of person.” Jaejoong interrupted, his words ringing clear in the room and making Yunho lift his gaze to look at him. Jaejoong smiled at him softly and continued, “You aren’t that kind of person…perhaps I still need to learn more about you. I know there’s more to everything Yunho, you just haven’t told me about it yet. I’m being patient with you, and I know you’ll reveal things when it’s meant to be.”
Yunho’s look softened, “Jaejoong…”
“You still have so much to say to me, and I know that. There’s still much for you to explain, and so much for you to repent for, but despite all of that, I still I love you.” Jaejoong murmured before he sealed the short distance between their lips, moved upward and kissed Yunho. He pulled the other man closer, crushing their mouths against each other.
It’s not long before Yunho’s returning his kisses with even more fervor, pushing Jaejoong back against the door even harder and his hands running all over Jaejoong’s body. Jaejoong let out a quiet moan that was cut off the moment Yunho’s mouth found its way back over his.
There was a knock at the door, so they immediately pulled away from one another, breathless and panting. They stared at one another, and the person at the other end of the door just continued to knock.
After it was made clear that neither of them were going to answer the door, the other person began to speak.
“Yunho, you’re going to be late for your meeting. I don’t know what you two are doing in there, but whatever you’re doing, you’ll have to stop it right now.” Changmin said from the other side of the door. He knocked his hand against the door one last time, “Hurry up Yunho. You know they don’t like it when people are late to meetings.”
Jaejoong bit his lip, “I’ll be okay.” He reached out brushed his fingers softly against Yunho’s cheek. “I have my own things to attend to anyway. I need to go to work, and I have to visit Sohyang today.”
“Stay safe.” Yunho murmured as he wrapped his arms around Jaejoong tightly, “Be careful at all times.”
“I will be.”
They parted slowly and reluctantly. It was a phase of the beginnings of a new relationship, and although Jaejoong had not been in numerous relationships, he knew what it was like to not want to be parted from a lover.
The only difference was that he’d never felt such a strong dislike for being parted before.
Jaejoong turned around and pulled at the door knob open, but before he could fully pull the door open, Yunho placed his hand over Jaejoong’s. Jaejoong glanced back at him with a look of surprise on his face, “Yes?”
“You…you don’t regret this, do you?”
A look of sadness crossed Jaejoong’s face - not because he was hurt that Yunho would ask him such a thing, but because he knew that the other man still felt like he wasn’t enough for him.
“Not at all.” Jaejoong replied with a smile on his face.
Yunho stared at him a mixture of emotions on his face. Jaejoong was about to ask him if something was wrong until Yunho pulled something from the back pocket of his pants and held it out for Jaejoong to take. “This is the key to where I’m living now.” He murmured softly, “I thought you’d want to have it.”
“I…”
“Can I see you tonight?” Yunho asked, his voice low. “I don’t know what time I’ll be coming home, but I know that I want to see you again.”
Jaejoong was silent for a few seconds before he nodded.
“I’ll see you then.”
Yunho walked away, and Jaejoong watched him go. He bit his lip hard and walked back over to the bed and stayed still until his heart calmed down.
o-o-o
“Did something happen to you?” Sohyang asked as she looked up at Jaejoong from her menu. She frowned at him and set the menu down onto the table. “You look kind of uneasy.”
Jaejoong shook his head and ran his hand through his hair, “It’s nothing.” He muttered disbelievingly as he set his own menu down, “I’ll have whatever you’re having.”
“…I told you I didn’t feel like eating just a few minutes ago.”
He looked up at her, “Oh.”
Sohyang rolled her eyes and placed her hand over Jaejoong’s. “Now, tell me what’s bothering you.” She squeezed his hand tightly and smiled at him encouragingly. “I’m here to listen to you.”
“…I’m going to risk sounding stupid.”
“You always sound stupid.” Sohyang replied, “Yet I continue to listen to you.” She chuckled at Jaejoong’s irritated expression and swatted him, “Now go on. Please tell me about what you wanted to say.”
Jaejoong sighed and once more ran his hands through his hair, resulting in his hair becoming even more disarrayed than it had been before. He let his face fall into his hands and mumbled indecipherable.
“What?”
He looked up at her with a pathetic expression on his face, “I’ve kind of been seeing someone lately.”
“Okay…?” Sohyang trailed off and looked at him with a confused expression on her face. “I don’t see what’s wrong with that. Who are you seeing by the way?”
“It doesn’t matter.” Jaejoong muttered, “Anyway, he kind of -“
“Is he handsome?” Sohyang asked as she took a sip of her water, “Knowing you though, he must be. Your last fling was really quite handsome you know. It’s a pity you didn’t like him much.”
Jaejoong frowned, “Can we just move on from him?”
She laughed and waved her hand, “Please continue.”
“Anyway…he kind of gave me a key to his apartment, and then he invited me to meet him there later tonight.” Jaejoong breathed out slowly and glanced down at his empty plate. “I…I think he wants to -“
Sohyang stared at Jaejoong with a blank expression on her face.
“This is lame.” She muttered finally in a joking manner. “If you don’t want to have sex with him, then don’t. It’s that simple Jaejoong.”
“I don’t know -“
“You’re boring me.” Sohyang rolled her eyes teasingly and turned to look through her bag for her phone, “Anyway, I’m just going to call Taeyoung in order to reassure him that I’m still okay. When I come back, you better have ordered something.”
She left the table, and a few seconds after she’d left, Jaejoong’s phone began to ring. He glanced down at his phone, and his heart began to beat faster at the sight of the name that flashed over his phone’s screen.
Yunho
Jaejoong swallowed hard and answered his phone. “Hello?”
“I might be going home really late tonight.” Yunho muttered tiredly, “Is that okay? I don’t want you to wait up for me, so it’s okay if you don’t go over to my apartment later. I’ll just see you tomorrow.”
“Did something go wrong?” Jaejoong asked softly as he traced absentminded circles on the table’s surface with his spoon. “If you need to talk, I’m willing to listen.”
“No, it’s okay Jaejoong.” Yunho replied, “You don’t have to worry about this.”
“Yunho -“
“I love hearing your voice.” Yunho whispered from the other end of the line, “I…It’s hard for me to believe that you really said you loved me last night. I’m going to be a good person for you.”
Jaejoong’s heart softened, “I’ve never thought of you as a bad one.”
“Shit.” Yunho sighed, “I want to see you so badly. I want to hear you in person. I want to touch you again.”
Jaejoong looked around the restaurant and hoped that no one would notice the blush that had spread across his cheeks, “You don’t have to say that,” He bit his lip and hated how much like school girl he was behaving, “But I want to see you too.”
Yunho’s chuckle sent shivers down Jaejoong’s spine. “Tomorrow then?” he said, “I’ll pick you up at your building, and then we can spend the rest of the day with each other tomorrow. I’ll clear my schedule.”
“Okay.” Jaejoong replied, although he had other plans in mind. He smiled to himself and added, “I can’t wait to see you again.”
“Same here -“
Before Jaejoong could reply, Sohyang had snatched the phone away. She glanced at the caller’s name on the screen before she looked at Jaejoong. She sat down at her seat across from Jaejoong and placed the phone next to her ear.
“Yunho?”
Jaejoong’s eyes widened, and he reached out for the phone, but she quickly swatted his hands away as she listened to what Yunho was saying.
“You’re dating Jaejoong, aren’t you?”
Jaejoong froze, and a slow smile stretched across Sohyang’s lips.
“I see. Well, I’m glad he’s dating you. Anyway, I’ll hand the phone back to my tomato of a brother. Take care of yourself Yunho.” Sohyang handed the phone back to Jaejoong and smiled wickedly, “I don’t see why you’re so hesitant in -“
Jaejoong pushed his sister away and answered the phone. “I’m sorry about her.” He muttered, “I have to go now.”
“Okay, bye Jaejoong.”
“Yunho?”
“Yes?”
“I love you.” Jaejoong’s face heat up with embarrassment, and he could feel his sister’s shocked gaze on him. “I’ll see you tomorrow. Bye.” He hung up hastily and placed his phone down onto the table.
“Well, aren’t you cute today?” Sohyang chuckled and took another sip, “Since you’re obviously in some sort of blessed honeymoon state of your relationship, you’re paying for lunch today.”
Jaejoong couldn’t bring himself to argue with her and could only blush.
o-o-o
It was a stupid idea, and he was beginning to feel sleepy.
Jaejoong glanced at his phone, wondering what time Yunho would get home. It was already past eleven, and while he’d been wise enough not to make dinner, he still wanted to make a good impression.
He didn’t want Yunho to walk in and find him snoring on the couch.
“Stupid.” Jaejoong unfolded his legs off the sofa and made his way over the mirror set on the wall. He fixed his hair restlessly and frowned at his shirt. He pulled at the striped top and stared disapprovingly at the v-neck cut, wishing he could run back home and change into something more…modest.
He huffed and checked his phone - perhaps it’d been a bad idea to surprise Yunho. What if he brought home someone from the syndicate? No doubt that would be an awkward encounter.
Jaejoong bit his lip and sighed once more before he returned to the sofa and sat down. He’d give Yunho five more minutes. If the other man didn’t show up within that time, then he would just go home.
Jaejoong shifted anxiously on the sofa and tried to think of something he could do to pass the time. He stood up and sat back down, before he stood up again and walked back over to the mirror.
He really should’ve worn a different shirt.
He’d never been a nervous person before - he was pretty much exactly like he looked, quiet, a little cold, but confident. Jaejoong let out an irritated breath and paced over to Yunho’s kitchen to find something to drink - for sure the other man wouldn’t mind if he had one glass of wine.
He looked through Yunho’s kitchen and found a bottle of wine easily enough. He popped it open easily and poured a glass for himself. As soon as he’d finished the glass, Jaejoong exhaled slowly.
His nerves were killing him.
Jaejoong poured another glass of wine for himself and took the glass out of the kitchen, clutching the stem tightly in his right hand. He looked around the apartment - it was as impersonal and neat as the previous one but nonetheless, he admired how it all looked.
He sat back down onto the sofa and placed the glass of wine on the small table next to it so that he could stretch back and toy anxiously with the throw pillows. Jaejoong bit his lip, an irritating and obvious habit of his, and was thinking about cleaning up and leaving when he heard someone begin to unlock the front door.
Jaejoong stood up and grabbed the glass of wine off the table, then slowly made his way to the door. He stopped a few feet from the door, and as soon as the door opened, a smile graced his face.
The person at the door was Yunho - and he was alone.
“Hi.” Jaejoong breathed out, hoping that he didn’t look like a creepy, stalking mess of who he usually was. “Surprise?”
Yunho stared at him, “You…you came.” He said slowly, still digesting the fact that Jaejoong was standing in front of him. “I told you not to.”
“I thought it’d be a nice surprise if I showed up.” Jaejoong replied hesitantly as he tried to find his voice. He bit his lip, “…I could make you dinner if you want. It’s a little late, and I know it’s not good for your health to eat so late at night, but you seem tired, and a little hungry too, so if you want something to eat than I’m sure -“
“Dinner would be great.” Yunho said with a smile as he shut the door behind him. He walked up to Jaejoong and pressed a quick kiss against his lips, “Should I expect you here every night?”
“No.” Jaejoong muttered as he let Yunho lead him to the kitchen. He wrapped his arm around Yunho’s waist as the other man placed his arm over his shoulders, and leaned against him. “I’m actually here to steal things from you.”
“Ah, I see.” Yunho replied, “You should be careful though. I’m a scary man with a gun.”
Jaejoong chuckled and disentangled himself from Yunho so that he could check what the other man had in his refrigerator. He pulled it open, “Well, as long as your gun isn’t pointed at me, then I won’t mind.”
He frowned at the contents of Yunho’s refrigerator. There was barely anything inside aside from mayonnaise, bottled water, carrots, onions, beer, and soda. He shut the appliance and glanced at Yunho, “You don’t cook…do you?”
