So much for daily updates!
I blame college.
In fact, that's not even me being silly, the workload is killing me - slowly! On...Tuesday night (i think) I had a bit of a mental breakdown due to being overworked, with too many deadlines, very early mornings and surviving on a maximum of 5 hrs sleep a night O.o Roll on SUMMER.
Actually, to be fair, I think next block might give me a bit of leeway. I have at least 2 classes I have this block - Personal Project with Ron, which is my Website/Webcomic, Digital Photography, which we've meshed together with this block and working on both simultaneously. Lastly Life Drawing. None of these classes require me learning a shit load of new techniques and software, which should mean more time to do proper assignments rather than hours worth of learning curves. The reason I'm pleased about this is the possibility of doing an evening class at Glasgow Metropolitan College - An Introduction to 3D Studio Max. It's an 11 week course that begins in April through June and costs £102. Being on benefits though, I may get my fee wavered, which is even better. Having background knowledge with 3D Max is never going to be a bad thing, in fact it will help a ton when it comes to my HND especially!
Other news...I had to get up early this morning, even though it's my day off :P Sacrifices I make to hang with Lewis :D Nah, it was fine, meant i got up before noon and could get some work done. We had a coffee at Cafe Nero, had a chinwag, then he trotted off to work as I went and bought some clothes :) (Jeans and a couple of long T's - I'll edit photos in later) Nipped up to The Art Store to have a look at portfolio folders...yeah, not paying £30-£50 quid - no way. Then to the station for a new railcard and train home, where I was promptly hit on and subsequently freaked out as the plonker followed me off the train even though he was going to Alloa... O.o I'm glad Mutti was coming for me!
Now i'm home I have 2 written reports to write, 2 websites to build and Flash stuff I can't do with my gfx tablet >.< I'm thinking I need to stay later in college, not next week, but the following, to see if I can use room 4040 in the afternoons and what not to get my animation and games design stuff done! At least until my pen arrives from Trust!
Oh! the other day I was at the hospital for my 4 monthly check or whatever it is and before I got there promptly shut my finger in the taxi door, well enough to make it bleed wildly! The nurse dressed it for me at the hospital :P All things went well regarding Humira results and I've been given the go-ahead to come of one of my tablets - Sulphasalasine! \o/ I also don't take my Celebrex anymore, so I'm slowly reducing how much crap I put into myself daily :P
That night though was Humira injection time and I completely failed to do it :( I couldn't bring myself to push the button and I was proper angry and pissed at myself. 40 minutes I sat there, poised, building myself up and just as I was getting to the point I might have been able to - I triggered the thing by accident, stabbed myself, got a fright, pulled back and it went all over the carpet :( £300+ drug WASTED O.o That just made me worse. I was completely pissed and miserable and into the bargain had a sorer leg than I would have had if i'd just DONE IT. I now have a lovely big, blue, bruise on my left thigh :( Mutti called my nurse specialist yesterday, whilst I was at college all day, to see what we should do and she said not to try giving myself another injection for 2 weeks because they don't know what that little bit extra could do to me - great. :( In addition to that she also said, if i wanted, I could go to the hospital for my next injection and she would do it/help me, in order to try and rebuild some of my confidence :/ I might do that. I'm not really sure why this is getting harder, it should be getting easier...The only reasonably sensible conclusion i've drawn is the fact I'm constantly tired these days and incredibly stressed out and been doing it at night when I'm even more tired. Perhaps I'm just very sensitive to it, them all being heightened because I'm shattered and stressed. It's also a huge thing for me to do, being terrified of needles and it hurting like a motherfucker as well, perhaps it's just one thing too much at the moment. I don't know...
My plan of action is this:-
Moving on to something less depressing...
I have a busy week ahead of me actually, which is why i'm cramming this weekend, as much as possible anyway.
In fact, that's not even me being silly, the workload is killing me - slowly! On...Tuesday night (i think) I had a bit of a mental breakdown due to being overworked, with too many deadlines, very early mornings and surviving on a maximum of 5 hrs sleep a night O.o Roll on SUMMER.
