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i just finished watching garden state for the umpteenth time. that movie always seems to put me in some sort of strange mood. oh zach braff, your first attempt at writing/direction always makes me ponder life. i like this movie, despite the over abundance of kids who love to hate it. last time i watched it, i cried for atleast an hour b/c it made me feel so alone. but now i watch it, and it kinda just makes me happy that i have someone to hang with and someone that makes me laugh, so yeah thats cool.
so its christmas time again, eh? for the first time ever in my life, I have a christmas tree. a little jew girl w/ her own tree and stocking, its like a dream. a really sad, non-religious dream. I wish there were gifts under the tree, but my roomates and I are all broke. Speaking of gifts, I went shopping today for some. I got my sister this nice outfit... cost me $65, but i really think she'll like it. she's definately one of those people that i don't mind spending money on. she would do pretty much anything for me, and for that i owe her. I'm in the process of making a gift for ryan. Considering he reads this (feel bad right now ryan, haha).. i will not say what it is. BUT... he will like it, and he will laugh, and that is important.
I'm now regretting telling my manager that i would work full time during break. yes, the money will be nice.. but im missing out on hanging out w/ friends and family. This break is actually just getting me depressed. Some weird things have happened in the past few days.
My grandmother is in the hospital again. She's not doing well. I'm currently only able to listen to happy, up-beat music, for sad and depressing music makes me, well... sad and depressed. My grandmother lives in my parents house, she has since i was born. When she passes, going home is gona be exremeley hard. Having to look into her part of the house is going to be heartbreaking. She was like my second mom, so I dont know how i'm going to handle this. I've yet to expereience a loved ones death. aw man.
wow, i just caught a glimpse of my livejournal user pic. me from freshman year. its pretty hilarious. if only livejounal didn't require pictures the size of my pinky nail, i'd be in business. fuck re-sizing picutres, i dont know how to do that shit. I guess you will all have to deal with my 3 year old picture, like you care anyway. like anyone reads this shit other then me and probably ryan.
thats all.
so its christmas time again, eh? for the first time ever in my life, I have a christmas tree. a little jew girl w/ her own tree and stocking, its like a dream. a really sad, non-religious dream. I wish there were gifts under the tree, but my roomates and I are all broke. Speaking of gifts, I went shopping today for some. I got my sister this nice outfit... cost me $65, but i really think she'll like it. she's definately one of those people that i don't mind spending money on. she would do pretty much anything for me, and for that i owe her. I'm in the process of making a gift for ryan. Considering he reads this (feel bad right now ryan, haha).. i will not say what it is. BUT... he will like it, and he will laugh, and that is important.
I'm now regretting telling my manager that i would work full time during break. yes, the money will be nice.. but im missing out on hanging out w/ friends and family. This break is actually just getting me depressed. Some weird things have happened in the past few days.
My grandmother is in the hospital again. She's not doing well. I'm currently only able to listen to happy, up-beat music, for sad and depressing music makes me, well... sad and depressed. My grandmother lives in my parents house, she has since i was born. When she passes, going home is gona be exremeley hard. Having to look into her part of the house is going to be heartbreaking. She was like my second mom, so I dont know how i'm going to handle this. I've yet to expereience a loved ones death. aw man.
wow, i just caught a glimpse of my livejournal user pic. me from freshman year. its pretty hilarious. if only livejounal didn't require pictures the size of my pinky nail, i'd be in business. fuck re-sizing picutres, i dont know how to do that shit. I guess you will all have to deal with my 3 year old picture, like you care anyway. like anyone reads this shit other then me and probably ryan.
thats all.