Yunho hid his embarrassed smile behind a glass of water, “Not really.” He set the glass down and walked over to Jaejoong, “I’m fine if I don’t eat tonight. I’ll be okay.” He leaned against the kitchen counter, “Don’t worry. You and I can just go out for breakfast tomorrow.”
“Yunho -“
The taller man leaned down and pressed his lips against Jaejoong’s, silencing him effectively. Jaejoong melted against Yunho for a few seconds before he pushed the other man away and frowned, “Don’t shut me up.”
“What made you think I was doing that?” Yunho asked with a smile. He moved away from Jaejoong, “I’m going to take a shower now.” He stopped and stared at Jaejoong, resulting in a blush to spread across the other man’s cheeks.
“What?” he almost squeaked, annoyed by how Yunho’s eyes raked over his body. “I don’t know what you’re trying to imply, but if you’re -“
“Are you staying over?”
“Oh.” Jaejoong stilled for a few seconds. “Is…is it okay?” he asked, only realizing that he hadn’t exactly thought out his plans as well as he’d thought he did. “I didn’t bring a change of clothes though.”
“It’s okay, you could borrow some of mine.” Yunho replied. “It shouldn’t be too hard for you to find my bedroom. It’s just down the corridor and to the right. No need for you to knock.”
He walked away and left Jaejoong alone in the kitchen.
Jaejoong swallowed hard and looked for the bottle of wine - he’d need another glass.
o-o-o
It was after a few minutes and a few glasses of wine that Jaejoong finally gathered the courage to enter Yunho’s bedroom. He pushed the door open slowly and was glad to see that Yunho was still in the bathroom.
Jaejooong slowly made his way over to the large closet in the room, and he pulled out a casual shirt and a pair of sweatpants. He looked around the room and knocked on the bathroom door, “Don’t come out yet, okay?”
He vaguely heard Yunho’s reply from the other side of the door and made his way to change. He stripped quickly and folded his clothes, placing them onto an unoccupied desk, and wore Yunho’s.
The shirt and the sweatpants were rather long, but Jaejoong didn’t really bother to think about that matter for too long. What he was busy thinking about was the fact that he and Yunho would probably end up sharing the bed.
He swallowed hard, and his eyes immediately went over to the bathroom door when he heard the fumbling of the door knob. Yunho poked his head through, “Is it okay if I come out now?”
Jaejoong rolled his eyes at Yunho, “You could’ve knocked first, but yeah, you can come out.”
Yunho chuckled and opened the door, “I’m sorry.” He placed his things on top of another desk and glanced at the bed before he looked at Jaejoong, who was standing closer to the door than to the bedroom.
“Left side or right side?” he asked. “I don’t really mind which side you take because usually I just end up all over the place anyway.”
“I’ll take the left side.” Jaejoong muttered shyly as he took a few steps closer, “I always sleep on the left.”
“Okay then.”
Yunho removed the towel that rested over his shoulders and went back into the bathroom to hang it. As soon as he’d stepped back inside the bedroom, he noticed that Jaejoong hadn’t moved an inch.
“Do you want me to put on a shirt?” he asked.
Jaejoong shook his head, “No, it’s fine.” He blushed and began to make his way over to the left side of the bed, “You can sleep without it.” He brushed past Yunho and sat down on the bed, a look of determination on his face.
Yunho chuckled at the sight of him, “I could sleep on the couch.”
“If you try sleeping on the couch, I’ll sleep on top of you.” Jaejoong snapped before he turned away from Yunho and lied down onto the bed. He shut his eyes so that his nervousness would be less apparent and pulled a pillow close to his chest. “Now, are we going to sleep or not?”
“Yes, yes, hold on.” Yunho replied.
Jaejoong kept his eyes shut, and he could only listen to the quiet footsteps Yunho made on the carpet. He breathed in and out slowly, willing himself to calm down as he waited for Yunho to get onto the bed.
The bed creaked with Yunho’s added weight, and Jaejoong could feel his heart begin to beat faster in his chest. He swallowed hard and clutched the pillow tighter. He waited for a few seconds, but nothing happened.
Jaejoong slowly opened his eyes and instead of being greeted by the sight of Yunho’s handsome face, was instead met by the broad expanse of Yunho’s tanned back. He blinked twice and inched a little closer, but Yunho didn’t respond.
He reached out, his fingertips nearly brushing against Yunho’s skin, but Jaejoong quickly pulled his hand back and held it close to his chest. Jaejoong bit his lip and pulled in deep to find the courage to do what he wanted.
Jaejoong slowly placed his hand on Yunho’s back, his fingertips trailing down and exploring the feeling of the other man’s skin. Eventually, Jaejoong stopped and placed his hand on top of Yunho’s waist.
“Yunho?”
Yunho turned around and looked at Jaejoong, an indecipherable look on his face. He stared at Jaejoong, “Yes?” he asked softly, keeping the distance between the two of them.
Jaejoong bit his lip, “I…” he moved closer and buried his face into Yunho’s chest. He draped his arm over the other man, “Nothing. I don’t have anything to say.”
Yunho chuckled and placed his chin on top of Jaejoong’s head as he drew the other man closer, “Okay then.” He replied, and Jaejoong could feel the rise and fall of Yunho’s chest.
He’d never felt so secure before.
o-o-o
Jaejoong woke up first, so he quickly took a shower, borrowed a pair of boxers from Yunho, and changed into his clothes from the previous night. He found a spare toothbrush in Yunho’s cabinet, brushed his teeth, and afterwards, fixed his hair.
When he came out of the bathroom, Jaejoong noticed that Yunho was still sleeping.
The only difference between how he’d looked earlier and how he looked in the present moment was that he’d somehow ended up sprawled all over the bed.
Jaejoong chuckled at the sight of the other man in such a humorous position and immediately went over to the bed to wake him up. He sat down and pressed a kiss to Yunho’s jawline before pinching the other man’s side.
“Get up.” He hissed before he was pulled back onto the bed and forced onto his back.
Jaejoong looked up at Yunho breathlessly, “What?” he asked, smiling up at the man who had him pinned down onto the bed. “You told me that we were going to go out for breakfast today.”
“Can’t we just order food?” Yunho asked as he reached down and began to lick at a sensitive spot on Jaejoong’s neck. “I mean, just call somewhere. I don’t feel like leaving the apartment.” He murmured before he began to bite at Jaejoong’s neck.
Jaejoong grasped Yunho’s hair, “You asshole.” He hissed, “You said that you’d take me out today, so you’re going to take me out. Now get off me.”
“You don’t seem to want me to get off you.” Yunho mumbled as he began to work his way down lower, appreciating the v-neck cut of Jaejoong’s shirt. “You’re -“
Jaejoong pushed Yunho off, and the other man landed on the other side of the bed. He quickly escaped Yunho’s attempts at pulling him back onto the bed and ran for the door leading back out to the corridor.
“We’re going out, so hurry up.” Jaejoong said as his face heat up in embarrassment. “I want to eat, so take care of yourself and let’s leave.”
Yunho rolled over to his back and stared up at the ceiling for a few seconds before he sat up and looked at Jaejoong. He patted the empty side of the mattress and ran a hand through his hair, “Are you sure you don’t want to stay in bed?”
Jaejoong ignored the way Yunho’s muscles flexed and shook his head. “Thanks, but no thanks. Now get out of bed before I find someone else to spend my morning with.” He replied before he slammed the door shut.
o-o-o
It didn’t take that long for Yunho to get ready, and after a few minutes, they left his apartment. Jaejoong glanced at Yunho and reached out, intertwining their fingers. Yunho looked down at their joined hands before he raised his eyes and smiled at Jaejoong.
“Where are we going to eat?” Jaejoong asked with a slight blush, “I’m hungry.”
“Well, there’s a restaurant near here. It’s small, and I think it’s private enough for you and I. As long as you don’t try to jump me during breakfast, I’m sure we can make through one breakfast without someone calling the press and spilling the news that you and I are dating.”
Jaejoong frowned at Yunho and pulled his hand away, “How dare you assume that I would jump you.”
“I’m looking good this morning, aren’t I?” Yunho chuckled, and Jaejoong didn’t even bother to respond although he had to agree with Yunho’s words. However, his pride refused to acknowledge Yunho’s handsomeness, so he kept his mouth shut and continued to follow Yunho as they walked to the restaurant.
As he remained a few steps behind, Jaejoong couldn’t help but think about how much of an enigma Yunho was. The other man had so many different aspects in his personality, that he always had a hard time figuring out which one was the most genuine. He could go from confident to fearful, from strong to caring in the matter of seconds, that Jaejoong could never actually pinpoint what truly defined him.
In that way, they contrasted greatly. Jaejoong knew he was an open book - his sisters had told him so numerous times. When he was upset, everyone knew he was upset. When he was happy, everyone knew he was happy. Although he was capable of hiding his own emotions from time to time, he couldn’t do so for long.
He couldn’t be like Yunho.
“What are you thinking about?” Yunho asked, noticing Jaejoong’s silence throughout their walk. He stopped and waited for Jaejoong to catch up, and he slowly reached out and stroked the latter’s wrist. “Is something bothering you?”
Jaejoong shook his head and smiled, “I was just thinking about something.” He answered honestly, “There’s no need for you to worry.”
Yunho frowned anyway despite Jaejoong’s words. “What were you thinking about? You looked pretty caught up in whatever it was.”
“It’s nothing.” Jaejoong replied before he pulled at Yunho’s sweater, “Now where are we going?” he glanced up at the sky, “It looks like it’s going to rain. Did you bring an umbrella?”
Yunho shook his head and showed his empty hands, “I forgot to.”
Jaejoong rolled his eyes playfully, “This is why I told you we should’ve left earlier. Unfortunately, you were too busy snoring like a pig, so I wasn’t able to wake you up sooner and faster.”
“I do not snore.” Yunho muttered childishly as he pointed at the restaurant where they would be having brunch. “Besides, I would’ve slept better if you weren’t so clingy.”
“I’m not clingy.” Jaejoong argued as they crossed the street. “How dare you say that. I am anything but a clingy sleeper -“
“Then take back what you said about me snoring.”
“I don’t want to.” Jaejoong insisted with a pout as they neared the establishment. “What’s true is true. If you sleep like a pig, then I shall always be honest and willing enough to call you one.”
“Then I’m just going to keep calling you a clingy sleeper.” Yunho argued back with a pleased smile on his face. He ignored Jaejoong’s jab to his side and pulled the restaurant door open, “Now let’s eat.”
Jaejoong stepped inside the restaurant, and he was amazed by it. It was hardly the splendor he was used to, but it had such a quaint and charming feel to it that he couldn’t help but feel thoroughly amazed by it.
“It’s so…”
“Nice, isn’t it?” Yunho said as he placed his hand on the small of Jaejoong’s back and led him over to a table. They sat down, and a waitress shyly handed the two of them menus before she retreated from them.
“How did you find it?” Jaejoong asked curiously as he flipped through the menu.
Yunho didn’t answer immediately, so he looked up from his menu and caught sight of the somber expression on the other man’s face. Jaejoong immediately put his menu down and reached out, “I’m sorry -“
Yunho shook his head and waved off Jaejoong’s gesture of comfort. He forced a smile and glanced back down at the menu. “It’s okay. You don’t have to worry about me, and it’s not your fault.” He was silent for a moment before continued, “Jihye introduced me to this place a year ago. It’s why I decided to move here instead of somewhere else.”
Jaejoong bit his lip, “I’m sorry Yunho.”
Yunho looked up at Jaejoong and smiled softly. “It’s not your fault, okay Jaejoong? Don’t blame yourself for bringing this up, because really, it shouldn’t…just, don’t blame yourself for anything.”
“Yunho -“
“Come on. I promised you that we’d spend a lovely day together, right?” Yunho said, immediately placing back his usual charm and liveliness, “We’re not going to have any fun if you’re sad, so cheer up.”
Jaejoong couldn’t help but feel a flash of pain at the sight of Yunho trying to be happy for him. He wished he could say something to comfort him, something to ease the loss of his family, but he didn’t know what to say.
Once again, he felt helpless.