Actually, to be fair, I think next block might give me a bit of leeway. I have at least 2 classes I have this block - Personal Project with Ron, which is my Website/Webcomic, Digital Photography, which we've meshed together with this block and working on both simultaneously. Lastly Life Drawing. None of these classes require me learning a shit load of new techniques and software, which should mean more time to do proper assignments rather than hours worth of learning curves. The reason I'm pleased about this is the possibility of doing an evening class at Glasgow Metropolitan College - An Introduction to 3D Studio Max. It's an 11 week course that begins in April through June and costs £102. Being on benefits though, I may get my fee wavered, which is even better. Having background knowledge with 3D Max is never going to be a bad thing, in fact it will help a ton when it comes to my HND especially!
Other news...I had to get up early this morning, even though it's my day off :P Sacrifices I make to hang with Lewis :D Nah, it was fine, meant i got up before noon and could get some work done. We had a coffee at Cafe Nero, had a chinwag, then he trotted off to work as I went and bought some clothes :) (Jeans and a couple of long T's - I'll edit photos in later) Nipped up to The Art Store to have a look at portfolio folders...yeah, not paying £30-£50 quid - no way. Then to the station for a new railcard and train home, where I was promptly hit on and subsequently freaked out as the plonker followed me off the train even though he was going to Alloa... O.o I'm glad Mutti was coming for me!
Now i'm home I have 2 written reports to write, 2 websites to build and Flash stuff I can't do with my gfx tablet >.< I'm thinking I need to stay later in college, not next week, but the following, to see if I can use room 4040 in the afternoons and what not to get my animation and games design stuff done! At least until my pen arrives from Trust!
Oh! the other day I was at the hospital for my 4 monthly check or whatever it is and before I got there promptly shut my finger in the taxi door, well enough to make it bleed wildly! The nurse dressed it for me at the hospital :P All things went well regarding Humira results and I've been given the go-ahead to come of one of my tablets - Sulphasalasine! \o/ I also don't take my Celebrex anymore, so I'm slowly reducing how much crap I put into myself daily :P
That night though was Humira injection time and I completely failed to do it :( I couldn't bring myself to push the button and I was proper angry and pissed at myself. 40 minutes I sat there, poised, building myself up and just as I was getting to the point I might have been able to - I triggered the thing by accident, stabbed myself, got a fright, pulled back and it went all over the carpet :( £300+ drug WASTED O.o That just made me worse. I was completely pissed and miserable and into the bargain had a sorer leg than I would have had if i'd just DONE IT. I now have a lovely big, blue, bruise on my left thigh :( Mutti called my nurse specialist yesterday, whilst I was at college all day, to see what we should do and she said not to try giving myself another injection for 2 weeks because they don't know what that little bit extra could do to me - great. :( In addition to that she also said, if i wanted, I could go to the hospital for my next injection and she would do it/help me, in order to try and rebuild some of my confidence :/ I might do that. I'm not really sure why this is getting harder, it should be getting easier...The only reasonably sensible conclusion i've drawn is the fact I'm constantly tired these days and incredibly stressed out and been doing it at night when I'm even more tired. Perhaps I'm just very sensitive to it, them all being heightened because I'm shattered and stressed. It's also a huge thing for me to do, being terrified of needles and it hurting like a motherfucker as well, perhaps it's just one thing too much at the moment. I don't know...
My plan of action is this:-
- Change the day to a Sunday afternoon- this gives me at least Saturday to get a good rest.
- Go see Vicki at least once as she suggested.
- Get Vati to do it for me.
- Change method - either get syringe (which there is no way in hell I could do myself) or drip at the hospital :/
Moving on to something less depressing...
I have a busy week ahead of me actually, which is why i'm cramming this weekend, as much as possible anyway.
- Tonight Mutti, Vati and I are off to the Imax to see Avatar in 3D - we've heard a lot fo "the story is shit" but also "the animation is incredible!" This is what i'm interested in - geif animation!
- Tomorrow I get my Gondor! <3
- Sunday I'm out with my college mates to celebrate my birthday with some Pizza Hut and Movie (The Book of Eli)
- Monday - JAMES ARRIVES! (and a full day at college - boo!)
- Tuesday involves morning at college at then J and I are heading to my sister's for dinner.
- Wednesday i'm at college in the morning, physio (maybe) afterwards, then dinner with family, J and Lewis at night.
- Thursday - college ALL DAY - and a relaxing night curled up with James no doubt \o/
- Friday - Birthday night out
- Saturday - Edinburgh
- Sunday - J departs :(