16/30
40 Gay Letters
(after Jea)
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you
Dear Laura
the first time you kissed me
I knew
Dear Jennifer
it was third grade
and you couldn’t stop watching me
I couldn’t stop watching Grease
and didn’t understand your staring
Dear Cammie
you never really knew it
but those hoop earrings you wore
made me have to cross my legs
Dear Amy
I’d have fucked you
I’d have fucked you AND your husband
if it weren’t for the pedestals I hold you both on
Dear Elliott
it’s entirely possible
that you will be the last man I’ll ever sleep with
regardless of what gender you were born
Dear Stephanie
I was still in middle school
you were a friend of my aunt
regardless of age, I still ogled you
I’m not sorry
Dear Rachel
you were my first
and I treated you like a prostitute
I’m sorry, I was new.
call me
Dear Naina
I hope you learn who you truly are
before you make the mistakes I did
Dear Dillon
you came out to me in 8th grade
after my birthday dance made you realize
you liked men. Even then, you knew about me.
Wish I would have believed you.
Dear Sue,
Did you know?
Dear Dana
You were exactly what I needed, then.
Sometimes I wish it had lasted longer
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you
Dear Gretchen
You broke my heart after two weeks
you weren’t the best kisser
but there was something in your spark
I miss you still, sometimes
Dear Chelsea
I’m glad you want me when you’re drunk
it’d be nice if you wanted me sober
because you’re hot as fuck
Dear Jea
I know you’re straight
but you’re my favorite person
to admire sexy women with
Dear Joan
I’m glad you felt comfortable enough
to tell me you had once loved a woman, too
I am blessed to have your support
Dear Cat
you were my student.
that’s why.
Dear Zoe
no.
Dear Brick
it’s not you I hate
it’s what you represent
it’s what I can never be
and who you stole without realizing
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you
Dear Cookie
than you for my coming out belt
for your brutal honesty
for your never ending heart
Dear D
you smell like a rotten cunt
I will always find you pathetic
she’s single now. still doesn’t want you.
Dear Melanie
you were there through all of the phases
even when you didn’t realize you were
the day you said “this is the Christine I know and love”
I believed everything was going to be okay
Dear Jordan
you’re fucking sexy.
I admire your brain
I’m genuinely glad we’re friends
Dear Lucy
you’re stunning
don’t regret hitting on me
next time.
Dear Ally
those glasses really did it for me
I wish we had made out.
next time?
Dear Ann
I’m sorry for the obsessive texts
I don’t have many gay friends I truly connect with
tell your girlfriend it was never your vagina I was after
just your shoulder. and maybe your sympathetic ear.
Dear Kate
I know you’re famous
I know you’re not out, but let’s be honest
you don’t get much gayer
and I want to be on you.
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you.
Dear Jes
I’m glad you’re in love
I’m angry that you were right about mine
I’ll always want it to not be so weird between us
Dear Sydney
You’ll always know her better,
there will be a bond there that I will never be able to touch
I do not resent this.
Dear T.J.
I was the first person from high school
you told about being gay
4 years later, we still feel like we belong
to a cooler club than anyone else
Dear Maggie
I know you’re my teacher,
but it’s grad school!
doesn’t that make it different?
Dear Michelle
It’s not sexual between us
but there is a chemistry unlike any lover
I’ve ever had. It’d be awesome if you
lived closer.
Dear Nadia
This sexual tension even exists
across a continent.
let’s think of something to remedy this.
Dear OkCupid dates
y’all were crazy
step away from the laptop
get a little real world experience for a while
Dear Lauren
I’m excited that we’re friends
I’m excited that we’ll never have sex
“friends” and “foreplay” should not be interchangeable
and it’s nice to find someone who agrees
Dear Eric
I never want your p in my v
but I could still kiss you for days
and years from now
I will probably ask you for your sperm
Dear Anna
you got mad when I kissed you
and then kissed someone else
if I had known then what I know now
our mouths that night would have been raw
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you
or rather
I wish you weren’t done loving me.
There is so much you didn’t give a chance
there are parts left unexplored
I resent you for this
hate you for the empty
and will miss you for all of it.
