I am in trouble
How do you tell someone that you enjoy being cynical and cold hearted? How do you tell someone that they are just there to entertain you? And that they are no one important? You dont. That is easy. But how do you tell someone everytime a person like that comes around and that its not them your stomach turns inside out? If its not them touching or holding you that you cant stand being in the room with anyone else!? I am being ridiculous and I need to come home to clear my head. I have decided that it's this town that is getting me in trouble. But its hard when you feel you have come so close to perfection with this person. Someone who matches you in ways that only my dearest friends have come close to. Someone who can make you smile for a week with one word. FUCK! This is why I dont open myself up to many people, this is why I only put myself in situations I can walk away from in a hot second. Help ME please. Buy me drugs, get me drunk, take me shopping! Do something so I can get past this person. I will be home in a week or so! xo