A thank you every now and then would be a good start...
I'm not asking a lot, really (and, if you are following this and you are tired of my attitude and my tendency of crying over me, please, close this page for your own good, because I really need to write this down...), but, well, I'm getting a little mad (and I think this could be the euphemism of the century here) becaus... it's not like that I'm not appreciated, but, what can I say, every now and then I'd like to hear people actyally saying "thank you" or "I appreciate whaat you do" instead of talking with me only when they think I'm not bhaving as I should or doing enough. because, frankly? I don't think I deserve that attitude, not a bit.
The money is thight, and what do I do? sacrifices, renounces. no more clothes, shoes, bags, make-up, dvds, cds, pay-tv, less magazines, no more things I used to collect, movies. less fun, no vancacy, no swimmingpool, no beautician, a new hairstilist, who works not as well as my old one but costs less; I work on the job, looking after the buroctatic aspcts of the societ as well, and I work at home, helping with the housekeepings and following the medical needs of my grandparents, who live with us (and can't stand me. what tehy told me sunday afternoon? not nice, not at all). my mum's almost blind, so I drive her around, goes with her to her medical appointments, DRIVE her parents arounds doctors, taking care of taking appointments, re-sheduling them etc etc. I even look after the dogs, both so utterly sick they are almost every day by the vet; I asked, an dnot to a stranger, but to my father, half a day off tomorrow because I need to goes to the hospital to take my grandfather home, and the anseer, from my own father? No. I have to stay at the shop, because he isn't supposed to learn at over 50 how to look after it, and for some unknown reasons he doesn't think it should be right asking my borther to- so, tomorro, I'll have to spend the day driivng around, essencially, (Last time I had half a day off was last october, when I took my driver license)
Now, really, I would have appreciated a "yes" , or at least a polite no, but how he told me that? Sorry, man, not in the mood, becaue I don't deserve it. My mother and me are the one making renouces, he isn't. he didn't stopped the lotto or the pay-tv where he looks at soccer games, last year he wnet to a dinner and he spent amost 1000 euros between clothes and shoes, but he is allowed because he no longer had anyhting fitting for the occasion (yes, becauese my wardarobe is fuilled with cocktail drsses, right?), I'0m making renounces, doing soemthimg I no longer love for the balance of the family 8nad because, apparently, I0m not allowed to give up) also becasue, while they say to follow the dream, dreams don't fill the stomach and I shouldn't be that naive because it's stupid.... they say to enojoy life, the have fun, but I shouldn't even buy books any longer for tehm because I have too much of them already, I shouldn't spent time reading, writing, watching movies, listeniong to "stuoid music", looking at "idiotic tv shows" or painting spendoing money for colors and canvas... so, tell me, your higness, what should I do? tell me, how I could do soemthing that fits you and doesn't imply spending too much money. I'm trying here, really, but I'm sicj and tired of people ordring me around, expecting me to do as they say and then having others lecturing me because can't stay in two places at once! well, guess what? I don't have that power yet!
The money is thight, and what do I do? sacrifices, renounces. no more clothes, shoes, bags, make-up, dvds, cds, pay-tv, less magazines, no more things I used to collect, movies. less fun, no vancacy, no swimmingpool, no beautician, a new hairstilist, who works not as well as my old one but costs less; I work on the job, looking after the buroctatic aspcts of the societ as well, and I work at home, helping with the housekeepings and following the medical needs of my grandparents, who live with us (and can't stand me. what tehy told me sunday afternoon? not nice, not at all). my mum's almost blind, so I drive her around, goes with her to her medical appointments, DRIVE her parents arounds doctors, taking care of taking appointments, re-sheduling them etc etc. I even look after the dogs, both so utterly sick they are almost every day by the vet; I asked, an dnot to a stranger, but to my father, half a day off tomorrow because I need to goes to the hospital to take my grandfather home, and the anseer, from my own father? No. I have to stay at the shop, because he isn't supposed to learn at over 50 how to look after it, and for some unknown reasons he doesn't think it should be right asking my borther to- so, tomorro, I'll have to spend the day driivng around, essencially, (Last time I had half a day off was last october, when I took my driver license)
Now, really, I would have appreciated a "yes" , or at least a polite no, but how he told me that? Sorry, man, not in the mood, becaue I don't deserve it. My mother and me are the one making renouces, he isn't. he didn't stopped the lotto or the pay-tv where he looks at soccer games, last year he wnet to a dinner and he spent amost 1000 euros between clothes and shoes, but he is allowed because he no longer had anyhting fitting for the occasion (yes, becauese my wardarobe is fuilled with cocktail drsses, right?), I'0m making renounces, doing soemthimg I no longer love for the balance of the family 8nad because, apparently, I0m not allowed to give up) also becasue, while they say to follow the dream, dreams don't fill the stomach and I shouldn't be that naive because it's stupid.... they say to enojoy life, the have fun, but I shouldn't even buy books any longer for tehm because I have too much of them already, I shouldn't spent time reading, writing, watching movies, listeniong to "stuoid music", looking at "idiotic tv shows" or painting spendoing money for colors and canvas... so, tell me, your higness, what should I do? tell me, how I could do soemthing that fits you and doesn't imply spending too much money. I'm trying here, really, but I'm sicj and tired of people ordring me around, expecting me to do as they say and then having others lecturing me because can't stay in two places at once! well, guess what? I don't have that power yet!