(after Jea)
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you
Dear Laura
the first time you kissed me
I knew
Dear Jennifer
it was third grade
and you couldn’t stop watching me
I couldn’t stop watching Grease
and didn’t understand your staring
Dear Cammie
you never really knew it
but those hoop earrings you wore
made me have to cross my legs
Dear Amy
I’d have fucked you
I’d have fucked you AND your husband
if it weren’t for the pedestals I hold you both on
Dear Elliott
it’s entirely possible
that you will be the last man I’ll ever sleep with
regardless of what gender you were born
Dear Stephanie
I was still in middle school
you were a friend of my aunt
regardless of age, I still ogled you
I’m not sorry
Dear Rachel
you were my first
and I treated you like a prostitute
I’m sorry, I was new.
call me
Dear Naina
I hope you learn who you truly are
before you make the mistakes I did
Dear Dillon
you came out to me in 8th grade
after my birthday dance made you realize
you liked men. Even then, you knew about me.
Wish I would have believed you.
Dear Sue,
Did you know?
Dear Dana
You were exactly what I needed, then.
Sometimes I wish it had lasted longer
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you
Dear Gretchen
You broke my heart after two weeks
you weren’t the best kisser
but there was something in your spark
I miss you still, sometimes
Dear Chelsea
I’m glad you want me when you’re drunk
it’d be nice if you wanted me sober
because you’re hot as fuck
Dear Jea
I know you’re straight
but you’re my favorite person
to admire sexy women with
Dear Joan
I’m glad you felt comfortable enough
to tell me you had once loved a woman, too
I am blessed to have your support
Dear Cat
you were my student.
that’s why.
Dear Zoe
no.
Dear Brick
it’s not you I hate
it’s what you represent
it’s what I can never be
and who you stole without realizing
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you
Dear Cookie
than you for my coming out belt
for your brutal honesty
for your never ending heart
Dear D
you smell like a rotten cunt
I will always find you pathetic
she’s single now. still doesn’t want you.
Dear Melanie
you were there through all of the phases
even when you didn’t realize you were
the day you said “this is the Christine I know and love”
I believed everything was going to be okay
Dear Jordan
you’re fucking sexy.
I admire your brain
I’m genuinely glad we’re friends
Dear Lucy
you’re stunning
don’t regret hitting on me
next time.
Dear Ally
those glasses really did it for me
I wish we had made out.
next time?
Dear Ann
I’m sorry for the obsessive texts
I don’t have many gay friends I truly connect with
tell your girlfriend it was never your vagina I was after
just your shoulder. and maybe your sympathetic ear.
Dear Kate
I know you’re famous
I know you’re not out, but let’s be honest
you don’t get much gayer
and I want to be on you.
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you.
Dear Jes
I’m glad you’re in love
I’m angry that you were right about mine
I’ll always want it to not be so weird between us
Dear Sydney
You’ll always know her better,
there will be a bond there that I will never be able to touch
I do not resent this.
Dear T.J.
I was the first person from high school
you told about being gay
4 years later, we still feel like we belong
to a cooler club than anyone else
Dear Maggie
I know you’re my teacher,
but it’s grad school!
doesn’t that make it different?
Dear Michelle
It’s not sexual between us
but there is a chemistry unlike any lover
I’ve ever had. It’d be awesome if you
lived closer.
Dear Nadia
This sexual tension even exists
across a continent.
let’s think of something to remedy this.
Dear OkCupid dates
y’all were crazy
step away from the laptop
get a little real world experience for a while
Dear Lauren
I’m excited that we’re friends
I’m excited that we’ll never have sex
“friends” and “foreplay” should not be interchangeable
and it’s nice to find someone who agrees
Dear Eric
I never want your p in my v
but I could still kiss you for days
and years from now
I will probably ask you for your sperm
Dear Anna
you got mad when I kissed you
and then kissed someone else
if I had known then what I know now
our mouths that night would have been raw
Dear Lisah
I wish I was done loving you
or rather
I wish you weren’t done loving me.
There is so much you didn’t give a chance
there are parts left unexplored
I resent you for this
hate you for the empty
and will miss you for all of it.