Indigo
It's weird.
Recently I've noticed that there are a few people who are close to me that still associate Kevin M. Arnold now with Kevin Arnold in highschool.
In highschool I was a jerk, that is to say I'm still kind of a jerk, but I was a jerk who hated himself when I was in highschool.
When I think back on things I said and did, on ways I acted, I get pissed off.
But lately certain people have asked me questions or said things that sound like they're catering to that old jerk version of me.
Things that I havn't even CARED about in years that used to matter the world to me.
I'm almost tempted to put a list of things that have changed about me here on LJ, but why should I have to do that?
I mean Jesus Christ! I've changed so much in the last ONE YEAR it's unbelievable.
It's been 5 years, you'd think at some point people'd assume I've changed at least SOMEWHAT.
The part that bothers me the most is that some of these people are some of my CLOSEST friends.
I'm not saying I'm perfect now, I do have a lot of faults, everybody has faults, but at least give me the benifit of the doubt.
I'm not a little turd anymore.
To those of you who have taken the time to grow WITH me, I thank you.
Just give me some credit people.
Recently I've noticed that there are a few people who are close to me that still associate Kevin M. Arnold now with Kevin Arnold in highschool.
In highschool I was a jerk, that is to say I'm still kind of a jerk, but I was a jerk who hated himself when I was in highschool.
When I think back on things I said and did, on ways I acted, I get pissed off.
But lately certain people have asked me questions or said things that sound like they're catering to that old jerk version of me.
Things that I havn't even CARED about in years that used to matter the world to me.
I'm almost tempted to put a list of things that have changed about me here on LJ, but why should I have to do that?
I mean Jesus Christ! I've changed so much in the last ONE YEAR it's unbelievable.
It's been 5 years, you'd think at some point people'd assume I've changed at least SOMEWHAT.
The part that bothers me the most is that some of these people are some of my CLOSEST friends.
I'm not saying I'm perfect now, I do have a lot of faults, everybody has faults, but at least give me the benifit of the doubt.
I'm not a little turd anymore.
To those of you who have taken the time to grow WITH me, I thank you.
Just give me some credit people.