“Jaejoong, come with me to the bathroom?” Yunho asked, and it was only then that he realized that Yunho had ordered for the two of them. He’d been too involved in his own thoughts that he’d ignored everything else.
Yunho stood up, and Jaejoong followed behind him. They made their way to the bathroom, and as soon as they were both inside, Yunho immediately locked the door.
Jaejoong took a step closer to the door and bit his lip hesitantly, “I’m sorry. I really want us to have a great time together, but I…” he looked up at Yunho guiltily, “I’m sorry.”
Yunho sighed and shook his head, “I don’t want you to apologize.” He moved closer to Jaejoong, but kept a small distance between the two of them. “Look, it hurts…and I trust you enough to tell you that, but Jaejoong it’s not your fault.”
“I wish I could do something to help you -“
It was at that moment that it seemed like something within Yunho had snapped, like a wall had been broken down. He moved closer to Jaejoong and cupped the other man’s cheeks, “You’ve done so much for me, so much that you don’t even realize how grateful I am to you.”
“Yunho -“
“To know that you’re fine with everything that I am, to know that you’ve chosen me over your life of comfort…” Yunho pressed Jaejoong close to his chest, “To know that you love me, it means more than anything else in the world.”
Jaejoong could feel Yunho’s shaky grip, so he looked up and met the other man’s gaze.
“I love you so much and just having you here with me, someone to wake up next to and come home to…” Yunho smiled weakly, “Don’t ever think that you’ve done nothing for me, because Jaejoong, as crazy and stupid as I may sound right now, you’re what matters to me the most in life.”
Jaejoong’s breath caught in his throat, and he gave Yunho a watery smile. “Don’t say that. It doesn’t sound right coming from you,” he said lightly, “You’re supposed to be one of those serious businessmen types. You shouldn’t go around being mushy and declaring -“
“I love you, so I should.”
Jaejoong chuckled and brushed away the tears that had come to his eyes, slightly irritated that he was such a mess around Yunho. He laughed and hugged Yunho tightly, pulling the other man so close to his chest that they almost seemed to be one.
He didn’t know how could even try to express what he felt toward the other man, but Jaejoong decided that he would have to at least try. Perhaps if he managed to express his love more often, Yunho would stop being so unsure of how perfect they were for one another.
“I love you too, and I suppose I have, ever since that day you bought me flowers.” Jaejoong mumbled, “You looked so cute that day, you know.” He pulled away from Yunho and smiled, “With those flowers in your hand, and those braces of yours…you looked so cute.”
Yunho shook his head and smiled slightly, “Don’t remind me about the braces.”
Things had changed immediately, and Jaejoong couldn’t help but appreciate that. It seemed like things between them were always meant to be intense, to shift from one moment to another so seamlessly, but he was fine with how things were.
Jaejoong reached out and took Yunho’s hand in his. He squeezed his hand reassuringly and smiled up at him. “Now come on, we should go back to the table. I’m sure all the members of the restaurant staff are wondering about what’s taking so long. I don’t think you and I need people talking about us and what we do.”
Yunho laughed and watched as Jaejoong unlocked the door. As soon as it was slightly open, he said, “If any of them ask any questions, I’ll tell them that you attacked me in the bathroom.”
Jaejoong turned around and shoved Yunho, “Idiot.” Before he walked back to their table, fighting back the smile that Yunho’s words had brought to his face.
o-o-o
“Look.” Jaejoong nudged Yunho and faked a glare. “It’s raining now.” He replied, as he pointed at the window.
Yunho glanced out and shrugged, “There’s nothing I can do about that.” He replied casually as he removed bills from his wallet and paid for their meal.
Jaejoong rolled his eyes and took a sip of his coffee, “You do realize that neither of us brought an umbrella, and that your apartment is a rather good distance away? It probably took us at least ten minutes to get here -“
“Then it’ll take us five if we run.” Yunho replied with a laugh as he handed over the payment to the waitress that had been attending to them. He took a sip of his coffee and ignored Jaejoong’s displeased expression, “You don’t mind getting a bit wet, do you?”
Jaejoong glanced back out the window and then returned his gaze back to Yunho, “It’s not drizzling outside Yunho, you do realize that, right?” he asked, pointing at the heavy downpour that was occurring outside. “We’ll get soaked.”
“A little water never hurt anyone.” Yunho replied innocently, “Besides, it’s not like you’re wearing an expensive suit or something you just bought, so there’s nothing for you to get overly worried about.”
“I don’t want to get wet.” Jaejoong whined, “I look nice dry.”
“Who knows, you might look better damp.” Yunho replied with a mischievous smile as he accepted the receipt from the waitress. He stood up and pocked the receipt, “Now come on, let’s go.”
“You’re terrible.”
“Do you want me to buy you an umbrella then?” Yunho asked seriously as they approached the door. He pointed a nearby convenience store, “I’m sure they sell umbrellas over there. Would you be happy if I ran over there and got you one?”
Jaejoong huffed, “No.”
“Well then, what are we going to do?” Yunho asked, “It doesn’t seem like you want to get wet, but then it doesn’t seem like you want me to get wet either. What are we going to do?”
“We’ll run.” Jaejoong mumbled as he elbowed Yunho, “We should’ve driven over here earlier. I told you to bring your car -“
“No you didn’t.” Yunho replied, a twinkle in his eye as he watched Jaejoong, who was pouting. “You’re the one who wanted to walk because you said the weather was nice and you wanted to feel the breeze against your face.”
“I didn’t say that.”
“You said something like it.” Yunho insisted before he pulled Jaejoong by the wrist and led him outside.
The moment they stepped out, they were heavily pelted by the downpour. Yunho glanced back at Jaejoong, and the other man just frowned at him disapprovingly. He laughed, and they both began to run all the way back to Yunho’s apartment.
Jaejoong kept up with Yunho easily, and he ignored all the surprised looks coming back from the other people on the street, as well as the annoyed comments coming from people who they passed by. He ran carelessly, and he didn’t even spare much thought about how those people thought of him - after all, it wasn’t like they’d see him again.
Nor would they recognize the fact that two of the richest men in Korea were running around and getting drenched in the rain.
As soon as they passed the surprised door man of Yunho’s building, Yunho pulled Jaejoong into a secluded area of the corridor and kissed him, knocking the other man against the wall.
Jaejoong complied with Yunho’s demanding kisses, running his hands through the other man’s soaked hair and returned his kisses equal fervor. Yunho laughed and pulled away from Jaejoong, “Let’s go back to my apartment.”
They stood awkwardly in the elevator next to an elderly couple that was trying hard not to look them in the eye. Yunho couldn’t help but chuckle at the awkwardness of the situation, but Jaejoong was less pleased. His face heated up with embarrassment when the woman of the couple glanced at him, and he could only smile apologetically.
“I’m sorry.” He bowed slightly, “We forgot to bring an umbrella when we went out this morning.” He mumbled, but the woman totally breezed past him as she walked out of the elevator.
The man smiled at them, “Be more ready next time.” He said before he followed after his wife.
Yunho laughed and leaned against the elevator wall as the doors slid shut. “You should’ve seen how she was looking at you Jaejoong.” He said lightly, “She probably thinks we’re high.”
“She probably thinks that we’re rich boys that have nothing else to do but spend their money on drugs.” Jaejoong replied with a smile before tugging Yunho by the sleeve as soon as the elevator doors opened.
They reached Yunho’s door, and as soon as they were both inside the apartment, they couldn’t keep their hands off each other. Jaejoong stumbled over the rug and fell down, Yunho following right after him and landing on top of him.
Jaejoong groaned in pain, “That hurt.”
“Do you want me to kiss it better?” Yunho asked with a smile before he placed his lips back over Jaejoong’s and silenced him. He climbed on top of Jaejoong’s smaller figure and kissed him relentlessly, “I want…”
“What?” Jaejoong asked breathlessly as Yunho stood up and held his hand out for the other man to hold.
“…can we go to my bedroom?” Yunho asked as he helped Jaejoong stand. His words were enough for Jaejoong to understand what he wanted, and Jaejoong’s answer was simple.
“Okay.” He murmured before he kissed Yunho on the lips and ran for the bedroom, skidding and slipping all over the floor. Jaejoong could hear Yunho laughing behind him, and it wasn’t long before they were both on the bed.
“We’re getting my bed wet.” Yunho murmured in between kisses. His hands trailed down Jaejoong’s chest, pausing to pinch a nipple before he reached down and took hold of the hem of the other man’s shirt, “Do you mind if I undress you?”
“No, I don’t.” Jaejoong mumbled as he helped Yunho pull the shirt off. He sat up and pulled Yunho’s shirt off as well and tossed it aside carelessly. He admired Yunho’s chest for a second and just as he was about to move his mouth forward, Yunho pushed him back down onto the bed.
“Stop pushing me.” Jaejoong mumbled as Yunho began to work on his belt. He could feel himself hardening under Yunho’s touch, and as Yunho’s hand slipped underneath his boxers, he moaned loudly at the other man’s touch.
Unforunately, Yunho quickly pulled his hand out.
“What are you doing?” Jaejoong whined breathlessly as he bucked forward, hoping for more contact. He reached down to pull his pants off on his own, but Yunho swatted his hands away and chose to do the task himself.
Yunho pulled the rest of his clothes off at an irritatingly slow pace, and Jaejoong could only let out displeased noises as he waited for Yunho to just touch him again. He shivered as the cold air hit his arousal, and he watched Yunho with dark eyes, wondering what the other man would do next.
“You’re so beautiful.” Yunho hissed as he stepped off the bed. He slowly began to unbuckle his own jeans, and Jaejoong could only watch him curiously.
“Yunho?”
Yunho bit his lip and kicked off the rest of his clothes. Jaejoong licked his lips at the sight of Yunho’s hard cock, and he glanced down at his own arousal. He bit his lip and slowly reached down to grip the base of his cock.
“Why are you there?” Jaejoong asked as he began to stroke himself, fighting hard against the urge to keep his eyes shut. He bit his lip and began to stroke faster, “Do you think I want to be doing this by myself?”
Yunho immediately removed his hand and placed his own hand over Jaejoong’s dick, stroking him at a much slower pace. He forced Jaejoong to look at him, “Did you want me to do this for you?” he asked, his voice low and possessive.
Jaejoong bit his lip, trying to be difficult. He looked elsewhere, but he let out a loud moan as soon as he felt Yunho speed up his strokes. His eyes fluttered shut, he was close, so close and -
Yunho stopped.
“Tell me what you want.” Yunho murmured, “Or else I’m going to the bathroom, and then you’ll just have to take care of your own little problem yourself.”
Jaejoong’s eyes snapped open, and he frowned. “You’re…” he let out a breath, “Terrible.”
“I’m only going to get worse if you don’t tell me what you want Jaejoong.” Yunho murmured as he reached upwards and pinched Jaejoong’s nipple, “I’d be fine to just leave you alone here and -“
“Please, make love to me.” Jaejoong muttered, wishing he’d chosen a different set of words. He felt so girly, that maybe Yunho had expected him to say ‘fuck me’ because that seemed too -
“I love you.” Yunho murmured as he kissed Jaejoong’s jawline. “You’re perfect, and wonderful, and I can’t believe you’re mine now.”
As Yunho spoke, Jaejoong reached out and tentatively took hold of Yunho’s dick. Yunho groaned, and he buried his head onto Jaejoong’s shoulder as the other man continued to stroke him slowly.
He moaned and began to buck against Jaejoong’s hand, seeking more friction. Jaejoong moved his hand away, and Yunho began to buck against Jaejoong’s lower body, their skin rubbing against each other in delicious friction.
Jaejoong moved upwards to meet Yunho’s thrusts, and he could feel himself getting closer to coming. He wrapped his arms around Yunho and clutched onto him tightly, his nails digging into Yunho’s tanned back.
“Faster,” he pleaded, “I’m so close -“
It didn’t take much longer, and Jaejoong eventually came. He covered Yunho with his release, and he panted, trying to recover from the high of his orgasm. He felt so good, but he could also feel the heat of his embarrassment on his face.
