a week with out an update, isn't that a record for me...
So, a lot has happened. For starters I am no longer living with my parents. My step dad and I got into it again and he told me to leave. The argument was over something stupid and it ended with him calling me names, my mom wouldn't defend myself and when I tried to it started a war, so I left. Because of all this, I"m really upset wiht my mother at the moment and it's killin' me. Now I'm living with Dee, the situation isn't the best but I think that it's gonna get a lot better when I start my job on monday (I cant wait!!). Since I'm here during the week by myself, Dee wants me to go over to her mom's house and help out with watching the kids, which actually isn't all that bad, I love kids, but I feel really uncomfortable over there. I sit there the whole time with out saying a word and barely moving, it's pointless for me to be there but they still want me to come over. I've had fun hanging out wiht Dee the last few days, even though there has been a few moments where I just wanna smack her. I think the highlight of the week was getting to see an old friend from like 3 yrs ago. I met him before I moved to Commerce, then Dee met him a few months later. When I moved off to Commerce I lost touch with him and Dee not too long after that and then he moved off but now he's back. When I first met him though (his name is Alan) he kinda "hit" on me, but I wasn't intrested. Later on I asked him about it and he said that it wasn't that he was interested, I was just there and he wanted a gf. I don't know if that was true or not or if it was just a cover up but now, here it is 3 yrs later and I think he is totally HOT. I guess my taste in guys have changed over the years or something. But I seriously doubt I could ever get a chance with him now, but it makes me wonder what would have happened 3 yrs ago (actually it's been longer than that) if I would have showed intrest in him. There's a lot I want to say, I just don't know where to start......hummmmm...Dee works in the apt complex arthur lives in and she said he came in today and put in his 30 day move out notice. He's being deployed, she said that he told them he was coming back but if he's moving out of his apt he obviously won't be back for awhile, I figure he'll be gone for 3 months. My heart sank when she told me that, cause I'm always hopin' that I'll run into him when I go out but now I know I won't, oh well.....Sorry this is all random and doesn't really make sense but....I wish Dee didn't have Joie, I wish we could have done this roomate thing along time ago when she didn't have a baby. Joie is the greatest thing ever but I wish we could just jump and go like we used to do. This is another random thing but Dee slept with 2 guys right around the same time she got pregnant. Well when she first told me that she was pregnant she told me the fathers name was Jeremy, after she had the baby she told me that the fathers name was Ben. Then she tells me that she knew it was Ben all along but that Ben was a one night stand thing and she didn't know how to tell her parents about it. So she tells ben about the baby and he's been paying child support on his own with out the attorny general. Ben lives in Michigan and since he lives so far away Dee decides she's gonna make it official just in case he wants to bail. She goes to court to make it official and finds out that someone is requesting a DNA test. Ben tells Dee that it's the state but I think it was Ben, I don't see the state requesting such an expensive test if the father agree's that the kid is his. Dee got the results back today, we were at her parents house when she opened the envelope. I knew what it was when I saw the letter, so I'm looking at her while she's reading the letter and she just starts laughing, then she looks at me and she's like "ben's not joie's dad" and I was like he's not and she was like "no", well right at the time I said that her mom walks into the room and she's like "he's not, you're joking" and Dee was like "of course I'm joking". Well when we get back home I chose not to say anything else about it but curiosity is really getting to me now. The letter is sitting right next to me and I'm soo tempted to open it. I seriously wouldn't be surprised if Ben wasn't the father. I think she was blaming it on the guy that cared. Jeremy didn't want a baby at all and he didn't care at all but Ben offered to send money so she wanted to put the blame on him. It's a really confusing situation, but I'm cold so I'm going now....bye