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Hey everybody! I hope all is well with everyone.
For the first time in months I've had a break from work, but it unfortunatley involves a leg injury, leg immobilizer, crutches and an appointment for a specialist on Dec. 9th. AND WORKERS COMP! I've finally had time to clean my room and throw out a whole bunch of crap. I found a bunch of stuff that I want to run over to beacon's closet in exchange for mula. I finally feel like I can breathe. You know? If I just stay on top of things everything will be okay.
My knee was so swollen, and filled with fluid. Me and Chris sat in the emergency room last Friday for like 4 hours!
I'm a gimp! I feel terrible not being able to move around like normal. Fuck those construction workers at my job that dont know how to be efficient! I should sue. I probably have a case...but it's too long and expensive of a process and although the money would make my future plans easier I might have to pass.
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On another note. I think I'm moving to Oregon. It sounds like I'm a little unsure about this move but that's because I've been seeing an amazing guy and i don't want to leave him. It's been about 5 months. And amazing!!! I heart him and wish I could take him with me but that seems selfish and he doesn't have the money to go with me.
I miss my bicyle =(. Not like I can ride one >=( hahaha. GIMPYYYYY.
I'll probably take a train to Chicago then another to Seattle and have Jess and Dave pick me up at the airport. Jess is doing good with her clothing business and wants me to be her partner! I'm super excited and scared, and excited and nervous. I don't want to leave NYC and Chris, and Tabitha behind...I love all three! But I don't like my job or any of the jobs I've had here except maybe ezpass because it paid good and it was a piece of cake and i got out at 2:45pm! and Pearl Paint because I was always in the city, it was very inspiring, I made enough to split an apartment with 3 people, and the people I met working there were amazing! I learned so much from everyone! Employees and customers! I miss it there =(. But I dont miss taking special orders >=( for customer framing. What a pain in the dick!
Atleast there I'll be doing what I love, making my own hours and then I can maybe go back to school and still be able to pay for an apartment!
I'm kinda gonna have to being as though my parents are getting divorced and my moms moving to florida and my dad is making the basement an apartment so he can rent out the top floor and stay downstairs. I wouldnt be surprised if he moved his mom in. haha. I moved back in to move back out within a few months...see I thought maybe I'd live here for a few years and go back to school...but I can't. I just realized lately I'm tired of working hard at these nowhere jobs just to live. I WANNA DO SOMETHING I LOVE. And EVERYONE says, EVERYONE, That i'm being unrealistic. Fuck them. And maybe I am stubborn. But let them keep complaining about how much their lives suck, and bills suck, or everywhere else but S.I. sucks, or how much they love to party and they love their friends who also don't do anything else but talk shit and party, or husbands or boyfriends or babies suck, their parents suck. I'm not letting myself go, or get distracted or lose myself or my interests or allow myself to be consumed by anything that could get in the way of my goals and dreams and then become bitter and then put everyone else down because I'm a miserable fuck. FUCK THEM!
I do really really really like Chris and wish he was mentally on the same level as me so he can come with me...I kind of can't imagine my life without him at this moment. He's my best friend, and best lover, and just the best.
For the first time in months I've had a break from work, but it unfortunatley involves a leg injury, leg immobilizer, crutches and an appointment for a specialist on Dec. 9th. AND WORKERS COMP! I've finally had time to clean my room and throw out a whole bunch of crap. I found a bunch of stuff that I want to run over to beacon's closet in exchange for mula. I finally feel like I can breathe. You know? If I just stay on top of things everything will be okay.
My knee was so swollen, and filled with fluid. Me and Chris sat in the emergency room last Friday for like 4 hours!
I'm a gimp! I feel terrible not being able to move around like normal. Fuck those construction workers at my job that dont know how to be efficient! I should sue. I probably have a case...but it's too long and expensive of a process and although the money would make my future plans easier I might have to pass.
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On another note. I think I'm moving to Oregon. It sounds like I'm a little unsure about this move but that's because I've been seeing an amazing guy and i don't want to leave him. It's been about 5 months. And amazing!!! I heart him and wish I could take him with me but that seems selfish and he doesn't have the money to go with me.
I miss my bicyle =(. Not like I can ride one >=( hahaha. GIMPYYYYY.
I'll probably take a train to Chicago then another to Seattle and have Jess and Dave pick me up at the airport. Jess is doing good with her clothing business and wants me to be her partner! I'm super excited and scared, and excited and nervous. I don't want to leave NYC and Chris, and Tabitha behind...I love all three! But I don't like my job or any of the jobs I've had here except maybe ezpass because it paid good and it was a piece of cake and i got out at 2:45pm! and Pearl Paint because I was always in the city, it was very inspiring, I made enough to split an apartment with 3 people, and the people I met working there were amazing! I learned so much from everyone! Employees and customers! I miss it there =(. But I dont miss taking special orders >=( for customer framing. What a pain in the dick!
Atleast there I'll be doing what I love, making my own hours and then I can maybe go back to school and still be able to pay for an apartment!
I'm kinda gonna have to being as though my parents are getting divorced and my moms moving to florida and my dad is making the basement an apartment so he can rent out the top floor and stay downstairs. I wouldnt be surprised if he moved his mom in. haha. I moved back in to move back out within a few months...see I thought maybe I'd live here for a few years and go back to school...but I can't. I just realized lately I'm tired of working hard at these nowhere jobs just to live. I WANNA DO SOMETHING I LOVE. And EVERYONE says, EVERYONE, That i'm being unrealistic. Fuck them. And maybe I am stubborn. But let them keep complaining about how much their lives suck, and bills suck, or everywhere else but S.I. sucks, or how much they love to party and they love their friends who also don't do anything else but talk shit and party, or husbands or boyfriends or babies suck, their parents suck. I'm not letting myself go, or get distracted or lose myself or my interests or allow myself to be consumed by anything that could get in the way of my goals and dreams and then become bitter and then put everyone else down because I'm a miserable fuck. FUCK THEM!
I do really really really like Chris and wish he was mentally on the same level as me so he can come with me...I kind of can't imagine my life without him at this moment. He's my best friend, and best lover, and just the best.