Broken
Tetsumiro was abducted by aliens
The aliens were attracted by the hypnotic nostrils of Tetsumiro
'What will your Headline be?' at QuizGalaxy.com
Again, stolen from Charha >.> Had to post this before I go on and on about my broken little depressed mind.
NOW FOR THE REAL STUFF. DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MY LIFE. I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK I'M EMO. SO WHAT? I'M JUST HAVING ISSUES. FUCK OFF.
*breathes* Okay. I'm not usually depressed now days. I'm actually usually pretty happy and hyper. You see, I was with this girl, and I loved her a lot. Like, life partner love. Then for some reason, it died between us and we broke up. Now, I found a new love and he was the most perfect lover ever. I didn't worry about him being depressed as he seemed pretty happy-go-lukcy, and I had a shoulder to lean on if I needed. Almost any time I needed at that. Well, eventually, I found that I still did love the girl,and after a while of talking with her, I wound up with her. Again. I'm still with her, but now.. the drama is back. I'm trying to be there for her, but I'm finding myself turning cold on it again. I just can't take so much drama from everyone. It's sad right? Especially when you're at the point of feeling OBLIGATED TO LOVE THEM. I feel so horrible, but even though I know I do really love her, it's too hard. I'm ill from stress and worry. Her family is being a bit of an ass about things and even though we promised we wouldn't let things get this bad again, it happened. It's like... it's fate or something for us to drive eachother insane. Her myspace says she's looking for someone who will let her be her, and I just can't do that. She's practically boarderline anorexic sometimes, she's depressed and I worry constantly that I'll permenantly lose her. I want to just break down and cry over it all, but I have no where to do so. Not even in my own room, or my mother might start asking questions. I know that some of my reasons for wanting out of it all are selfish, but it's not a healthy relationship again... I think lust is starting to drive me more than anything, and I'm disgusted with myself. I just don't know what to do now.. *sigh*
Anyway, Night. I might add more one of these upcoming days. Who knows how things will work out.
Mika~