“I’m sorry.” Jaejoong mumbled, “I came so quickly.” Yunho looked at Jaejoong and chuckled slightly before placing a kiss against the other man’s forehead.
“It’s okay baby.” He replied, “It’s okay.”
Jaejoong felt spineless and weak, he couldn’t bring himself to move, but for Yunho, he began to shift slightly. He glanced at the nightstand, “Do you have lube?” he asked, “Or will I have to…”
Yunho reached out and pulled out some lube from his drawer before shutting it. He noticed Jaejoong’s gaze and kissed the other man, “Don’t worry. There hasn’t been anyone before you in a long time.”
Jaejoong kissed Yunho, “Okay.” He replied before he inched upwards on the bed. He watched carefully as Yunho’s hand trailed downward, and as soon as he felt the tip of Yunho’s finger against his entrance, his eyes fluttered shut.
“I’ll be slow.” Yunho warned as he pressed one finger through. He tried to ignore the sounds coming from Jaejoong’s mouth, which were loud and temping, and began to move further.
Jaejoong was so tight.
“When…when was the last?” He asked, despite the fact he didn’t really want to hear Jaejoong’s answer. He looked up, and the other man’s blush seemed to answer his questions.
“I’ve only tried with women - I’ve never liked a man enough to try...” Jaejoong answered, “So…you’ll be my first.” He moaned as Yunho shoved another finger in without warning, and he clenched the blankets tightly, “Did you have to do that?”
“I’m sorry.” Yunho muttered, “But hearing that has only gotten me more excited.”
Jaejoong rolled his eyes and let out a slow breath as Yunho began to scissor him open. He clenched hard at the bed sheets, and when Yunho pushed in another finger, he tossed his head back and moaned even louder.
“Yunho, I -“
Yunho bit his lip and looked at Jaejoong, the sight of the usually composed and proper man so wanton and lustful making him even more desperate to be inside of him. He pulled his fingers out and immediately began to smother lube all over his arousal.
Jaejoong reached out and began to stroke himself, although he was already hard from Yunho’s actions. “Yunho…” he said quietly, “Please.” He pulled his hand away and sat up, “I want you in me.”
He turned over and positioned himself on his hands and knees, but Yunho immediately pushed Jaejoong back down. “I want you to look at me, since it’s your first time.” He explained as he positioned himself at Jaejoong’s entrance, “I want you to look at me when you come.”
The sight of Jaejoong’s reddened lips and the flush over his cheeks had Yunho even more eager, but he pressed a kiss to Jaejoong’s lips and pressed their foreheads together.
“You’re so beautiful.”
The blush darkened, and Yunho slowly pushed into Jaejoong. His eyes fluttered shut, and Jaejoong let out a pained noise. Yunho gently stroked the other man’s forehead and pressed kisses all over his face.
“Are you okay?” he asked, still not fully inside the other man. “If you want me to pull out, I’ll pull out -“
Jaejoong shook his head, “No, don’t.” he placed his arms around Yunho once more and pulled him close, “Keep going.”
Yunho pushed in, fully sheathing himself inside Jaejoong, and he had to steady himself because Jaejoong was just so tight. He licked his lips and bent down to kiss Jaejoong passionately, his tongue exploring every dip and curve of the other’s mouth.
When he pulled away, Jaejoong looked up at him with such lust darkened eyes that Yunho wish he could keep that look imprinted into his mind forever. He slowly began to pull out before he thrust back in.
Jaejoong moaned and clutched Yunho tighter, his eyes fluttering shut. Yunho was going at an agonizingly slow pace, and as pleasurable as it was, he wanted the other man to go faster.
Jaejoong opened his eyes and looked up at Yunho, “Faster.” He breathed out, desperate for more.
Yunho’s thrusts began to pick up pace, and it wasn’t long before he was slamming hard into the other man. Jaejoong moaned loudly and tried to keep up with Yunho’s thrusts, but the pleasure was swamping his senses, and he could hardly bring himself to keep in time with Yunho.
Words were spilling from Jaejoong’s lips, and Yunho let go of his last ounce of restraint. As much as he’d wanted for Jaejoong’s first time with him to be slow and gentle, he couldn’t allow for that to happen when Jaejoong was just so demanding and irresistible.
He thrust hard and fast, the sound of their skin slapping against each other filling up the room and harmonizing with the sound of their moans. Yunho held onto Jaejoong tightly and he pressed a kiss against Jaejoong’s lips.
“Open your eyes.” He ordered, and the other man complied.
Jaejoong could feel his second orgasm coming, and just as he was about to stroke himself off, Yunho’s hand wrapped around his dick again and began to stroke him. Jaejoong moaned loudly in pleasure, and he dug his nails deeply into Yunho’s back.
The pleasure was too much, and in a few seconds, he was arching back and coming all over his stomach and Yunho’s. He mewled as Yunho continued to push into him, the actions over stimulating him.
He held onto Yunho tightly and whispered into his ear, “I love you so much.” He moaned into Yunho’s ear as the other man thrust in particularly deep, and as Jaejoong continued to moan indistinct words into Yunho’s ear, it wasn’t long before Yunho came hard inside of him.
Their pants filled the quiet of the room, and Jaejoong pressed a kiss against Yunho’s lips.
“I love you.” He repeated before he inched upwards and tugged at Yunho’s earlobe. “I love you so much, and I won’t ever leave.”
Yunho smiled down at him, “I love you too.” He murmured before he pulled himself out of Jaejoong. He pulled Jajeoong close, ignoring the fact they were damp and sticky, and kissed him once more.
Jaejoong chuckled as Yunho nuzzled against him, and he could feel himself drifting off into sleep. Yunho’s embrace was so warm, and the feeling of their bodies against each other was more than just comforting.
“I love this.” Jaejoong said aloud. He turned his head and looked at Yunho, who was staring at him. He pressed a chaste kiss to the other man’s lips, “I love being with you, and…”
Yunho watched him carefully, “And?”
“I think you deserve love.” Jaejoong replied as he shifted over so that he could turn around and look at Yunho properly. His hand moved upwards, and he carded his fingers through Yunho’s damp locks. “You deserve happiness as much as any other person, no matter what you’ve done.”
Yunho buried his face into Jaejoong’s chest, and Jaejoong held him closer. “No one could ever make me feel this way except for you,” Jaejoong continued as he let Yunho seek comfort in his embrace, “Don’t ever think otherwise.”
“Jaejoong…” Yunho’s voice trailed off and he slowly moved away from Jaejoong’s chest so that he could gaze into his eyes. “Thank you.”
Jaejoong smiled softly, “You don’t have to thank me.”
“You’re more than I deserve.”
“Don’t say that.” Jaejoong replied as he pulled Yunho close, “I don’t see why you keep making me repeat myself. You’re deserving of every single good thing that’s happened to you, and every single good thing that will happen to you.”
Yunho was silent, and Jaejoong could only hope that the other man would listen to his words. He had never loved someone in the way he loved Yunho, and despite all the man’s flaws, his sins, his mistakes, he could never love anyone else.
As much as Yunho didn’t feel like he was perfect for him, Jaejoong couldn’t help but think that no one else in the world would complete him as much as Yunho did. There would be no other person who valued or loved him in such a way, and there was no one who would ever fit him as well as Yunho did.
He wasn’t close to being an angel, and he wasn’t anything close to perfect - but Jaejoong knew that he could help Yunho. No matter what happened to them, he wouldn’t ever leave.
He would be there for Yunho until the end.
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Author’s Note: I have an unfortunate case of writer’s block. u___u I’m so behind on everything I want to do, and it’s quite terrible. Anyway, thank you so much guys for your comments, I love them all. I hope you guys like this chapter and how it focuses more on stabilizing Yunho & Jaejoong’s relationship. Next chapter will throw us back into the whole mafia scene and everything concerning that. It’s going to be a pretty intense rush starting from the next chapter until the end. I’ll probably post the next chapter on Monday, and if any of you follow me on twitter, then you know what to expect in the next chapter. XD By that I mean that there’s smut in the next chapter. I hope you guys enjoyed this, and please leave a comment! ♥
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong, hints of Yoochun/Changmin
Rating: R (NC-17 for this chapter)
Genre: Romance, Action, Drama
Summary: As secrets came to light, Jaejoong saw his life falling apart to the point where he realizes he knows nothing and suspects everyone - even, Jung Yunho.
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Jaejoong woke up in the morning because of Yunho rustling. His eyes immediately snapped open, and just as Yunho was about to leave the bed, his hand shot out and quickly grabbed hold of the other man’s wrist.
“Where are you going?” he asked, slowly sitting up so that he could look at Yunho properly. He glanced at the clock on the wall before he turned his eyes back to the other man, “It’s still early.”
“I was just about to…”
“Leave?” Jaejoong asked, his face hurt and his disappointment obvious. He glanced down at the blankets of the bed before he raised his eyes and looked at Yunho accusingly. “I thought you -“
Yunho leaned down and pressed a kiss against Jaejoong’s forehead. “I was just going to leave and go to the kitchen.”
“You can’t cook.” Jaejoong replied with a pout, “In case you’ve forgotten, you and I were partners in Home Economics back in high school, and I know about all of your culinary mishaps.” A smile flittered across his face as he recalled the memories, “You almost burned down the building several times.”
“I was just going to make you coffee.” Yunho argued as Jaejoong clambered out of bed so that he could join him in the kitchen. “I don’t think there’s anything wrong with me wanting to do that.”
Jaejoong shook his head and pulled Yunho out the door, “No, there’s nothing wrong with that, but I still can’t leave you alone in the kitchen.”
As soon as they were out in the corridor, Yunho pinned Jaejoong against the wall and kissed him deeply. Jaejoong let out a squeak of surprise but regardless of Yunho’s surprising gesture, he could still feel himself melting underneath the other’s touch.
After a few minutes, Yunho pulled away.
“I’ll be fine in the kitchen. Go back to sleep.”
Jaejoong shook his head childishly, “I’m not leaving your side, remember?” he kissed the corner of Yunho’s lips and pulled him in the direction of the bedroom, “Can’t the coffee wait until later?”
“It can’t, because -“
The doorbell rang and Yunho gave Jaejoong a pointed look, “Because we have visitors,” he continued before he pressed kiss to Jaejoong’s forehead and made his way to the door.
Jaejoong followed after him slowly, content to be a few steps behind. He stopped at the end of the corridor and leaned against the doorframe, keeping himself within perfect view to see who was at the door.
Changmin came into view, and Jaejoong waved.
“I see you both are awake.” Changmin said as he came in through the door, Yoochun following behind him. He took off his coat and placed it on the rack, “Did anything eventful happen last night?”
“Nothing that you have to be concerned about,” Yunho replied as he shut the door behind Yoochun. He crossed his arms, “What do you want?”
“This is my apartment.” Yoochun said with a smile as he walked over to where Jaejoong was. He turned around and looked at Yunho and crossed his arms, “I should be the one deciding about who goes and who leaves.”
“I paid for the apartment.” Yunho muttered, “You could at least show me some gratitude for that.”
Jaejoong glanced between the two of them, “Why did you pay for his apartment?” he asked, trying to keep his slight feelings of jealousy out of his tone of voice. His eyes settled on Yunho, and he waited for an answer.
“Yoochun took a bullet out of Yunho when a task went awry.” Changmin said with a wave of his hand, “Yunho, being the overly grateful ass that he is, decided to buy Yoochun an apartment since Yoochun wasn’t living in that great of a place before.”
“Oh, I see.”
Yoochun fixed the books on his bookshelves, “I told Yunho that I wanted a car, but Yunho refused and told me that it would be better and more logical for me to live in a better apartment.”
Jaejoong laughed, and Yoochun smiled at him. He moved closer to Jaejoong while Yunho went over to Changmin, “So, I assume things went well for you?” he asked, a knowing smile on his lips.
Jaejoong nodded, “Yeah, they did…things went much better than I thought they would.”
