viva la vida loca
I feel like the romance between Jim and I has lessened. This doesn't mean that the love between us has gone or fizzled away, but the hot passion we once felt for one another is slowly fading. I know it's because it's been a year and a half and we've reached a point in our relationship where we are completely comfortable with each other. Don't get me wrong, that has its perks, but I feel like he doesn't even try to be classy and modest around me at all anymore. I realize I'm the best friend -- The Girlfriend -- but I'm not yet The Wife so treat me like you could still lose me, yeah?
Thing is, I've tried to tell him. I've been subtle like suggesting that the flowers should come a little more often than just when I leave the country or birthdays. I've even thrown little fits when he doesn't announce on Facebook how much he loves me like he used to-- hell, I thrown little fits when my interweb "I love you"s are ignored. (I know, it's just Facebook BUT COME ON, the Internet is like a stage and putting on your status how much you love someone is like yelling it out on Times Square). Maybe I'm an attention whore, but hey, girlfriends have rights to lots of attention ;P
I remember him telling strangers how beautiful he thought I was. COMPLETE STRANGERS. Now he doesn't even tell me that often anymore when we're alone. He spoiled me in the beginning and now I'm feeling bummed that all that attention he showered me with the first six months of our dating is a light trickle here and there nowadays. Even sex has become somewhat of a bore... Yes, we're still trying to do the purity thing but when we do slip and have sex, well, it's like: "That was it? What happened to foreplay? No snuggling afterward? You're really done?"
:/
I feel like if I told him he'd laugh it off and say that everything is okay and this is normal. Well, I don't care if this is normal or not ... I want my passion back!
Thing is, I've tried to tell him. I've been subtle like suggesting that the flowers should come a little more often than just when I leave the country or birthdays. I've even thrown little fits when he doesn't announce on Facebook how much he loves me like he used to-- hell, I thrown little fits when my interweb "I love you"s are ignored. (I know, it's just Facebook BUT COME ON, the Internet is like a stage and putting on your status how much you love someone is like yelling it out on Times Square). Maybe I'm an attention whore, but hey, girlfriends have rights to lots of attention ;P
I remember him telling strangers how beautiful he thought I was. COMPLETE STRANGERS. Now he doesn't even tell me that often anymore when we're alone. He spoiled me in the beginning and now I'm feeling bummed that all that attention he showered me with the first six months of our dating is a light trickle here and there nowadays. Even sex has become somewhat of a bore... Yes, we're still trying to do the purity thing but when we do slip and have sex, well, it's like: "That was it? What happened to foreplay? No snuggling afterward? You're really done?"
:/
I feel like if I told him he'd laugh it off and say that everything is okay and this is normal. Well, I don't care if this is normal or not ... I want my passion back!