Soo....
The memorial for Alan was really nice, it was sad but nice. Thinking about his daughter kills me, both of your parents should not be dead by the time you turn 2. I keep thinking that this is not real and it's a big dream and we're all gonna wake up and everything is going to be ok and he's gonna be here. I guess the reason I'm having such a hard time with this is cause I'm a I have to see it to believe it kind of person. I never got to see his body, it was a closed casket. In fact I was told that the only people who saw his body were the people who found him, they said he looked exactly like himself there were no cuts, srcapes or bruises, he was just really swollen.......I seem to think I'm gonna be ok when I'm keeping myself occupied but I had a hard time at work today because my job consists of me sitting there and it's boring so all I can think about is him.......Dee is still being a bitch, she's hurt my feelings in every way possible and she's lied to me for NO damn reason......I am so done with her, who needs friends like that when you have enemies.