“That’s good.” Yoochun replied, his smile growing even wider. “I had a feeling they would, but still, it’s nice to know that my prediction came through. I think you’re perfect for him.”
“Thank you.” Jaejoong smiled back at him, “I’m happy to know that you think that.”
“Actually Jaejoong -“
“Yoochun, what are you talking to him about?” Yunho asked curiously as he left Changmin’s side and walked over to them, “Hopefully you aren’t talking to him about anything -“
“I was being completely innocent.” Yoochun replied.
“Somehow I doubt that.”
“Why don’t you ask Jaejoong?” Yoochun stepped away from Jaejoong and pointed at him, “I’m sure he’d only tell you the truth.”
Yunho stared at Jaejoong for a few seconds before he let out a noise of frustration and glanced at Jaejoong and Changmin. “Why did you two come back so early? I thought you guys weren’t coming back until this evening.”
“There was a change of plans.” Changmin said as he looked around Yoochun’s apartment, “So we had to come back here.”
“Also Yunho, do I have to keep reminding you that this apartment is mine?” Yoochun added, “You shouldn’t be so rude.”
“All I wanted was some time to rest, and to -“
Changmin sat down on the sofa and turned the television on, “Besides, you have something to do, don’t you?” he said as he flipped through the channels. Yunho was silent, so he turned his head back to look at him, “You have a meeting.”
Yunho glanced at the wall clock and muttered a curse, “You’re right. I forgot.” He ran a hand through his hair, “I completely forgot about it.”
“It’s a good thing you have me.” Changmin replied as he made room for Yoochun to sit on the sofa next to him, “If you didn’t you would’ve been shot dead already.” He joked plainly, which made Jaejoong’s eyes widen.
Jaejoong glanced at Yunho, and was rather surprised to see the other man chuckling instead of being annoyed. Yunho noticed the look of irritation and distaste on Jaejoong’s face and approached him. He leaned in close, resulting in Jaejoong shrinking back against the doorframe.
Yunho’s breath was warm against his face, and Jaejoong was fairly sure he was blushing as a result of how close they were to one another. He tried to hold Yunho’s gaze and looked at him questioningly. “Yes?”
“Could you go back inside the guest room with me?” Yunho asked as he gently stroked the inside of Jaejoong’s wrist. “I have something I want to tell you.”
Jaejoong bit his lip and nodded, “Okay then.”
“Alright, follow me.”
Yunho took hold of Jaejoong’s wrist and pulled him in the direction of the bedroom, both of them too fully engrossed with one another to bother responding to the joking comments coming from Yoochun and Changmin.
As soon as the door was shut, Yunho immediately turned around and pressed Jaejoong up against it. His back hit the door with a thud, but Jaejoong was too surprised by the action to notice the brief flash of pain.
He waited for some sort of explanation for the sudden action, but Yunho was silent and was staring down at the ground. Jaejoong looked at him worriedly and when Yunho made no move to say anything, he decided to be the first one to speak.
“What’s wrong?” Jaejoong asked softly as he placed his arms over Yunho’s shoulders and began to play idly with the ends of the other man’s hair, “What are you worrying about?”
Yunho leaned forward and rested his forehead against Jaejoong’s shoulder. “I don’t want to go that meeting.”
“It’s okay, I get that feeling -“
“This isn’t just any meeting.” Yunho muttered, and Jaejoong kept quiet. He let out a long sigh and pulled away from Jaejoong before he moved in closer once again and pressed their foreheads against each other, “This is how things are going to be like for us. I’m going to be going to meetings that I don’t want to go to, and you’ll be forced to wait and worry for me while I’m away.”
“Please, it’s not that bad.” Jaejoong replied, “Really Yunho, there could be much worse for us out there. Don’t think that just because what’s happening in our relationship is rather unusual that it means it’s bad.”
“Do you really…” Yunho sighed and looked away. “Are you really okay with this? You know what kind of work I am involved in, yet you’re still willing to love me? What if I’m some kind of sick person that enjoys the power that comes with being in the syndicate? What if I’m a selfish, sadistic bastard that enjoys killing and -“
“But you aren’t that kind of person.” Jaejoong interrupted, his words ringing clear in the room and making Yunho lift his gaze to look at him. Jaejoong smiled at him softly and continued, “You aren’t that kind of person…perhaps I still need to learn more about you. I know there’s more to everything Yunho, you just haven’t told me about it yet. I’m being patient with you, and I know you’ll reveal things when it’s meant to be.”
Yunho’s look softened, “Jaejoong…”
“You still have so much to say to me, and I know that. There’s still much for you to explain, and so much for you to repent for, but despite all of that, I still I love you.” Jaejoong murmured before he sealed the short distance between their lips, moved upward and kissed Yunho. He pulled the other man closer, crushing their mouths against each other.
It’s not long before Yunho’s returning his kisses with even more fervor, pushing Jaejoong back against the door even harder and his hands running all over Jaejoong’s body. Jaejoong let out a quiet moan that was cut off the moment Yunho’s mouth found its way back over his.
There was a knock at the door, so they immediately pulled away from one another, breathless and panting. They stared at one another, and the person at the other end of the door just continued to knock.
After it was made clear that neither of them were going to answer the door, the other person began to speak.
“Yunho, you’re going to be late for your meeting. I don’t know what you two are doing in there, but whatever you’re doing, you’ll have to stop it right now.” Changmin said from the other side of the door. He knocked his hand against the door one last time, “Hurry up Yunho. You know they don’t like it when people are late to meetings.”
Jaejoong bit his lip, “I’ll be okay.” He reached out brushed his fingers softly against Yunho’s cheek. “I have my own things to attend to anyway. I need to go to work, and I have to visit Sohyang today.”
“Stay safe.” Yunho murmured as he wrapped his arms around Jaejoong tightly, “Be careful at all times.”
“I will be.”
They parted slowly and reluctantly. It was a phase of the beginnings of a new relationship, and although Jaejoong had not been in numerous relationships, he knew what it was like to not want to be parted from a lover.
The only difference was that he’d never felt such a strong dislike for being parted before.
Jaejoong turned around and pulled at the door knob open, but before he could fully pull the door open, Yunho placed his hand over Jaejoong’s. Jaejoong glanced back at him with a look of surprise on his face, “Yes?”
“You…you don’t regret this, do you?”
A look of sadness crossed Jaejoong’s face - not because he was hurt that Yunho would ask him such a thing, but because he knew that the other man still felt like he wasn’t enough for him.
“Not at all.” Jaejoong replied with a smile on his face.
Yunho stared at him a mixture of emotions on his face. Jaejoong was about to ask him if something was wrong until Yunho pulled something from the back pocket of his pants and held it out for Jaejoong to take. “This is the key to where I’m living now.” He murmured softly, “I thought you’d want to have it.”
“I…”
“Can I see you tonight?” Yunho asked, his voice low. “I don’t know what time I’ll be coming home, but I know that I want to see you again.”
Jaejoong was silent for a few seconds before he nodded.
“I’ll see you then.”
Yunho walked away, and Jaejoong watched him go. He bit his lip hard and walked back over to the bed and stayed still until his heart calmed down.
o-o-o
“Did something happen to you?” Sohyang asked as she looked up at Jaejoong from her menu. She frowned at him and set the menu down onto the table. “You look kind of uneasy.”
Jaejoong shook his head and ran his hand through his hair, “It’s nothing.” He muttered disbelievingly as he set his own menu down, “I’ll have whatever you’re having.”
“…I told you I didn’t feel like eating just a few minutes ago.”
He looked up at her, “Oh.”
Sohyang rolled her eyes and placed her hand over Jaejoong’s. “Now, tell me what’s bothering you.” She squeezed his hand tightly and smiled at him encouragingly. “I’m here to listen to you.”
“…I’m going to risk sounding stupid.”
“You always sound stupid.” Sohyang replied, “Yet I continue to listen to you.” She chuckled at Jaejoong’s irritated expression and swatted him, “Now go on. Please tell me about what you wanted to say.”
Jaejoong sighed and once more ran his hands through his hair, resulting in his hair becoming even more disarrayed than it had been before. He let his face fall into his hands and mumbled indecipherable.
“What?”
He looked up at her with a pathetic expression on his face, “I’ve kind of been seeing someone lately.”
“Okay…?” Sohyang trailed off and looked at him with a confused expression on her face. “I don’t see what’s wrong with that. Who are you seeing by the way?”
“It doesn’t matter.” Jaejoong muttered, “Anyway, he kind of -“
“Is he handsome?” Sohyang asked as she took a sip of her water, “Knowing you though, he must be. Your last fling was really quite handsome you know. It’s a pity you didn’t like him much.”
Jaejoong frowned, “Can we just move on from him?”
She laughed and waved her hand, “Please continue.”
“Anyway…he kind of gave me a key to his apartment, and then he invited me to meet him there later tonight.” Jaejoong breathed out slowly and glanced down at his empty plate. “I…I think he wants to -“
Sohyang stared at Jaejoong with a blank expression on her face.
“This is lame.” She muttered finally in a joking manner. “If you don’t want to have sex with him, then don’t. It’s that simple Jaejoong.”
“I don’t know -“
“You’re boring me.” Sohyang rolled her eyes teasingly and turned to look through her bag for her phone, “Anyway, I’m just going to call Taeyoung in order to reassure him that I’m still okay. When I come back, you better have ordered something.”
She left the table, and a few seconds after she’d left, Jaejoong’s phone began to ring. He glanced down at his phone, and his heart began to beat faster at the sight of the name that flashed over his phone’s screen.
Yunho
Jaejoong swallowed hard and answered his phone. “Hello?”
“I might be going home really late tonight.” Yunho muttered tiredly, “Is that okay? I don’t want you to wait up for me, so it’s okay if you don’t go over to my apartment later. I’ll just see you tomorrow.”
“Did something go wrong?” Jaejoong asked softly as he traced absentminded circles on the table’s surface with his spoon. “If you need to talk, I’m willing to listen.”
“No, it’s okay Jaejoong.” Yunho replied, “You don’t have to worry about this.”
“Yunho -“
“I love hearing your voice.” Yunho whispered from the other end of the line, “I…It’s hard for me to believe that you really said you loved me last night. I’m going to be a good person for you.”
Jaejoong’s heart softened, “I’ve never thought of you as a bad one.”
“Shit.” Yunho sighed, “I want to see you so badly. I want to hear you in person. I want to touch you again.”
Jaejoong looked around the restaurant and hoped that no one would notice the blush that had spread across his cheeks, “You don’t have to say that,” He bit his lip and hated how much like school girl he was behaving, “But I want to see you too.”
Yunho’s chuckle sent shivers down Jaejoong’s spine. “Tomorrow then?” he said, “I’ll pick you up at your building, and then we can spend the rest of the day with each other tomorrow. I’ll clear my schedule.”
“Okay.” Jaejoong replied, although he had other plans in mind. He smiled to himself and added, “I can’t wait to see you again.”
“Same here -“
Before Jaejoong could reply, Sohyang had snatched the phone away. She glanced at the caller’s name on the screen before she looked at Jaejoong. She sat down at her seat across from Jaejoong and placed the phone next to her ear.
“Yunho?”
Jaejoong’s eyes widened, and he reached out for the phone, but she quickly swatted his hands away as she listened to what Yunho was saying.
“You’re dating Jaejoong, aren’t you?”
Jaejoong froze, and a slow smile stretched across Sohyang’s lips.
“I see. Well, I’m glad he’s dating you. Anyway, I’ll hand the phone back to my tomato of a brother. Take care of yourself Yunho.” Sohyang handed the phone back to Jaejoong and smiled wickedly, “I don’t see why you’re so hesitant in -“
Jaejoong pushed his sister away and answered the phone. “I’m sorry about her.” He muttered, “I have to go now.”
“Okay, bye Jaejoong.”
“Yunho?”
“Yes?”
“I love you.” Jaejoong’s face heat up with embarrassment, and he could feel his sister’s shocked gaze on him. “I’ll see you tomorrow. Bye.” He hung up hastily and placed his phone down onto the table.
