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Well im gladtoday is over, jem has had his opp and everything went well and he mightbe able to go home tommorow, which is really great in comparision to the three day stay that they were promising last week.
we are full steam aheadwithfame tomorrow, the set started going upweeks ago but we still need to build the second level and make it pretty :).
squbz ~ im sorry i attacked you, like i said things have been pretty rough latley and you were just there and copped it all. i fell like i havent been there and i hate that but its the way things have been, but you havent been doing your best to be there for me.
Brad ~ im sorry that he dosnt want to be your friend but thats notmy fault and dont you dare say that im not allowing him to speek to you or ever even imply that i control him, because if you think that then you are very mistaken
im really sick of my family right now harely is a little shitandmakes me want to knife him ( again ) dad is a fuck who needs to realise he isnt a good parent and should stop using his illness as an excuse and my mum needs to cut her apron strings and stop trying to make it all better when its as goodas it gets. mind you they do come in handy when i need something, harely is a bogan and im on pretty good termswithmost ofhis bogan mates, dad is a biker and the people he is frinds with think of melike a daughter and i hate to think of what would happen to the person who crosses my mum...
we had a phone call from an aunt ofmine that i havent herd from in about three years tonight and i think i might go stay with them for a while over xmas and catch up and stuff. talking to her tonightmademerealise that maybe the rest of the family arent as bad as i first thought that they were and that they are struggling with the same genetic defects that the rest of us are...
i wrote an email tonight to a friend andi sorta didcussed to possibilityof going back to the way things used to be, but i realised that if i did then i wouldnt be the person i am now.. the person i was then was allot quieter, and didnt standup for that she belived in, and no matter what i will always bethatperson, but at least i can try to bedifferent, if i think that it makes mea better person.
i dont want friends who i cant trust, who go back to the person they want to/are shagging and telling them every little detail of my life.i dont want friends who are sugary sweet to my face and then encourage bitchingbehind my back. i dont want freinds who use what i tell them in confidence against me, who say everything on the list of things that you shouldnt say and then use being drunk as an excuse, in my opinion, if you say it when your drunk then your thinking it when you are sober. and i really dont want friends who think that try to control jem, he is, as he always has been, his own person, he maytake what i say andmy opinions a little more seriously than everyone elses but if anybody ever acusses me of anything like that, well lets just say anything and i am innocent then it will have very serious rammifictions, and i say that in the most carring way...
so goodnight to my baby,i hope you sleep well and are not in too much pain iwill see you tomorow kisses
to everyone else well im not in the best of moods so have a day
haley
we are full steam aheadwithfame tomorrow, the set started going upweeks ago but we still need to build the second level and make it pretty :).
squbz ~ im sorry i attacked you, like i said things have been pretty rough latley and you were just there and copped it all. i fell like i havent been there and i hate that but its the way things have been, but you havent been doing your best to be there for me.
Brad ~ im sorry that he dosnt want to be your friend but thats notmy fault and dont you dare say that im not allowing him to speek to you or ever even imply that i control him, because if you think that then you are very mistaken
im really sick of my family right now harely is a little shitandmakes me want to knife him ( again ) dad is a fuck who needs to realise he isnt a good parent and should stop using his illness as an excuse and my mum needs to cut her apron strings and stop trying to make it all better when its as goodas it gets. mind you they do come in handy when i need something, harely is a bogan and im on pretty good termswithmost ofhis bogan mates, dad is a biker and the people he is frinds with think of melike a daughter and i hate to think of what would happen to the person who crosses my mum...
we had a phone call from an aunt ofmine that i havent herd from in about three years tonight and i think i might go stay with them for a while over xmas and catch up and stuff. talking to her tonightmademerealise that maybe the rest of the family arent as bad as i first thought that they were and that they are struggling with the same genetic defects that the rest of us are...
i wrote an email tonight to a friend andi sorta didcussed to possibilityof going back to the way things used to be, but i realised that if i did then i wouldnt be the person i am now.. the person i was then was allot quieter, and didnt standup for that she belived in, and no matter what i will always bethatperson, but at least i can try to bedifferent, if i think that it makes mea better person.
i dont want friends who i cant trust, who go back to the person they want to/are shagging and telling them every little detail of my life.i dont want friends who are sugary sweet to my face and then encourage bitchingbehind my back. i dont want freinds who use what i tell them in confidence against me, who say everything on the list of things that you shouldnt say and then use being drunk as an excuse, in my opinion, if you say it when your drunk then your thinking it when you are sober. and i really dont want friends who think that try to control jem, he is, as he always has been, his own person, he maytake what i say andmy opinions a little more seriously than everyone elses but if anybody ever acusses me of anything like that, well lets just say anything and i am innocent then it will have very serious rammifictions, and i say that in the most carring way...
so goodnight to my baby,i hope you sleep well and are not in too much pain iwill see you tomorow kisses
to everyone else well im not in the best of moods so have a day
haley