“Well, aren’t you cute today?” Sohyang chuckled and took another sip, “Since you’re obviously in some sort of blessed honeymoon state of your relationship, you’re paying for lunch today.”
Jaejoong couldn’t bring himself to argue with her and could only blush.
o-o-o
It was a stupid idea, and he was beginning to feel sleepy.
Jaejoong glanced at his phone, wondering what time Yunho would get home. It was already past eleven, and while he’d been wise enough not to make dinner, he still wanted to make a good impression.
He didn’t want Yunho to walk in and find him snoring on the couch.
“Stupid.” Jaejoong unfolded his legs off the sofa and made his way over the mirror set on the wall. He fixed his hair restlessly and frowned at his shirt. He pulled at the striped top and stared disapprovingly at the v-neck cut, wishing he could run back home and change into something more…modest.
He huffed and checked his phone - perhaps it’d been a bad idea to surprise Yunho. What if he brought home someone from the syndicate? No doubt that would be an awkward encounter.
Jaejoong bit his lip and sighed once more before he returned to the sofa and sat down. He’d give Yunho five more minutes. If the other man didn’t show up within that time, then he would just go home.
Jaejoong shifted anxiously on the sofa and tried to think of something he could do to pass the time. He stood up and sat back down, before he stood up again and walked back over to the mirror.
He really should’ve worn a different shirt.
He’d never been a nervous person before - he was pretty much exactly like he looked, quiet, a little cold, but confident. Jaejoong let out an irritated breath and paced over to Yunho’s kitchen to find something to drink - for sure the other man wouldn’t mind if he had one glass of wine.
He looked through Yunho’s kitchen and found a bottle of wine easily enough. He popped it open easily and poured a glass for himself. As soon as he’d finished the glass, Jaejoong exhaled slowly.
His nerves were killing him.
Jaejoong poured another glass of wine for himself and took the glass out of the kitchen, clutching the stem tightly in his right hand. He looked around the apartment - it was as impersonal and neat as the previous one but nonetheless, he admired how it all looked.
He sat back down onto the sofa and placed the glass of wine on the small table next to it so that he could stretch back and toy anxiously with the throw pillows. Jaejoong bit his lip, an irritating and obvious habit of his, and was thinking about cleaning up and leaving when he heard someone begin to unlock the front door.
Jaejoong stood up and grabbed the glass of wine off the table, then slowly made his way to the door. He stopped a few feet from the door, and as soon as the door opened, a smile graced his face.
The person at the door was Yunho - and he was alone.
“Hi.” Jaejoong breathed out, hoping that he didn’t look like a creepy, stalking mess of who he usually was. “Surprise?”
Yunho stared at him, “You…you came.” He said slowly, still digesting the fact that Jaejoong was standing in front of him. “I told you not to.”
“I thought it’d be a nice surprise if I showed up.” Jaejoong replied hesitantly as he tried to find his voice. He bit his lip, “…I could make you dinner if you want. It’s a little late, and I know it’s not good for your health to eat so late at night, but you seem tired, and a little hungry too, so if you want something to eat than I’m sure -“
“Dinner would be great.” Yunho said with a smile as he shut the door behind him. He walked up to Jaejoong and pressed a quick kiss against his lips, “Should I expect you here every night?”
“No.” Jaejoong muttered as he let Yunho lead him to the kitchen. He wrapped his arm around Yunho’s waist as the other man placed his arm over his shoulders, and leaned against him. “I’m actually here to steal things from you.”
“Ah, I see.” Yunho replied, “You should be careful though. I’m a scary man with a gun.”
Jaejoong chuckled and disentangled himself from Yunho so that he could check what the other man had in his refrigerator. He pulled it open, “Well, as long as your gun isn’t pointed at me, then I won’t mind.”
He frowned at the contents of Yunho’s refrigerator. There was barely anything inside aside from mayonnaise, bottled water, carrots, onions, beer, and soda. He shut the appliance and glanced at Yunho, “You don’t cook…do you?”
Yunho hid his embarrassed smile behind a glass of water, “Not really.” He set the glass down and walked over to Jaejoong, “I’m fine if I don’t eat tonight. I’ll be okay.” He leaned against the kitchen counter, “Don’t worry. You and I can just go out for breakfast tomorrow.”
“Yunho -“
The taller man leaned down and pressed his lips against Jaejoong’s, silencing him effectively. Jaejoong melted against Yunho for a few seconds before he pushed the other man away and frowned, “Don’t shut me up.”
“What made you think I was doing that?” Yunho asked with a smile. He moved away from Jaejoong, “I’m going to take a shower now.” He stopped and stared at Jaejoong, resulting in a blush to spread across the other man’s cheeks.
“What?” he almost squeaked, annoyed by how Yunho’s eyes raked over his body. “I don’t know what you’re trying to imply, but if you’re -“
“Are you staying over?”
“Oh.” Jaejoong stilled for a few seconds. “Is…is it okay?” he asked, only realizing that he hadn’t exactly thought out his plans as well as he’d thought he did. “I didn’t bring a change of clothes though.”
“It’s okay, you could borrow some of mine.” Yunho replied. “It shouldn’t be too hard for you to find my bedroom. It’s just down the corridor and to the right. No need for you to knock.”
He walked away and left Jaejoong alone in the kitchen.
Jaejoong swallowed hard and looked for the bottle of wine - he’d need another glass.
o-o-o
It was after a few minutes and a few glasses of wine that Jaejoong finally gathered the courage to enter Yunho’s bedroom. He pushed the door open slowly and was glad to see that Yunho was still in the bathroom.
Jaejooong slowly made his way over to the large closet in the room, and he pulled out a casual shirt and a pair of sweatpants. He looked around the room and knocked on the bathroom door, “Don’t come out yet, okay?”
He vaguely heard Yunho’s reply from the other side of the door and made his way to change. He stripped quickly and folded his clothes, placing them onto an unoccupied desk, and wore Yunho’s.
The shirt and the sweatpants were rather long, but Jaejoong didn’t really bother to think about that matter for too long. What he was busy thinking about was the fact that he and Yunho would probably end up sharing the bed.
He swallowed hard, and his eyes immediately went over to the bathroom door when he heard the fumbling of the door knob. Yunho poked his head through, “Is it okay if I come out now?”
Jaejoong rolled his eyes at Yunho, “You could’ve knocked first, but yeah, you can come out.”
Yunho chuckled and opened the door, “I’m sorry.” He placed his things on top of another desk and glanced at the bed before he looked at Jaejoong, who was standing closer to the door than to the bedroom.
“Left side or right side?” he asked. “I don’t really mind which side you take because usually I just end up all over the place anyway.”
“I’ll take the left side.” Jaejoong muttered shyly as he took a few steps closer, “I always sleep on the left.”
“Okay then.”
Yunho removed the towel that rested over his shoulders and went back into the bathroom to hang it. As soon as he’d stepped back inside the bedroom, he noticed that Jaejoong hadn’t moved an inch.
“Do you want me to put on a shirt?” he asked.
Jaejoong shook his head, “No, it’s fine.” He blushed and began to make his way over to the left side of the bed, “You can sleep without it.” He brushed past Yunho and sat down on the bed, a look of determination on his face.
Yunho chuckled at the sight of him, “I could sleep on the couch.”
“If you try sleeping on the couch, I’ll sleep on top of you.” Jaejoong snapped before he turned away from Yunho and lied down onto the bed. He shut his eyes so that his nervousness would be less apparent and pulled a pillow close to his chest. “Now, are we going to sleep or not?”
“Yes, yes, hold on.” Yunho replied.
Jaejoong kept his eyes shut, and he could only listen to the quiet footsteps Yunho made on the carpet. He breathed in and out slowly, willing himself to calm down as he waited for Yunho to get onto the bed.
The bed creaked with Yunho’s added weight, and Jaejoong could feel his heart begin to beat faster in his chest. He swallowed hard and clutched the pillow tighter. He waited for a few seconds, but nothing happened.
Jaejoong slowly opened his eyes and instead of being greeted by the sight of Yunho’s handsome face, was instead met by the broad expanse of Yunho’s tanned back. He blinked twice and inched a little closer, but Yunho didn’t respond.
He reached out, his fingertips nearly brushing against Yunho’s skin, but Jaejoong quickly pulled his hand back and held it close to his chest. Jaejoong bit his lip and pulled in deep to find the courage to do what he wanted.
Jaejoong slowly placed his hand on Yunho’s back, his fingertips trailing down and exploring the feeling of the other man’s skin. Eventually, Jaejoong stopped and placed his hand on top of Yunho’s waist.
“Yunho?”
Yunho turned around and looked at Jaejoong, an indecipherable look on his face. He stared at Jaejoong, “Yes?” he asked softly, keeping the distance between the two of them.
Jaejoong bit his lip, “I…” he moved closer and buried his face into Yunho’s chest. He draped his arm over the other man, “Nothing. I don’t have anything to say.”
Yunho chuckled and placed his chin on top of Jaejoong’s head as he drew the other man closer, “Okay then.” He replied, and Jaejoong could feel the rise and fall of Yunho’s chest.
He’d never felt so secure before.
o-o-o
Jaejoong woke up first, so he quickly took a shower, borrowed a pair of boxers from Yunho, and changed into his clothes from the previous night. He found a spare toothbrush in Yunho’s cabinet, brushed his teeth, and afterwards, fixed his hair.
When he came out of the bathroom, Jaejoong noticed that Yunho was still sleeping.
The only difference between how he’d looked earlier and how he looked in the present moment was that he’d somehow ended up sprawled all over the bed.
Jaejoong chuckled at the sight of the other man in such a humorous position and immediately went over to the bed to wake him up. He sat down and pressed a kiss to Yunho’s jawline before pinching the other man’s side.
“Get up.” He hissed before he was pulled back onto the bed and forced onto his back.
Jaejoong looked up at Yunho breathlessly, “What?” he asked, smiling up at the man who had him pinned down onto the bed. “You told me that we were going to go out for breakfast today.”
“Can’t we just order food?” Yunho asked as he reached down and began to lick at a sensitive spot on Jaejoong’s neck. “I mean, just call somewhere. I don’t feel like leaving the apartment.” He murmured before he began to bite at Jaejoong’s neck.
Jaejoong grasped Yunho’s hair, “You asshole.” He hissed, “You said that you’d take me out today, so you’re going to take me out. Now get off me.”
“You don’t seem to want me to get off you.” Yunho mumbled as he began to work his way down lower, appreciating the v-neck cut of Jaejoong’s shirt. “You’re -“
Jaejoong pushed Yunho off, and the other man landed on the other side of the bed. He quickly escaped Yunho’s attempts at pulling him back onto the bed and ran for the door leading back out to the corridor.
“We’re going out, so hurry up.” Jaejoong said as his face heat up in embarrassment. “I want to eat, so take care of yourself and let’s leave.”
Yunho rolled over to his back and stared up at the ceiling for a few seconds before he sat up and looked at Jaejoong. He patted the empty side of the mattress and ran a hand through his hair, “Are you sure you don’t want to stay in bed?”
Jaejoong ignored the way Yunho’s muscles flexed and shook his head. “Thanks, but no thanks. Now get out of bed before I find someone else to spend my morning with.” He replied before he slammed the door shut.
o-o-o
It didn’t take that long for Yunho to get ready, and after a few minutes, they left his apartment. Jaejoong glanced at Yunho and reached out, intertwining their fingers. Yunho looked down at their joined hands before he raised his eyes and smiled at Jaejoong.
“Where are we going to eat?” Jaejoong asked with a slight blush, “I’m hungry.”
“Well, there’s a restaurant near here. It’s small, and I think it’s private enough for you and I. As long as you don’t try to jump me during breakfast, I’m sure we can make through one breakfast without someone calling the press and spilling the news that you and I are dating.”
Jaejoong frowned at Yunho and pulled his hand away, “How dare you assume that I would jump you.”
“I’m looking good this morning, aren’t I?” Yunho chuckled, and Jaejoong didn’t even bother to respond although he had to agree with Yunho’s words. However, his pride refused to acknowledge Yunho’s handsomeness, so he kept his mouth shut and continued to follow Yunho as they walked to the restaurant.
As he remained a few steps behind, Jaejoong couldn’t help but think about how much of an enigma Yunho was. The other man had so many different aspects in his personality, that he always had a hard time figuring out which one was the most genuine. He could go from confident to fearful, from strong to caring in the matter of seconds, that Jaejoong could never actually pinpoint what truly defined him.
In that way, they contrasted greatly. Jaejoong knew he was an open book - his sisters had told him so numerous times. When he was upset, everyone knew he was upset. When he was happy, everyone knew he was happy. Although he was capable of hiding his own emotions from time to time, he couldn’t do so for long.
He couldn’t be like Yunho.
“What are you thinking about?” Yunho asked, noticing Jaejoong’s silence throughout their walk. He stopped and waited for Jaejoong to catch up, and he slowly reached out and stroked the latter’s wrist. “Is something bothering you?”
Jaejoong shook his head and smiled, “I was just thinking about something.” He answered honestly, “There’s no need for you to worry.”
Yunho frowned anyway despite Jaejoong’s words. “What were you thinking about? You looked pretty caught up in whatever it was.”
“It’s nothing.” Jaejoong replied before he pulled at Yunho’s sweater, “Now where are we going?” he glanced up at the sky, “It looks like it’s going to rain. Did you bring an umbrella?”
Yunho shook his head and showed his empty hands, “I forgot to.”
Jaejoong rolled his eyes playfully, “This is why I told you we should’ve left earlier. Unfortunately, you were too busy snoring like a pig, so I wasn’t able to wake you up sooner and faster.”
“I do not snore.” Yunho muttered childishly as he pointed at the restaurant where they would be having brunch. “Besides, I would’ve slept better if you weren’t so clingy.”
“I’m not clingy.” Jaejoong argued as they crossed the street. “How dare you say that. I am anything but a clingy sleeper -“
“Then take back what you said about me snoring.”
“I don’t want to.” Jaejoong insisted with a pout as they neared the establishment. “What’s true is true. If you sleep like a pig, then I shall always be honest and willing enough to call you one.”
“Then I’m just going to keep calling you a clingy sleeper.” Yunho argued back with a pleased smile on his face. He ignored Jaejoong’s jab to his side and pulled the restaurant door open, “Now let’s eat.”
Jaejoong stepped inside the restaurant, and he was amazed by it. It was hardly the splendor he was used to, but it had such a quaint and charming feel to it that he couldn’t help but feel thoroughly amazed by it.
“It’s so…”
“Nice, isn’t it?” Yunho said as he placed his hand on the small of Jaejoong’s back and led him over to a table. They sat down, and a waitress shyly handed the two of them menus before she retreated from them.
“How did you find it?” Jaejoong asked curiously as he flipped through the menu.
Yunho didn’t answer immediately, so he looked up from his menu and caught sight of the somber expression on the other man’s face. Jaejoong immediately put his menu down and reached out, “I’m sorry -“
Yunho shook his head and waved off Jaejoong’s gesture of comfort. He forced a smile and glanced back down at the menu. “It’s okay. You don’t have to worry about me, and it’s not your fault.” He was silent for a moment before continued, “Jihye introduced me to this place a year ago. It’s why I decided to move here instead of somewhere else.”
Jaejoong bit his lip, “I’m sorry Yunho.”
Yunho looked up at Jaejoong and smiled softly. “It’s not your fault, okay Jaejoong? Don’t blame yourself for bringing this up, because really, it shouldn’t…just, don’t blame yourself for anything.”
“Yunho -“
“Come on. I promised you that we’d spend a lovely day together, right?” Yunho said, immediately placing back his usual charm and liveliness, “We’re not going to have any fun if you’re sad, so cheer up.”
Jaejoong couldn’t help but feel a flash of pain at the sight of Yunho trying to be happy for him. He wished he could say something to comfort him, something to ease the loss of his family, but he didn’t know what to say.
Once again, he felt helpless.
“Jaejoong, come with me to the bathroom?” Yunho asked, and it was only then that he realized that Yunho had ordered for the two of them. He’d been too involved in his own thoughts that he’d ignored everything else.
Yunho stood up, and Jaejoong followed behind him. They made their way to the bathroom, and as soon as they were both inside, Yunho immediately locked the door.
Jaejoong took a step closer to the door and bit his lip hesitantly, “I’m sorry. I really want us to have a great time together, but I…” he looked up at Yunho guiltily, “I’m sorry.”
Yunho sighed and shook his head, “I don’t want you to apologize.” He moved closer to Jaejoong, but kept a small distance between the two of them. “Look, it hurts…and I trust you enough to tell you that, but Jaejoong it’s not your fault.”
“I wish I could do something to help you -“
It was at that moment that it seemed like something within Yunho had snapped, like a wall had been broken down. He moved closer to Jaejoong and cupped the other man’s cheeks, “You’ve done so much for me, so much that you don’t even realize how grateful I am to you.”
“Yunho -“
“To know that you’re fine with everything that I am, to know that you’ve chosen me over your life of comfort…” Yunho pressed Jaejoong close to his chest, “To know that you love me, it means more than anything else in the world.”
Jaejoong could feel Yunho’s shaky grip, so he looked up and met the other man’s gaze.
“I love you so much and just having you here with me, someone to wake up next to and come home to…” Yunho smiled weakly, “Don’t ever think that you’ve done nothing for me, because Jaejoong, as crazy and stupid as I may sound right now, you’re what matters to me the most in life.”
Jaejoong’s breath caught in his throat, and he gave Yunho a watery smile. “Don’t say that. It doesn’t sound right coming from you,” he said lightly, “You’re supposed to be one of those serious businessmen types. You shouldn’t go around being mushy and declaring -“
“I love you, so I should.”
Jaejoong chuckled and brushed away the tears that had come to his eyes, slightly irritated that he was such a mess around Yunho. He laughed and hugged Yunho tightly, pulling the other man so close to his chest that they almost seemed to be one.
He didn’t know how could even try to express what he felt toward the other man, but Jaejoong decided that he would have to at least try. Perhaps if he managed to express his love more often, Yunho would stop being so unsure of how perfect they were for one another.
“I love you too, and I suppose I have, ever since that day you bought me flowers.” Jaejoong mumbled, “You looked so cute that day, you know.” He pulled away from Yunho and smiled, “With those flowers in your hand, and those braces of yours…you looked so cute.”
Yunho shook his head and smiled slightly, “Don’t remind me about the braces.”
Things had changed immediately, and Jaejoong couldn’t help but appreciate that. It seemed like things between them were always meant to be intense, to shift from one moment to another so seamlessly, but he was fine with how things were.
Jaejoong reached out and took Yunho’s hand in his. He squeezed his hand reassuringly and smiled up at him. “Now come on, we should go back to the table. I’m sure all the members of the restaurant staff are wondering about what’s taking so long. I don’t think you and I need people talking about us and what we do.”
Yunho laughed and watched as Jaejoong unlocked the door. As soon as it was slightly open, he said, “If any of them ask any questions, I’ll tell them that you attacked me in the bathroom.”
Jaejoong turned around and shoved Yunho, “Idiot.” Before he walked back to their table, fighting back the smile that Yunho’s words had brought to his face.
o-o-o
“Look.” Jaejoong nudged Yunho and faked a glare. “It’s raining now.” He replied, as he pointed at the window.
Yunho glanced out and shrugged, “There’s nothing I can do about that.” He replied casually as he removed bills from his wallet and paid for their meal.
Jaejoong rolled his eyes and took a sip of his coffee, “You do realize that neither of us brought an umbrella, and that your apartment is a rather good distance away? It probably took us at least ten minutes to get here -“
“Then it’ll take us five if we run.” Yunho replied with a laugh as he handed over the payment to the waitress that had been attending to them. He took a sip of his coffee and ignored Jaejoong’s displeased expression, “You don’t mind getting a bit wet, do you?”
Jaejoong glanced back out the window and then returned his gaze back to Yunho, “It’s not drizzling outside Yunho, you do realize that, right?” he asked, pointing at the heavy downpour that was occurring outside. “We’ll get soaked.”
“A little water never hurt anyone.” Yunho replied innocently, “Besides, it’s not like you’re wearing an expensive suit or something you just bought, so there’s nothing for you to get overly worried about.”
“I don’t want to get wet.” Jaejoong whined, “I look nice dry.”
“Who knows, you might look better damp.” Yunho replied with a mischievous smile as he accepted the receipt from the waitress. He stood up and pocked the receipt, “Now come on, let’s go.”
“You’re terrible.”
“Do you want me to buy you an umbrella then?” Yunho asked seriously as they approached the door. He pointed a nearby convenience store, “I’m sure they sell umbrellas over there. Would you be happy if I ran over there and got you one?”
Jaejoong huffed, “No.”
“Well then, what are we going to do?” Yunho asked, “It doesn’t seem like you want to get wet, but then it doesn’t seem like you want me to get wet either. What are we going to do?”
“We’ll run.” Jaejoong mumbled as he elbowed Yunho, “We should’ve driven over here earlier. I told you to bring your car -“
“No you didn’t.” Yunho replied, a twinkle in his eye as he watched Jaejoong, who was pouting. “You’re the one who wanted to walk because you said the weather was nice and you wanted to feel the breeze against your face.”
“I didn’t say that.”
“You said something like it.” Yunho insisted before he pulled Jaejoong by the wrist and led him outside.
The moment they stepped out, they were heavily pelted by the downpour. Yunho glanced back at Jaejoong, and the other man just frowned at him disapprovingly. He laughed, and they both began to run all the way back to Yunho’s apartment.
Jaejoong kept up with Yunho easily, and he ignored all the surprised looks coming back from the other people on the street, as well as the annoyed comments coming from people who they passed by. He ran carelessly, and he didn’t even spare much thought about how those people thought of him - after all, it wasn’t like they’d see him again.
Nor would they recognize the fact that two of the richest men in Korea were running around and getting drenched in the rain.
As soon as they passed the surprised door man of Yunho’s building, Yunho pulled Jaejoong into a secluded area of the corridor and kissed him, knocking the other man against the wall.
Jaejoong complied with Yunho’s demanding kisses, running his hands through the other man’s soaked hair and returned his kisses equal fervor. Yunho laughed and pulled away from Jaejoong, “Let’s go back to my apartment.”
They stood awkwardly in the elevator next to an elderly couple that was trying hard not to look them in the eye. Yunho couldn’t help but chuckle at the awkwardness of the situation, but Jaejoong was less pleased. His face heated up with embarrassment when the woman of the couple glanced at him, and he could only smile apologetically.
“I’m sorry.” He bowed slightly, “We forgot to bring an umbrella when we went out this morning.” He mumbled, but the woman totally breezed past him as she walked out of the elevator.
The man smiled at them, “Be more ready next time.” He said before he followed after his wife.
Yunho laughed and leaned against the elevator wall as the doors slid shut. “You should’ve seen how she was looking at you Jaejoong.” He said lightly, “She probably thinks we’re high.”
“She probably thinks that we’re rich boys that have nothing else to do but spend their money on drugs.” Jaejoong replied with a smile before tugging Yunho by the sleeve as soon as the elevator doors opened.
They reached Yunho’s door, and as soon as they were both inside the apartment, they couldn’t keep their hands off each other. Jaejoong stumbled over the rug and fell down, Yunho following right after him and landing on top of him.
Jaejoong groaned in pain, “That hurt.”
“Do you want me to kiss it better?” Yunho asked with a smile before he placed his lips back over Jaejoong’s and silenced him. He climbed on top of Jaejoong’s smaller figure and kissed him relentlessly, “I want…”
“What?” Jaejoong asked breathlessly as Yunho stood up and held his hand out for the other man to hold.
“…can we go to my bedroom?” Yunho asked as he helped Jaejoong stand. His words were enough for Jaejoong to understand what he wanted, and Jaejoong’s answer was simple.
“Okay.” He murmured before he kissed Yunho on the lips and ran for the bedroom, skidding and slipping all over the floor. Jaejoong could hear Yunho laughing behind him, and it wasn’t long before they were both on the bed.
“We’re getting my bed wet.” Yunho murmured in between kisses. His hands trailed down Jaejoong’s chest, pausing to pinch a nipple before he reached down and took hold of the hem of the other man’s shirt, “Do you mind if I undress you?”
“No, I don’t.” Jaejoong mumbled as he helped Yunho pull the shirt off. He sat up and pulled Yunho’s shirt off as well and tossed it aside carelessly. He admired Yunho’s chest for a second and just as he was about to move his mouth forward, Yunho pushed him back down onto the bed.
“Stop pushing me.” Jaejoong mumbled as Yunho began to work on his belt. He could feel himself hardening under Yunho’s touch, and as Yunho’s hand slipped underneath his boxers, he moaned loudly at the other man’s touch.
Unforunately, Yunho quickly pulled his hand out.
“What are you doing?” Jaejoong whined breathlessly as he bucked forward, hoping for more contact. He reached down to pull his pants off on his own, but Yunho swatted his hands away and chose to do the task himself.
Yunho pulled the rest of his clothes off at an irritatingly slow pace, and Jaejoong could only let out displeased noises as he waited for Yunho to just touch him again. He shivered as the cold air hit his arousal, and he watched Yunho with dark eyes, wondering what the other man would do next.
“You’re so beautiful.” Yunho hissed as he stepped off the bed. He slowly began to unbuckle his own jeans, and Jaejoong could only watch him curiously.
“Yunho?”
Yunho bit his lip and kicked off the rest of his clothes. Jaejoong licked his lips at the sight of Yunho’s hard cock, and he glanced down at his own arousal. He bit his lip and slowly reached down to grip the base of his cock.
“Why are you there?” Jaejoong asked as he began to stroke himself, fighting hard against the urge to keep his eyes shut. He bit his lip and began to stroke faster, “Do you think I want to be doing this by myself?”
Yunho immediately removed his hand and placed his own hand over Jaejoong’s dick, stroking him at a much slower pace. He forced Jaejoong to look at him, “Did you want me to do this for you?” he asked, his voice low and possessive.
Jaejoong bit his lip, trying to be difficult. He looked elsewhere, but he let out a loud moan as soon as he felt Yunho speed up his strokes. His eyes fluttered shut, he was close, so close and -
Yunho stopped.
“Tell me what you want.” Yunho murmured, “Or else I’m going to the bathroom, and then you’ll just have to take care of your own little problem yourself.”
Jaejoong’s eyes snapped open, and he frowned. “You’re…” he let out a breath, “Terrible.”
“I’m only going to get worse if you don’t tell me what you want Jaejoong.” Yunho murmured as he reached upwards and pinched Jaejoong’s nipple, “I’d be fine to just leave you alone here and -“
“Please, make love to me.” Jaejoong muttered, wishing he’d chosen a different set of words. He felt so girly, that maybe Yunho had expected him to say ‘fuck me’ because that seemed too -
“I love you.” Yunho murmured as he kissed Jaejoong’s jawline. “You’re perfect, and wonderful, and I can’t believe you’re mine now.”
As Yunho spoke, Jaejoong reached out and tentatively took hold of Yunho’s dick. Yunho groaned, and he buried his head onto Jaejoong’s shoulder as the other man continued to stroke him slowly.
He moaned and began to buck against Jaejoong’s hand, seeking more friction. Jaejoong moved his hand away, and Yunho began to buck against Jaejoong’s lower body, their skin rubbing against each other in delicious friction.
Jaejoong moved upwards to meet Yunho’s thrusts, and he could feel himself getting closer to coming. He wrapped his arms around Yunho and clutched onto him tightly, his nails digging into Yunho’s tanned back.
“Faster,” he pleaded, “I’m so close -“
It didn’t take much longer, and Jaejoong eventually came. He covered Yunho with his release, and he panted, trying to recover from the high of his orgasm. He felt so good, but he could also feel the heat of his embarrassment on his face.
“I’m sorry.” Jaejoong mumbled, “I came so quickly.” Yunho looked at Jaejoong and chuckled slightly before placing a kiss against the other man’s forehead.
“It’s okay baby.” He replied, “It’s okay.”
Jaejoong felt spineless and weak, he couldn’t bring himself to move, but for Yunho, he began to shift slightly. He glanced at the nightstand, “Do you have lube?” he asked, “Or will I have to…”
Yunho reached out and pulled out some lube from his drawer before shutting it. He noticed Jaejoong’s gaze and kissed the other man, “Don’t worry. There hasn’t been anyone before you in a long time.”
Jaejoong kissed Yunho, “Okay.” He replied before he inched upwards on the bed. He watched carefully as Yunho’s hand trailed downward, and as soon as he felt the tip of Yunho’s finger against his entrance, his eyes fluttered shut.
“I’ll be slow.” Yunho warned as he pressed one finger through. He tried to ignore the sounds coming from Jaejoong’s mouth, which were loud and temping, and began to move further.
Jaejoong was so tight.
“When…when was the last?” He asked, despite the fact he didn’t really want to hear Jaejoong’s answer. He looked up, and the other man’s blush seemed to answer his questions.
“I’ve only tried with women - I’ve never liked a man enough to try...” Jaejoong answered, “So…you’ll be my first.” He moaned as Yunho shoved another finger in without warning, and he clenched the blankets tightly, “Did you have to do that?”
“I’m sorry.” Yunho muttered, “But hearing that has only gotten me more excited.”
Jaejoong rolled his eyes and let out a slow breath as Yunho began to scissor him open. He clenched hard at the bed sheets, and when Yunho pushed in another finger, he tossed his head back and moaned even louder.
“Yunho, I -“
Yunho bit his lip and looked at Jaejoong, the sight of the usually composed and proper man so wanton and lustful making him even more desperate to be inside of him. He pulled his fingers out and immediately began to smother lube all over his arousal.
Jaejoong reached out and began to stroke himself, although he was already hard from Yunho’s actions. “Yunho…” he said quietly, “Please.” He pulled his hand away and sat up, “I want you in me.”
He turned over and positioned himself on his hands and knees, but Yunho immediately pushed Jaejoong back down. “I want you to look at me, since it’s your first time.” He explained as he positioned himself at Jaejoong’s entrance, “I want you to look at me when you come.”
The sight of Jaejoong’s reddened lips and the flush over his cheeks had Yunho even more eager, but he pressed a kiss to Jaejoong’s lips and pressed their foreheads together.
“You’re so beautiful.”
The blush darkened, and Yunho slowly pushed into Jaejoong. His eyes fluttered shut, and Jaejoong let out a pained noise. Yunho gently stroked the other man’s forehead and pressed kisses all over his face.
“Are you okay?” he asked, still not fully inside the other man. “If you want me to pull out, I’ll pull out -“
Jaejoong shook his head, “No, don’t.” he placed his arms around Yunho once more and pulled him close, “Keep going.”
Yunho pushed in, fully sheathing himself inside Jaejoong, and he had to steady himself because Jaejoong was just so tight. He licked his lips and bent down to kiss Jaejoong passionately, his tongue exploring every dip and curve of the other’s mouth.
When he pulled away, Jaejoong looked up at him with such lust darkened eyes that Yunho wish he could keep that look imprinted into his mind forever. He slowly began to pull out before he thrust back in.
Jaejoong moaned and clutched Yunho tighter, his eyes fluttering shut. Yunho was going at an agonizingly slow pace, and as pleasurable as it was, he wanted the other man to go faster.
Jaejoong opened his eyes and looked up at Yunho, “Faster.” He breathed out, desperate for more.
Yunho’s thrusts began to pick up pace, and it wasn’t long before he was slamming hard into the other man. Jaejoong moaned loudly and tried to keep up with Yunho’s thrusts, but the pleasure was swamping his senses, and he could hardly bring himself to keep in time with Yunho.
Words were spilling from Jaejoong’s lips, and Yunho let go of his last ounce of restraint. As much as he’d wanted for Jaejoong’s first time with him to be slow and gentle, he couldn’t allow for that to happen when Jaejoong was just so demanding and irresistible.
He thrust hard and fast, the sound of their skin slapping against each other filling up the room and harmonizing with the sound of their moans. Yunho held onto Jaejoong tightly and he pressed a kiss against Jaejoong’s lips.
“Open your eyes.” He ordered, and the other man complied.
Jaejoong could feel his second orgasm coming, and just as he was about to stroke himself off, Yunho’s hand wrapped around his dick again and began to stroke him. Jaejoong moaned loudly in pleasure, and he dug his nails deeply into Yunho’s back.
The pleasure was too much, and in a few seconds, he was arching back and coming all over his stomach and Yunho’s. He mewled as Yunho continued to push into him, the actions over stimulating him.
He held onto Yunho tightly and whispered into his ear, “I love you so much.” He moaned into Yunho’s ear as the other man thrust in particularly deep, and as Jaejoong continued to moan indistinct words into Yunho’s ear, it wasn’t long before Yunho came hard inside of him.
Their pants filled the quiet of the room, and Jaejoong pressed a kiss against Yunho’s lips.
“I love you.” He repeated before he inched upwards and tugged at Yunho’s earlobe. “I love you so much, and I won’t ever leave.”
Yunho smiled down at him, “I love you too.” He murmured before he pulled himself out of Jaejoong. He pulled Jajeoong close, ignoring the fact they were damp and sticky, and kissed him once more.
Jaejoong chuckled as Yunho nuzzled against him, and he could feel himself drifting off into sleep. Yunho’s embrace was so warm, and the feeling of their bodies against each other was more than just comforting.
“I love this.” Jaejoong said aloud. He turned his head and looked at Yunho, who was staring at him. He pressed a chaste kiss to the other man’s lips, “I love being with you, and…”
Yunho watched him carefully, “And?”
“I think you deserve love.” Jaejoong replied as he shifted over so that he could turn around and look at Yunho properly. His hand moved upwards, and he carded his fingers through Yunho’s damp locks. “You deserve happiness as much as any other person, no matter what you’ve done.”
Yunho buried his face into Jaejoong’s chest, and Jaejoong held him closer. “No one could ever make me feel this way except for you,” Jaejoong continued as he let Yunho seek comfort in his embrace, “Don’t ever think otherwise.”
“Jaejoong…” Yunho’s voice trailed off and he slowly moved away from Jaejoong’s chest so that he could gaze into his eyes. “Thank you.”
Jaejoong smiled softly, “You don’t have to thank me.”
“You’re more than I deserve.”
“Don’t say that.” Jaejoong replied as he pulled Yunho close, “I don’t see why you keep making me repeat myself. You’re deserving of every single good thing that’s happened to you, and every single good thing that will happen to you.”
Yunho was silent, and Jaejoong could only hope that the other man would listen to his words. He had never loved someone in the way he loved Yunho, and despite all the man’s flaws, his sins, his mistakes, he could never love anyone else.
As much as Yunho didn’t feel like he was perfect for him, Jaejoong couldn’t help but think that no one else in the world would complete him as much as Yunho did. There would be no other person who valued or loved him in such a way, and there was no one who would ever fit him as well as Yunho did.
He wasn’t close to being an angel, and he wasn’t anything close to perfect - but Jaejoong knew that he could help Yunho. No matter what happened to them, he wouldn’t ever leave.
He would be there for Yunho until the end.
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Author’s Note: I have an unfortunate case of writer’s block. u___u I’m so behind on everything I want to do, and it’s quite terrible. Anyway, thank you so much guys for your comments, I love them all. I hope you guys like this chapter and how it focuses more on stabilizing Yunho & Jaejoong’s relationship. Next chapter will throw us back into the whole mafia scene and everything concerning that. It’s going to be a pretty intense rush starting from the next chapter until the end. I’ll probably post the next chapter on Monday, and if any of you follow me on twitter, then you know what to expect in the next chapter. XD By that I mean that there’s smut in the next chapter. I hope you guys enjoyed this, and please leave a comment! ♥